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Thursday, March 31, 2005

lemme announce my appalling results. i got F for chem n O for maths. chem was a shocking 28/90. incredible huh? actualie im glad i didnt get less than 15. but still im upset cos i really mugged like HELL for chem. sighs. but de ultimate disappointment was maths. i fell short of my own expectations. mugged for maths n practiced pretty hard. but i guess not hard enough. i only wanted a pass. fell short of a few marks to it. was in a v bad mood, or rather i was v v disappointed. n kor called. when i was in de lowest dumpy mood. thank gosh he called. or i'd probably have gone home after school n cried. happened that he wanted to meet at coro, so we went ke ai ji (aka cute chicken?) ate lemon chicken n had ice milo. den talked talked talked to kor. its somehow comforting to talk to him lah. he has his way of brightening up my day. that's why he's kor. =)

well lemme talk abit about de wonderfully funnie n boring morning! we had council elections for the first 4 periods.. n our 5th period was a break.. so in total we had crappy stuffs till 1120am.. how great! ah ma, nana n me were finding ways n means to get out of school right after assembly.. but somehow de councilors are smarter lah.. they blocked all exits.. n i mean ALL.. even de way u walk to tchs, even the path behind de LTs.. simply every single exit lah! hahaha.. zai.. council zai.. okie, so we were left with no choice but to drag our asses to the LT to watch crappy ppl running for elections.. ultimate boredom i tell ya! but there were funnie things lah.. i was sleeping right from the start of de whole thing.. n i woke when this guy started singing.. YES i said SINGING. n his singing is like so mega ultra out of tune!!!!!!!! n i mean SERIOUSLY OUT OF TUNE!!!!!!! okay, i cant sing well but i bet i sing better than him.. goodness me.. n de J2s still poked fun at him by screaming encore after he finished shrieking the song.. hahahahah.. ultimatum! shiyang did some farnie imitation of the anti-drugs advertisement.. he sounded exactly like the guy in de advert lah! okie that was all i woke up to hear.. de rest was drowned in my snores~ zzz..

ohhh yesh! de exciting things happened after elections! brotherhood went to adam food centre, ah jie n dil n guys went to kap, nana n me went waffletown! so we headed in 3 diff directions.. n guess what! waffletown was CLOSED. *ahhhhhhhhhs* so nana n me were sad.. n we decided to go coro to eat instead.. n on de bus i received a msg from ah jie saying that Pang *our discipline master* was going arnd catching hc students who ran out of school! hahahahah.. n ah jie n guys got caught! so they got worried for me n na.. but we actually went all the way to newton, came back to coro, ate, den went back to school.. n din get caught! hahahah.. lucky us!! brotherhood din get caught either! *phew* just as im typing this im helping qianjun write de essay to Pang.. for leaving school without permission.. hahahah.. managed to crap 570 words! *claps*

anw realie got to thank kor for being there today.. or i'd probably have came home n hid in my room n cried.. plus he sounded like he din wanna sms.. so all the more i felt pent up with feelings n stuffs.. but who cares.. its not like he does.. but thank gosh kor was arnd lah.. really.. n of cos nana was trying her best to comfort me as well.. *hugggs* love u guys.. n for all those that comforted me ydae.. thanks.. AH MA YOU RAWK! simply love u lah! =) its reallie nice to hear ur advice.. well to every single one that showered concern or gave me a hug or comforted me.. i really really appreciate it.. thanks.. =)

*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:18|



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*[a lil princess thought at]*|22:25|

Wednesday, March 30, 2005

the very moment i stepped into my hse i received a msg. a msg i wish i hadnt read. im broken. will someone piece me back again? guess i brought this upon myself. n since he has made his choice, i shall respect it. i was de one that gave him the option in the first place. if there's anyone to blame, i shd blame myself for not cherishing what i had. i've nv been hurt so deep. probably cos i've nv loved so deep either. tears fall in this empty room of mine. but nobody would know. nobody shall. i'd still wipe my tears n carry on with life. that's what he wants. hope he finds his happiness out there. i will be sad, but at least i hope someone else will love him better than i do.

had a talk on money today. about how to be rich, how to be successful. wanted to share w him. but i guess there isnt that someone there to share with anymore. my blog shall be my soul partner. gained quite alot from de talk though many ppl werent interested. maybe its cos he has been talking to me bout such things recently, so i paid more attention than i normally would to this topic of money. did u know that if u saved $7 a mth from the age of 15, u'd be a millionaire at the age of 65? start saving $15 a mth from age 20. den u'd be a millionaire by 65. learnt bout money handling n stuffs. its interesting. n i think its essential n useful for us in future.

today's school was only GP n CT. cos we ponned PE n phy lect. cos we din bring tee for PE n din bring notes for lect. tmr's first 5 lessons are rubbish so i guess we're gonna run out of school for breakfast. getting back papers tmr i guess. GP on monday.

i dun feel like blogging anymore. i dun have anything to say. or rather, i dont know what to say. im broken.

*[a lil princess thought at]*|15:52|

Monday, March 28, 2005

we've a new blogger!!! yays!!!!! im so excited cos she's de one im alwaes talking about in my blog! nana aka ben niao aka self declared princess! my fellow waffle town mate! my love counsellor! ahhhhhs! link to her blog HERE!!! she's got a nice skin! =)) wheeeeeeees! n she's a lor so blogger as well! her entries are like double of my length lah! n i mean reallieeeeee long! hahahahah.. 04s6b ppl pls check her blog out! yeahs! =) both na n i did our blogs ourselves! trial n error! hahaha.. she's sucha zai kia! =))

*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:59|



wheeees! slacker slacker slacker day! got awokened by workers DRILLING outside my house.. n i was so pissed they woke me at 8am!! wth! so i opened de door n GLARED at dat guy.. den he got a shock n stopped drilling for awhile.. but he continued after about 15 mins!!!!!!!!! FREAK! gotta drill so earlie in de morning arh! GRR. my precious sleep k! *huihui is right.. not de workers' fault lah.. but still i was so damn pissed*

anw i slacked arnd n managed to survive with the drilling for a few hours *that's sucha feat!* before i went out to J8 for lunch! caesar salad n ban mien! yays! was introing coffeebean caesar to sy lah.. but of cos it isnt filling for a big guy like him.. hahah.. so we had ban mien! oooh de ban mien veg changed back to de nice nice one already~ =) n there's this stall selling red pearl milk tea for 90cents in bishan!!!! goodness me! go GRAB IT!

after that went to slack at sy's place.. den evening went back to J8 to wait for mommy~ met hui there! saw her w her klassmates again! alwaes seeing them arnd lor! n AGAIN i spotted junjie.. his body long lah.. easily spotted.. hahaha.. n hui agrees that sticky chewy choco rawks! yays! =D they were celebrating chinhong's bdae! happie bdae chinhong!! okie i dunno him that well but still met him quite a few times due to hui yarh? =) my social circle's wider just cos of frens' frens' frens.. lardidums~

anw xiangyu n peiqi xuehui n janice are all in hc! wonder if there are other theatre jnrs in here n i dunno.. well im glad they're here to join de crazy hedge-see farmily.. =)) n hope they'd enjoy life here lah~ read xy's blog n can see that she cant stand orientation.. well dun worry! cos i ponned as much as u! hahah.. i totally understand how 2nd orientation SUX to de core! u'll enjoy much more when normal school starts n u get to ur klasses!!

tmr's phy SPA skill A! n i know NUTS about it! n i mean NIL~ im so so so dead tmr! what's de first line to start with? anyone can tell me? hahaha. chiam rawks i tell ya. *turns arnd n pukes* +)

*[a lil princess thought at]*|22:54|

Sunday, March 27, 2005

chua's day! todae's lesson was fun! as usual! =) i nearly got cheated into getting electrocuted.. n i think chua thot i DID get electrocuted.. but de pt is i was so lazy i poked de pen into de table so i din get electrocuted at all! hahaha.. thank gosh~ anw there's this other stapler that electrocutes as well! that one has a much stronger voltage! those guys that got shocked kind of threw de stapler away.. hahahah.. anw we made this loop by joining hands n seeing how many ppl the voltage could pass thru.. n i got shocked! my hands got numb!!! n to think that some guys couldnt feel it.. *thick skin ppl lah~* hahahah..

after klass went to meet ying n hua! =) went shopping.. talked n slacked.. n had extremely nice caesar salad at coffeebean! i wanna go back!!! *drooools* they reallie tossed de salad v well.. n it tasted splendid! oh manx! the last time i had it at suntec it wasnt SO GOOD! hahahah.. im so nuts over it.. im gonna have salad for lunch for the next week or smth.. =) ooh anw we were being bimbotic as usual! making lots of noise n giving lots of comments on clothes everywhere! n we found this nice comfy wedge in Zara! guess its price?? *drumroll.......* $136!!! tada! isnt that sooo wonderful? (i sound like some absolute bimbo now.. freak) oh manz saw so many nice tops today! okie not exactly MANY.. but yea.. im deprived of shopping yarh? hahah.. gonna go grab Fox tops someday.. as well as that nice black n purple shirt in future state.. it reminds me of my previous previous skin.. somehow~

anw i left arnd 5 to go down to thomson to pass sy his stuffs.. den i called mommie who told me to settle my dinner outside!!!!! so i was thinking i had to settle dinner alone.. but dearie was nice n accompanied me for dinner! beehoon goreng at de nice nice place near thomson plaza!! +) thanks dear! *hugggs* or else i would have gotten dinner alone.. probably would have conveniently skipped it lah! hahahah..

oooooooh today's EASTER DAY! i remember it as the egg day.. im sure today means alot more to christians lah.. which reminds me of the bitching session hua n me have for CHC.. hahaha.. we're so absolutely irritated by their ppl.. *shudderS* they really shouldnt look us up ANYMORE or i'd gladly kick them down the stairs! +) ohh yes back to easter.. i found this retard game for u guys to try out! its good way to kill boredom lah.. +) click on Easter Eggin to play!

*[a lil princess thought at]*|22:39|

Saturday, March 26, 2005

okie! i've put up the mozilla website for those who cant see my blog! yays! n i've updated my links! =) hope i'd see harry online later n i'd solve de prob! omg he rawks manx! he's like my debugger! goodness! i din expect him to help lor! i din even ask! AHHHS! *huggggS!* thanks my dear! thanks a zillion!

anw todae's hua's birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING!!!!! I MISS YOU SO SO SO MUCH! *SMOOCHES* hahahah.. im so high over meeting ying n hua todae lah! we were in ps eating takoyaki n drinking coffee! n laffing over crazie stuffs! cos hua was talking bout her fren named Nissa.. which reminded me of Nissan.. which then reminded me of Honda n Lexus.. hahah.. *mind you, those are real names of my frens!* hahahah.. so ying said her daughter would be Mercedez, n i said my son would be Benz!!! so hua's would be Cycle n Carriage!!! hahahah.. dumbo us with our retarded conversation! n we decided that Milan is a cool n classy name~ how's that? ;) clever us eh? hahaha..

absolutely love sitting down n chatting w my darlings like the times in ny.. realised that i miss them so much.. n that i've lost touch with them for so long! but its comforting to feel that we still click like before.. at least i feel so.. i still feel so at home with them.. =) they're gonna be my bridesmaid when i marry! hahaha! we said that in sec 2 i think? im gonna keep to my word! they will definitely be my bridesmaid! but somehow that set me thinking.. how come i can lose touch with them for months n yet feel like our r/s is as good as ever.. while i can be in contact with some for months n feel like we're separating apart.. hmm?

anw back to starbucks coffee! we called chris when we were there cos we wanted to drop by n say hi to them.. n guess what that pig said! he said we were 'wu liao!!!' goodness me! ying n me were gonna SQUISH him to death when he said that to hua over the fone! hahaha.. its like we're trying to be nice n go over to say hi to them.. n we're making the trip.. n he says we're WU LIAO! grr! chris u betta watch out! ying n me will kill u de next time we meet! GRR. actualie tmr we wanted to crash chris' place to play mahjong.. but he said he wasnt free.. so we wanted to crash sy's place.. but ying wants to shop.. n hua changed her mind bout mahjong.. so we're just gonna shop shop shop till we drop tmr! yippies!!!!

oooh tmr ish chua's day! again! impt lesson wor! n im responsible for buying breakfast for those few girls! hahaha.. ah pa just changed to firefox! he can read my blog now! HI AH PA!!!! *WAVES* ooh n i just remembered i met junjie n ah jie at PS! junjie was in de choco shop w his aunt i think? den he called out to me.. den his aunt was like 'your ou xiang arh?' or smth.. wahahah! im his idol!!! =) ohh yesh saw 50 eligible bachelors! n glenn ong n daniel ong n jamie yeo in town! n a few other artistes i dunno de name! so many of them flooding town lor!

nice song for u guys.. check it out..

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Almost Here - Delta Goodrem Ft. Brian McFadden

Did I hear you right
'cause I thought you said
Let's think it over
You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you

Shadows bleeding through the light
Where the love once shined so bright
Came without a reason
Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?

But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause you're only almost here

I would change the world
If I had a chance
Oh won't you let me
Treat me like a child
Throw your arms around me
Oh please protect me

Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you

But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause you're only almost here

Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you

But when I need you
You're almost here
Well I never knew how far behind i'd left you
And when I hold you you're almost here
Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted
And now I'm with you I'm close to tears
'cause I know I'm almost here
Only almost here

*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:27|



new skin by jimmy.. those who have read his books or watched those movies would probably love this skin.. i like it very much personally.. =) anw its hua's bdae today!!!! happie 18th birthdae darling!!! *hugggS* gonna meet her later in the day.. i wonder how im gonna crawl out of bed tmr.. mom's screaming at me to go to bed every 15 mins.. i better do so before i get blind with my contacts in my eyes for more than 24 hours.. hahaha.. hope de IE ppl can read my blog now! its changed just for those with IE! cos they couldnt read de previous skin! =( lousy IE! thank gosh hui n i use mozilla! hahahah! kkie im off to bed! niiiites!

*[a lil princess thought at]*|02:07|

Friday, March 25, 2005

hahahah.. de screwed up scrollbar just refuses to budge.. cant get rid of it at all! even with harry's help! ohh no.. anw due to complains from many readers i'd have to change skin AGAIN.. hahah.. probably smth darker so chris' screen wont blind him at nite.. hahaha.. anw thanks to harry for ur help.. =) u're alwaes there to help me w my blog lor! *hugggs!* n thanks to marcus who chose this skin for me! i bet u din know its so disastrous when used lah.. but still its a chio skin! =) might use the 'lalala' one after this.. go check it out n gimme comments~!

well had family breakfast todae! went to bk for breakfast! yummy!! okie its exceptionally nice cos daddy n mommy were there! seldom have breakfast together nowadays since dad's alwaes out.. i miss family family bonding.. =)

tmr's plans are so messy! i have no idea what's going on manx.. think its kinda hard to arrange things now.. well i'll have to contact everyone n see if there is this short period of FREE TIME in between everyone's busy schedules.. hua's bdae tmr! yays! she's turning 18! *goodness all of us are 18 this year lah.. but noone acts the age!* hahaha.. hope tmr will be a happening day!!

*[a lil princess thought at]*|16:57|



new layout! howl's moving castle! ahhhhhhhs! howl's so shuai! i loooooove him! *melts* de little boy n sophia are so cute too! ahhhhhhs! i want de vcd! i want de merchandise! HOWL! shuai ge! hahahaha.. anw i think guys dun appreciate that movie.. like weileong who went 'what show is this?' after the whole movie.. hahaha.. but girls absolutely love it lor! =) anw how's de new layout? i know de tagboard sux.. bear w it for awhile k.. i'll fix it asap.. ;)

physics was SUCKY todae! as usual! hahaha.. nvm.. i'll await my triple Fs! =) after physics, the whole grp of us headed to town for movie! 14 of us watched together! =) klass outing! hahaha.. den de girls went shopping arnd heeren while de guys just stoned n slacked arnd.. n i met evelyn! evelyn tay of cjc! n kailing! hahaha.. evil couldnt recognise me lor.. so saddening! but still it was nice to see her.. met bernice, elena, charlene.. n lots more i cant recall.. all in town todae! its de mega outing day! end of block tests! start of long weekend! WHEEEES! im gonna havok till tues! den get my disastrous results! hahahahah.

*[a lil princess thought at]*|00:37|

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

yeshyesh. as PPC *hc discipline master n chem teacher* told his class, chem paper is a 'JAW DROP' paper. i din even have de time to drop my jaw lah. cos i was too busy figuring out what de qns were trying to say. for a split moment i thought that was german or french or spanish. just not english. incomprehensible. oh FREAK IT. hahahah. it was so disastrous i think i guessed more than half of my MCQs. n section b was even more terrible. like dil puts it, we only know how to do de first PART of de first qn. not de whole qn k. its just one part. hahahah. the qn was to explain the term 'weak acid'. yes its a giveaway qn. but its onlie 1 mark out of 90. hahahah. i doubt i'd score more than 10. seriously. that's an ultimate F for me for block tests. wheeeeees! im so so so dead.

now busy memorising formulas n reading thru phy. wch i have not touched much since... last year? i onlie touch phy when chua is doing it on sundae. other than that i dun think chiam gave me any motivation to mug phy. hahahah. just hope i can do tmr's paper. i seriously need to PASS it. i dun wanna get triple F. =(

okie okie. enough of stressful stuffs. tmr is de LAST PAPER!!!! wch means i can go out n have fun after that!!!!!! YAYSSS!!!!!!!! shd be catching movie n having some mini klass outing tmr! todae's break in between chem SPA n chem paper was de funniest.. cos de girls were making lots of noise n not studying for chem.. n we were discussing where to go after phy paper.. so all of us got high n all.. hahahah.. we suggested ice skating, staying over at my place, sentosa, movies, shopping etc etc etc.. yups.. n nana was going seriously nuts during break.. n somehow i got influenced n went crazie as well.. of cos i went even crazier when i saw de paper.. de wonderful chem paper.. im gonna use that paper n shock ppl who take chem.. this is hc chem standard.. FREEEEEAK. hahahaha.

im looking forward to physics paper for ONCE! cos its de LAST PAPER! hahahahah. im looking forward to meeting hua on saturday! n of cos i look forward to seeing kor after block tests! can jio him out le! yays! im so high high high! ooooh btw i wanna make a note that i love chiam. he hasnt taught us skill A though our SPA is on tuesdae. WELL DONE. i love him so much. youzi was like saying mondae cannot go sentosa.. must study spa.. den i was like 'study what? what do u write for skill A?' yes that's how ignorant i am. someone enlighten me so i dun flunk spa can? hahahah..

i wanna be happy. but sometimes its hard yarh? i find happiness all around me. n i am happy. but sometimes i wish de happiness came from somewhere else, from someone else. but sometimes i know i cant expect n want too much. im contented with what i have. but i'll continue seeking my happiness in that special somewhere. i believe i'll find it one day. =)

*[a lil princess thought at]*|22:05|



Black and cold, bitterness denies easy escape. The sides are slippery with resentment. A floor of muddy anger stills the feet. The stench of betrayal fills the air and stings the eyes. A cloud of self-pity blocks the view of the tiny exit above.
Step in and look at the prisoners. Victims are chained to the walls. Victims of betrayal. Victims of abuse. Victims of the government, the system, the military, the world. They lift their chains as they lift their voices and wail. Loud and long they wail.
They grumble. They’re angry at others who got what they didn’t.
They sulk. The world is against them.
They accuse. The pictures of their enemies are darted to the wall.
They boast. “I followed the rules. I played fairly. . . in fact, better than anybody else.”
They whine. “Nobody listens to me. Nobody remembers me. Nobody cares about me?"
Angry. Sullen. Accusatory. Arrogant. Whiny. Put them all together in one word and spell it b-i-t-t-e-r. If you put them all in one person, that person is in the pit--the dungeon of bitterness.
The dungeon, deep and dark, is beckoning you to enter. You can, you know. You’ve experienced enough hurt. You’ve been betrayed enough times. You have a history of rejections, don’t you? Haven’t you been left out, left behind, or left out in the cold? You are a candidate for the dungeon.
You can choose, like many, to chain yourself to your hurt.
Or you can choose, like some, to put away your hurts before they become hates.
But do not forget you have a choice to rejoice over what u have, what you always had. You are bitter because you forgot what you have and focused on what you didn't have. It takes courage to set aside jealousy and rejoice with the achievements of a rival.

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that was a forwarded mail i got.. it was actualie in the context of christianity but of course i changed it to my own.. hahahah.. im gonna burn down that stupid church one day with tim! =) blog bout my papers later..

*[a lil princess thought at]*|17:17|

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

im so screwed for maths! hahahah. there were so many proving n hence kinda qns! n yet i couldnt prove! n i couldnt work on the 'hence' part as well! ahhhhs! congrats. one subject down. n i mean down down DOWN. hahahah. ms ng is gonna hold me at gunpoint after she marks my paper. i mean it. hahahah. im still high after failing. hmm. what's wrong with me?

anw im overflowing w chem. (though i still feel that i do not know enough) tollen's reagent, fehling's solution, brady's reagent, PCl5, FeCl3, tri-iodoform...... freak. im so STUFFED. feel so bloated w chem though i din have dinner. cramps are killing me. grr. of all times i get cramps NOW. poor me.

anw i had to go town to run errand for mom. *yes im having exams n im still running errands* n i saw her of all people. honestly i sometimes feel so jinxed. wanted a new blog name n that name is taken by her of all the millions in the world. n i happily go to town n i see her of all people. what's wrong manz. WHAT'S WRONG. would the "someone up there" pls stop playing tricks on me? i hate seeing her.

well im not interested. im interested in CHEM! tmr's chem paper! freako! de super tough paper that every student n teacher have been talking about! hope i dun die of heart attack tmr. there's still physics. hahahah. gonna mug real hard for chem spa. pls let me pass my spa at least? tmr's a long day. hang on hang on hang on mad! =) 3 papers down! only 2 more to go! WHEEEEEEES!!

*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:48|

Monday, March 21, 2005

gp was okie. essay was tougher than compre. de compre was nice. was about de casino debate in sg. i guess close to heart issues are easier to interpret. but de marking scheme might be so jialat that i cmi in de end. so i dun dare to pin high hopes. hahah. ONE PAPER DOWN.

tmr's maths paper is gonna screw me upside down. im already so screwed doing my own revision. i know nuts bout integration n p&c n AP, GP. freak. im dying. stressssssed.

some fren asked me to go CHC for some service thing. but im very anti CHC. for those dat dunno what CHC is, its de church that Ms Ho Yeow Sun's husband started. rings a bell now? hahahah. im anti CHC. when sy mentioned it de other time n said he was going i was abit wth already. n now im asked to go. oh thank u but no thank you. =)

pray that i pass more than one paper in block tests. okie i'd be glad to pass one. hahah. happiness comes from self contentment. =)

*[a lil princess thought at]*|22:14|



have u ever felt like u dun wanna talk anymore?
have u ever felt like your words made no sense?
have u ever felt that your friends understand u better than him?
have u ever felt like he doesnt know about u at all?
have u ever felt like walking out of everything cos it no longer mattered?
have u ever felt like screaming?
have u ever felt like crying?

i have. i felt it. i feel it. its all happening right now.

*[a lil princess thought at]*|00:16|

Sunday, March 20, 2005

its sundayy! one more day to block tests! *im so excited* -_-" im not gonna fret n make myself stressed anymore. im stressed enough as it is. anw todae's chua's day! again! =) waves revision was v useful considering the fact that i havent touched much of phy. chua somehow gets more facts in your head in 2 hours as compared to u mugging alone for a day. de WONDER-CHUA. hahahah.

went to m1 shop to get my mms settings done already! yays! =) now i have free mms from 5-8! im gonna bombard u guys w mmses! wahahahah.. n i saw this www.sportskaki.com event at ngee ann city! there was bball, netball n golf n stuffs.. pretty funkie.. hui wanted to shoot bball but she felt weird cos she was dressed all girly n stuff.. hahah.. n somehow de netball reminded me of pri school netball.. i miss those days! havent played netball proper for a hell long time.. nobody wants to play with me!!! *whines in de hui kinda tone* wahahah..

i've found nice blogskins!! gotta look hui up for comments n decide which is de nicest.. i've got this funkie one i love.. n other sweet sweet ones.. black or white background shd i use this time? i realised i've got no school from fridae to next tues!!! YAYS!!!! *jumps arnd in ecstacy!* saturdae is hua's bdae! thurs is kennedy ho's! rawks! gonna have girls day out again~ lardidums! for now i'll concentrate on block tests!

wish all those who have block tests de best of luck!!! FREAK those schools without block tests! those like AJ n VJ.. freak u! GRR. im gonna pull hui into mugging soon.. hahahahah.. jiayou pple! =)

*[a lil princess thought at]*|19:35|

Saturday, March 19, 2005

read xiaxue in TNP todae. she's endorsed w some local brand of tee shirt. hahah. why dun i get endorsements like her yarh? i dun think her blog's that zai. okie she's prettie *to guys i guess? with all those make up n act cute poses anyone would be prettie* hahah. im evil. anw im not in de mood to muse or whatsoever. kinda sianed now. yups. not in de mood to do anything at de moment. studied phy for de whole dae n i feel that i havent gained much. so shittie. i need chua.

btw i caught high on life concert just now. i onlie caught it after the taufik part. sobs. i wanna watch de other sg idol finalists. n i wanna watch sly! n rui en! ahhhhs! told mom i wanted to stay home to watch but she dragged me out for dinner. but i got my fave tofu w fried radish. so its okie. =) well. i must say that I TRULY TRULY ADMIRE WANG LEE HOM!!!! after evaluating rite, i feel that he's one that can sing *LIVE i mean*, can compose, can dance, n is shuai! n he's fluent in english n chinese! cool dude. cos i was watching him sing live on de show.. n sorrie i kinda thot of jay chou's live performances.. which are kinda.. haywire.. *jay fans dun kill me. im a fan of his too. but being brutally honest, he cant sing live for nuts. he either forgets lines or goes off pitch. u gotta admit that.* hahaha. seldom hear me bad mouthing jay yarh? but yea. in comparison i think he fades. but his compositions rawk. more originality. =) i like talented guys.

havent slept much AGAIN. just very restless n cant sleep properly. i'd try to n i'd just pop out of bed after an hour. n i'd start reading stuff all over again. stress? maybe. (stop asking me to sleep. u were the one that said sleeping was a waste of time.) im not angry or whatsoever. im just sianed. that's de onlie word i can describe my feelings with. anw find frens to accompany u tmr. dun think i wanna go. yups. anw back to topic. i cant sleep! been losing sleep n i probably look like a panda now. hahah. anw dil got D500C! so now we both have slide fones! yays! =) can check out each other's fone tmr! n tmr we're gonna have BK breakfast! YAYS! hahah. why am i so high bout it? cos i've been so bored stuck here w books n books n onlie books. not even getting entertained by smses. how boring can that get. hahah. thank gosh dil n kor were msging me. *hugggs* or i'd be bored to death by now.

kkie im gonna sleep for an hour. oh yes. im gonna change blogskin soon. those who blog pls gimme comments on what new skin to use. if u have nice ones intro k? thanks guys! =) i got the thing below from another blog. changed it a little n here it is.

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im gonna smile like nothing's wrong. talk like everything's perfect. act like its all a dream. walk away n pretend its not hurting me. acting strong though i know i'd never be. i turn to look back n memories overwhelm me. flashbacks of times we were happy. but it still is all a dream.

*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:12|

Friday, March 18, 2005

crashed np todae. went to a place called galileo cafe for lunch! they've got nice pan fried dory n agedashi tofu! MUST try de agedashi tofu if u ever go into np! its a CANNOT MISS! another thing u cant miss is the hot fudge brownie from Splash! heavenly i tell ya! with those macadamia n hazelnuts in there... *drooools* well i got convinced to stay in np to mug *firstly cos kap i gotta buy food.. n i dun feel like wasting money.. n secondly cos gotta walk out in de hot sun.. hahahah* so i mugged in np listening to 987fm n studying hydroxyls, carbonyls n electrochem n DE. yups. that place is very productive cos its so condusive for studying. u dun freeze due to air conditioning like in kap, neither do u swelter with sweat in the hot sun. its not too cold not too hot. n its pretty quiet with occasional noise from ppl who walk pass. rawks. i love mugging there. rawks. besides those termites which accompanied me thruout my mugging.. i guess i have nothing to complain. hahahah. btw i cant get my mms to work. so sickening. but tmr im gonna go M1 shop to give those 3 free numbers! so can ask them at de same time! =)

its fridae! i love fridaes! cos normal timetable my shortest day is fridae! hahaha. n cos its de prelude to weekend! n cos its fridae! but block tests are coming n im stressed. honestly im freakin stressed. been working late night n i feel so tired now. aching all over n so stressed out. im like some walking zombie. when im high im VERY high. but after that i get all tired out again. surprisingly i onlie slept like 3 hours last night. n i still managed to mug so much todae. freak. im zombified.

anw he cut his hair! think it looks nice now! =) well it has alwaes been nice! =) btw im quite sad that frens seem to be running into probs w their r/s. there is onlie that much i can help. i can try my best to be there n i can talk to them. but i truly hope n pray that they'd be strong. mentally. im sure they can do it. jiayou darlings. im alwaes here for u guys. rmr de no. to dial for help yarh? 98469504. =) rmr there's this shortie here who loves u. so she'd appear anywhere u want her to be. she'll get there asap with de limited short legs. yeps! dunnid to thank me. cos u guys were there when i needed u too! so jiayou jiayou!

*[a lil princess thought at]*|22:22|

Thursday, March 17, 2005

love and relationships is one big huge issue itself. in fact, i'd say its a problem in itself. love is supposed to be nice, nice n all things nice. but in actual fact it isnt true. it is especially tough to sustain a r/s. every r/s has its plateau stages where the initial interests have worn off. it is at this stage that the couple starts to self-evaluate their r/s.

let me say things from a girl's pt of view *guys take notes now. n i mean NOW!* one impt thing is communication in a r/s. dun expect us to know what u're thinking or feeling. say it out explicitly in words. sometimes u expect smth, n when u dun get it u'd get all upset n stuff. but de fact is that we dont know. so u cant blame us yarh? if we dunno den just let us know. it isnt just about talking. its about feeling comfortable sharing your thoughts n views n emotions.

our emotions are all tied up with the need to feel acknowledged. even if its just a little cuddle or a simple thank you. or even if its de look of gratitude or de smile u give when u receive smth. yes. we do need to feel acknowledged. every single thing u do not acknowledge just adds a log to the growing fire. cos we'd feel inadequate n redundant in your life at some pt of time if u stop acknowledging our presence. n stop appreciating us for who we are.

no matter how much effort we can put into a r/s, if the efforts are not being matched, u're just spinning wheels in vain. it takes two to keep de r/s going. if a r/s fails, no one shd take de entire responsibility. if anyone shd feel like a failure, it shd be u for not having the skills to communicate or be aware of what is going on around yourself. *guys keep this in mind. n stop shifting blame when things arise.*

time cannot be replaced. stop looking back into the past (this applies to both guys n girls) if u're waiting in the r/s for some ghost of his/her past to reappear, u're waiting indefinitely. ppl change. n u gotta realise that this may not be for the better. just cos u've had glimpses of the person he could be, doesnt mean he would be that person. stop holding on to the past n comparing it with the present. cos it never will be the same again. *this applies to me so so so much*

it takes two to fix a problem. we'd feel lonely if u just see yourself in your universe n we're not part of it. if that's the case the problem wont be fixed. once u're in a r/s, u'd try to repair de prob n not run. when one party starts to run, there must be smth seriously wrong. whoever's fault it is, both parties gotta reflect on what went wrong. n both parties are at fault in one way or another. so DONT shift blame. *cant stand guys who do that. selfish freaks.*

most of the time its just a communication prob. so de basis of it all is good communication. work on it n things will be alright. accommodating guys are one in a million. im sure kor is one of that million. so is he. im blessed to be arnd nice guys. im sure my frens have realie nice n great bfs too. treasure them. cherish what u have. be glad u had him for awhile.

*[a lil princess thought at]*|22:42|



1 FASTEST TALKER: In 1995, Canadian Sean Shannon recited Hamlet's "To be or not to be" soliloquy, 260 words, in 23.8secs.

2 HEAVIEST VEHICLE PULLED OVER 100FT: This year, Derek Boyer of Australia pulled a 30.68-tonne truck-trailer combination 30.5 metres.

3 HIGHEST SHALLOW DIVE: In January, Danny Higginbottom of Louisiana dived 8.90m into 30cm of water. *he din knock his head?? 30cm leh!!!*

4 BREATH HELD VOLUNTARILY: The USA's Robert Foster held his breath for 13mins 42.5secs in 1959.

5 LONGEST TIME TO ENDURE FULL BODY ICE CONTACT: Wim Hoff of the Netherlands stood in an ice cube-filled tube for 1hr 17mins in January.

6 MOST CONSECUTIVE POGO-STICK JUMPS: In 1990, Gary Stewart did 177,737 in California.

7 MOST GLASSES BALANCED ON THE CHIN: In 2001, Ashrita Furman managed 75 pint beer glasses for 10.6secs in New York.

8 MOST ONE-FINGER PUSH-UPS: In 1992, Paul Lynch performed 124 in London. *crazie muscle man*

9 OLDEST PERSON TO LOOP THE LOOP: In 1998, Adeline Ablitt, 95, did a glider loop over Leicestershire.

10 HIGHEST TIGHTROPE WALK: Frenchman Michael Menin walked a 3,150 metre-high tightrope in 1989. *freak! i'd get cramps!*

11 WALKING - GREATEST DOCUMENTED LIFETIME MILEAGE: Between 1969 and 2000, Arthur Blessitt of Florida, USA, walked 34,501 miles on seven continents while carrying a 3.7-metre cross.

12 HAIRIEST FAMILY: Mexicans Victor and Gabriel Ramos Gomez have 98% of their bodies covered in fur. *i cant imagine..... =S*

13 HIGHEST G-FORCE ENDURED VOLUNTARILY: 82.6g for 0.04secs by Eli L Beeding Jr of the USA in 1958. He spent three days in hospital afterwards.

14 LONGEST ATTACK OF HICCUPS: Charles Osborne of the USA - 1922 to 1990. *OMG! i feel so blessed! hiccups for so many years!?!?*

15 LONGEST TATTOO SESSION: In 2003, Chris Goodwill spent 33 hours tattooing Kevin Budden in Plumstead, South East London.

16 LONGEST TIME WITH A NAIL IN THE HEAD: Robin Hanshaw of Stoke Poges, Bucks, had a one-inch rusty nail stuck between his ear and eye for 22 years.

17 MOST COMPULSIVE SWALLOWER: In 1927, a Canadian woman had 2,533 objects removed from her stomach, including 947 pins.

18 MOST LIGHTNING STRIKES SURVIVED: Roy C Sullivan from Virginia, USA, was struck for the seventh time in 1977. *FREAK! am i supposed to say she's luckie or unluckie???*

19 MOST PIERCED MAN: Luis Antonio Aguero from Cuba has 230 piercings. *yucks*

20 MOST CHILDREN DELIVERED: American Bobby McCaughey had seven delivered by Caesarean in 1997.

21 MOST FEET SNIFFED: In a 15-year career, Madeline Albrecht sniffed 5,600 feet while working for footcare experts Dr Scholl in the USA. *AHH! that's not me k!*

22 MOST ELASTIC MAN: Pierre Beauchemin is nicknamed Mr Gumby for his ability to contort his arms and legs.

23 FASTEST BALLOON DOG MADE BEHIND BACK: Britain's Craig "Blink" Keith made a balloon poodle in 9.26secs in May, all with his hands behind his back.

24 FASTEST SPEED DRAGGED BEHIND A MOTORBIKE: Gary Rothwell of Liverpool was dragged at 156mph on 2mm titanium-soled boots in 1999.

25 MOST SPOONS BALANCED ON FACE: America's Tim Johnston, 12, balanced 15 on his face for 30secs in May.

26 HEAVIEST TRAIN PULLED WITH BEARD: Ismael Rivas Falcon of Spain pulled a 6,069lb train in 2001. *ouch?*

27 MOST CONSECUTIVE FOOT JUGGLING FLIPS WITH A HUMAN: In 2000, Iranian Ali Bandbaz juggled his brother Massoud for twelve 360o revolutions using his feet.

28 THE HEAVIEST TWINS: In 1978, Billy Leon McCrary weighed 51st 9lbs and his brother, Benny Lloyd, was 57st 1lbs. Both died from heart failure.

29 ORANGE NOSE PUSH: Alistair Ross pushed an orange with his nose along Brighton seafront for a mile last year.

30 MOST WATCHES EATEN: Kim Seung Do from Seoul, South Korea, ate five in 1hr 34mins in 1998. *yucks! u use watches to see timings. not to EAT them!*

31 LONGEST MAGGOT BATH: Christine Martin of Horsham, West Sussex, sat in a bath of them for 1hr 30mins in 2002. *G-R-O-S-S*

32 MOTIONLESS: In 1997, Om Prakash Singh of India stood still for 20hrs, 10mins and 6secs.

33 TALLEST LIVING WOMAN: Sandy Allen of the USA, at 7ft 7ins. *im onlie 4ft 10 ins? i dun wanna stand next to her*

34 HEAVIEST MAN: In 1978, Jon Brower Minnoch of the USA weighed more than 100st.

35 LARGEST HANDS: Hussain Bisad of Somalia's measure 26.9cm from the wrist to the tip of his middle finger. *use a 30 cm ruler n see. yes. that's freakin big*

36 LARGEST CHEST: Robert Earl Hughes of the USA - 315cm. *WHAT!? marcus u're beaten. hahahah*

37 FARTHEST EYEBALL POPPER: Kim Goodman of the USA popped hers 1mm beyond her sockets in 1998.

38 MOST BODY SKIPS: In 2003, handcuffed Ved Prakash Sharma of India skipped with his arms 27 times in a minute, stepping through his arms and bringing them over his head.

39 MOST RATTLESNAKES HELD IN MOUTH: Jackie Bibby of the USA held eight live snakes by their tails for 12.5secs in 2001.

40 FASTEST TIME TO TYPE A MILLION: Between 1982 and 1998, Aussie Les Stewart typed the numbers one to one million in words. *this is lame*

41 LONGEST JOKE-TELLING MARATHON: In 1992, Mike Heeman of the USA cracked 12,682 in 24hrs. *i bet his jokes arent funnie. i wouldnt be laffing at the 12682th joke.*

42 BLINDFOLDED SPEED RECORD: Briton Mike Newman hit 164.87mph on a motorbike in Wiltshire last year.

43 LONGEST TIME ON ONE FOOT: Arulanantham Suresh Joachim of Sri Lanka balanced for 76hrs, 40mins in 1997. *yikes! his leg muscle must be scarie!!*

44 LONGEST TIME TRAPPED IN A LIFT: Cypriot Kively Papajohn, 76, was trapped from Dec 28, 1987, to Jan 2, 1988. She lived on the food in her shopping bag. *what rubbish! nobody save her!?!?!?*

45 LONGEST TONGUE: Britain's Stephen Taylor has a tongue measuring 9.4cm from the tip to the centre of his closed top lip. *LIZARDMAN! A LIVING LIZARDMAN!!!!!!!!!*

46 STRANGEST DIET: Frenchman Michel Lotito has been eating metal and glass since 1959.

47 SHORTEST MAN: In 1990, Gul Mohammed of India was just 57cm tall.

48 MOST TENNIS BALLS HELD IN ONE HAND: Francisco Peinado Toledo of Spain held 18 for 10 seconds last year. *18!? one hand hold 18!? nuts!*

49 OLDEST BAREFOOT WATER-SKIER: George Blair, 87, of the USA waterskied barefoot on Lake Florence, Florida, in 2002.

50 MOST PEOPLE CRAMMED INTO A SMART CAR: 13 girls in Munich, Germany, in 1999.

*[a lil princess thought at]*|11:58|



princess on ice RAWKS!!!! its just so perfect! with de best sound, lighting n props! n of cos de best skaters for their principal actors! my gosh my gosh omigosh! i wanna learn how to skate too! hahahah. disney princess on ice covered de different disney fairytales. including cinderella, beauty n the beast, snow white n the 7 dwarves, sleeping beauty, aladdin, mulan and the little mermaid! i love ariel *aka de mermaid*! she's so prettie! n de whole thingie was so beautiful n grand! cinderella reallie came out in a carriage which was like lit with lightbulbs n all.. all gliterry n stuff.. ahhhhhhs! so prettie! its so dreamy~ *melts* n i love de cutesy little things in de stories too! like de dwarves *my frenS!!!* n de mice in cinderella's story *they sound like chipmunk!*! de whole thing was like a musical on ice, with lots of glitter n glam n glow in the dark touches to it, n with very majestic props n all. absolutely amazing!!!! i miss the whole experience! ahhhhs! anw i was thinking rite.. nowadaes parents spend LOTS on their kids leh.. just look at the no. of luckie kids at princess on ice ydae.. scarie! n i think singapoeans ought to learn to be punctual.. just look at de crowd streaming in even when de show has started.. yikes! n some can be like 15 mins late? -_-"

anw here's a joke i found on a website! enjoy!

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One Day, at a bus stop there was a girl who was wearing a skintight miniskirt. When the bus arrived and it was her turn to get on, she realized that her skirt was so tight she couldn't get her foot high enough to reach to step.

Thinking it would give her enough slack to raise her leg, she reached back and unzipped her skirt a little. She still could not reach the step. Embarrassed, she reached back once again to unzip it a little more. Still, she couldn't reach the step.

So, with her skirt zipper halfway down, she reached back and unzipped her skirt all the way. Thinking that she could get on the step now, she lifted up her leg only to realize that she still couldn't reach the step.

So, seeing how embarrassed the girl was, the man standing behind her put his hands around her waist and lifted her up on to the first step of the bus. The girl turned around furiously and said, "How dare you touch my body that way, I don't even know you!"

Shocked, the man says, "Well, ma'am, after you reached around and unzipped my fly three times, I kinda figured that we were friends."

*[a lil princess thought at]*|10:00|

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

finished integration n vectors. yet to revise J1 topics. save me. urgh. mugging is sick. but i love it. oh wows. i love mugging so much. btw todae tried a new recipe for pasta. quite nice.

tomato pasta recipe (serves 3):
one can of tuna flakes in olive oil
4 hotdogs
button/oyster mushrooms
tomato pasta sauce
tomato puree (S&W is a nice brand)
onions n garlic

try it! those interested in pasta n in cooking. =) or u can try tuna n bacon like pastamania does. might even be better than them. tmr's gonna be disney on ice. hope its nice! i think it'd be! +) gonna mug hard for the whole day den go for a 2 hour break for de performance. yeps. jiayou ppl! i know everyone's mugging hard! jiayou jiayou! +) *some new retard face*

read tim's blog. about friendster. hahaha. i totally agree with u dude! friendster is some online popularity contest! just read de news article about friendster on straits times. on how its turning into fiendster. cos of all the gangs n stuff. hahaha. they shd have expected such rubbish rite? there even are groups with ppl offering sex and all that. plain crap stuff. n i have unknown ppl adding me once or twice every week? some ppl have up to 10 accounts? WOW~ u're soooooo popular. *claps* (im just trying to act as bimbo as u are) hahahah. losing testimonials is sad esp if its from like close friends n all. but if your testimonials are all those forwarded msges. i dun think its a big deal. hahah. they dun mean much anw. blahs. everything has its pros n cons. i love de fact that i actualie find my pri sch frens on frienster. i doubt i'd see them often on de streets. but i hate the fact its sucha contest. yikes.

anw i just got conned. *again* some indian lady asked mommie n me for $1 to take de train home. said she lost her ezlink. den i gave her $1 n we walked on. i turned back n saw her asking another young lady for money. YIKES. why do such cheats exist! n she was dressed quite normally! not like shabbily or anything! urgh. horrible. its cos of such ppl that ppl lose trust in strangers. if someone truly lost their wallet n asked for money in future i'd be more wary. not because i dun trust that person. but more of cos i was conned b4. once bitten twice shy.

back to MUGGING. nope. chat on msn first. kor's online. yays! +)

*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:54|

Monday, March 14, 2005

hey pple.. take down that new no. k? dun call or sms old no. liao.. cos u'll be contacting my mom instead! hahaha.. anw i was surfing blogs. from one to another. den i chanced upon some talking about God and churches n services. yeps i know its mondae n most christians probably had service on sat or sun. or maybe cell group. anw it just got me thinking. cos i truly do not see things the way christians do. *sorrie i dun mean to offend any christians reading my blog. im just voicing my personal views here k?*

i read about this guy who went to church said he felt the Holy Spirit. n he felt so detached from God he cried. that he saw God working miracles in his very own church ydae. i honestly wonder if such 'miracles' are really miracles. its like making me believe in supernatural power. i'd doubt it. cos im unsure of its presence. i do believe there's someone up there looking after me. but the reason im a free-thinker is cos i dun believe in 1 God. there are so many religions worshipping so many Gods. so which one is the real one up there? or are ALL of them up there looking after different groups of ppl? ppl of different religions? does that mean free thinkers like me arent taken care of? no. i think that 'someone up there' has taken care of me all this while. all my life. =) i've been to cell groups. to service. to churches. but the onlie thing that puzzles me is how everyone there seems so into God. its kinda scary when u first go. u feel pressured to be as into it as others are. i've experienced that before. n i din like that feeling. n i feel weird when people thank God in their life for things that happened. little things that happened. for me i'd probably think its a coincidence, its my luck, or its my effort that things happened. but somehow the more religious pple would go like 'Thank God u helped me pull through...' it kind of surprises me why they so believe in God that it seems as though their lives are planned n mapped out by God. isnt it thru your own ability? hmmmx..

i read another blog. surprisingly i chanced upon this blog. it was because i wanted to change my blog webbie to another name instead of madgirlworld. den i realised de name was taken. so i went to check out the blog that took it. dunno if this is coincidence or what. i saw a blog i hoped i din see. but so coincidentally the entry todae was on God too. so i read it n closed the window. no personal attack. but just on the very same issue of religion n my queries. there was a story called 'the cross' on the blog. n it says how God would always be there to help you thru all your tough times. but for a free thinker like me, i would just think the story was about not being overwhelmed by your own problems. there's always light at the end of a tunnel. *pls dun tell me that light was brought by the one up above* i've heard zillions of people telling me that esp when i went to church for a short period of time in sec 4. after some time i just felt as though i was compelled to do things the way everyone was doing. i was supposed to be willingly sacrificing for Him but i wasnt even convinced to do so deep down inside. it felt weird. wch was why i left. cos i din believe in Him n i felt as though i was forced to accept Him in a short time. why do ppl account everything good as a miracle done by Him, and everything bad as a sin done by oneself? isnt that so... sad? u keep feeling that u've sinned against the one above. n u're constantly finding ways to atone your sins? is that so? maybe im unsure bout religions n stuff. but this is just the impression i get. i know there're pple who dun push others into a certain religion. they think its okay for their friends to believe or not believe in God and all. but there're also the pushy kind who scare me. yeps. but one thing i truely admire and love about christians is their thankfulness. for the little things in their lives. i think that's wonderful. i shd start to be thankful for things happening to me too. for ppl arnd me. =)

this entry would probably cause quite abit of unhappiness in devoted buddhists, christians etc. haha. no harm intended. sorrie if it offends u.

anw i wont be notifying everybody bout my new no. i'll onlie tell close friends n those i see on msn. yups. anw i'll be having free incoming so call all u like. hahaha. i'll chat till my batt dies! no probbie! like how kor called todae to ka chiao me.. hahaha. btw i had spanish meatballs for lunch todae! went all the way to ikea for it! =D thanks for pei-ing me dear! its so so so satisfying! luuuuuuuurve it! *slurps* mmmm~ must go try it! was so bloated after lunch we couldnt walk. hahahah. ate for about 2 hours? *faints* oooooh rui en is so chio! so so so chio! as chio as me! *beams* (swallow your puke if u're going to puke~!) hahahah. she's realie very sweet n chio lah. very cute as well. -jealous- oh yesh im jealous of mommie too! she did jap perm n it cost $128!!!! crazie crazie. but she agreed to let me do what i like to my hair in june! wheeees! when my hair is longer! yays! =)

*[a lil princess thought at]*|21:29|

Sunday, March 13, 2005

my title actualie rhymes! woah! anw i realie got my E800C! despite all turbulances. hahaha. went toa payoh to find de fone n de shop that sold it at 398 (w 2 yr plan) actualie told me they dun have it anymore!!!!! *cry* ultra sad. shd have seen my face at that time. ultimately shittie. but i just thought i wasnt fated to get de fone lah. firstly i want pink, den i cant get pink, den i cant even get the fone.. like what crap! saddening. but mommie was already on her way to toa payoh to meet me so i waited for her.. den told her they dun have it anymore.. den she said she'd bring me to amk to find it.. so yeps! we found it in amk! n its in de same shop lor! as in.. same as the toa payoh shop! they're of de same company! n yet de toa payoh guy just told me it was sold out n never help me check other outlets! PEEEEEEEEG. okie nvm. im clever n chio n smart n i've got a great mommy so i found it. wahahahah. dat guy at de shop nearly cheated my mom n persuaded her to get T630C instead. which is BLACK n RECTANGULARISH n UGLY. he kept saying there's mp3 n all that crap but i dun need those functions! i just need a plain fone. i just want it to look good. cannot arh? den he kept psychoing but i kept insisting. until he gave in n i got my E800C. n my mom was kinda pissed at dat time. cos she felt that i was making a rash decision. but i told her we havent even surveyed de price of T630C outside, we wouldnt even know if he's cheating us. and just as i said that, we passed by another hp shop that sold de blackie fone at just $318 lah! when dat guy wanted to sell us at $498!!! big CHEAT. he even psychoed mommie to buy accessories n all that. blahs! but when mom saw de cheaper price of T630C, dat was when mommie said i was smart. *beams* =) im happie with my pinko chio fone! luuuuuuuuuuurve it! wheeeeees!

hui is on de TOP of de list now! with 80 marks! WOAH! im so proud of u darling! *huggggs* marcus n harry dun scold me bout a tough quiz lah.. u guys said de previous one was too ez k! see see see! now u know me better! marcus is a san ba! hahahahah! lalalahhhs! shall not disclose any answers yet.. still alot of ppl haven take! =D lets see everyone fail it! *smirks* hui ish so zai lah! if i do her quiz i think i'd die horribly. oops! =x

oooh anw todae tuition was a TOTAL MESS. i dunno what i absorbed in 2 freakin hours manx. so shittie todae. couldnt absorb at all. den towards de last part it was horrifying lah. i onlie remember formulas. freak. my $80 lesson!!! ahhhhs! anw todae dil n me were waiting for hui, den bong came along, n chen rong came along, n de nj guy came along.. n hui still hasnt reached.. hahahaha.. in de end we ran to klass w heng yi (that funnie nj guy) *btw he walks farnie-ly*

timothy.. remember what u told me bout talking to my dad? saying i'd get a chance to talk to him? i reallie got de chance ydae! after one whole mth i finally got to talk to him! goodness me. n he agreed to de fone n that's how i got it todae! he paid it all for me. im so shocked n surprised n i dunno how to react. n he said he was sorry he wasnt arnd de whole mth n he hasnt been checking how i was. i just cried. i miss daddy so much. but he apologised again n said he'd be busy with stuff for about 2-3 more weeks. cos of some china clients. of cos i said it was alright. i just hope he'd be okay. he's so tired out. sighs. poor daddie. i love him. no matter what he's my beloved papa.

*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:19|



since ppl say de previous quizzie was too simple.. try this one! i think its more challenging.. i hope de scores wont all be 90 n 80!!! hahahah.. maybe im so easily read lah.. everyone knows me inside out.. not everyone.. i guess some ppl still dont! bleahs! anw todae was just shopping n more shopping.. nothing much.. but IT fair was freakin squeezy manx! totally squashed in there! luckily sy was there to save me at times.. n i was wearing slippers n i got stepped on by so many ppl! freakO!!! pain manx! hahaha.. but its alright lah.. managed to spend some time w him before dinner.. den im back to mugging mugging mugging.. someone save me from these tyses n notes n books.. im so suffocated!! *gags*

I made a Quiz for you! Take my Quiz! and then Check out the Scoreboard!

*[a lil princess thought at]*|00:25|

Saturday, March 12, 2005


funky klass! =)my beloved tuition klass!

dil is molesting me!!! she stripped me!!! ahhhhs!

prettie dil!!!

hui n me! -smiles-

ah ma!!!! act cute wor!

4 prettie ladies~

ah ma, dil n me! prettie prettie princesses!!

ah ma n me! chiochio!

*[a lil princess thought at]*|22:45|

Friday, March 11, 2005

okie lemme blog this before i forget everything!! im so high!!! goodness i cant stop my high-ness! hahahah.. choco buffet was fun! with all the acting chio n bimbo n taking of fotos n all those laffing with those farnie guys in de klass! they're absolutely lame i tell u! n at first we (dil bongie hui n me) felt abit weird cos we felt abit left out? basically cos we're newbies in de klass lah.. den nv mix with the other girls.. but i realised de girls also nv mix w de crazie guys.. so in de end we just ended up like 3 grps of ppl? wahahah.. but somehow chen rong came over to our table n chatted w us.. n i think dil n me freaked him out!!! he was giving us that QUEEEEER look cos he thot we were crazie lah! n i had no image to uphold at all cos i was wearing so chio but i acted SO UNCHIO! hahahahah.. but who cares~ like ah ma says "im a princesS!" bleahs! we took lots of pix n i'll upload them later! =) u guys will be stunned by prettie us! wahahahah!

fullerton is indeed prettie lah~ n with de violin playing in de background it makes de whole place feel so classy n stuff.. but somehow with us there it wasnt that classy after all! hahahah.. towards de later part of de night we actualie somehow started mixing abit w de guys lah.. n they're a crazie bunch too! so clicked quite alright i guesS! =) love love love my tuition klass! yays!

oooh i spotted realie nice earrings in future state.. costs $12.. but i decided i shant spend on myself anymore.. since dad said i spent too much.. so i shant spend.. i realised i've alwaes been spending on frens more than on myself.. so even if i dun spend on myself i'll end up buying for frens n stuff..

argh! dad's pissing me off. saying untrue things when he doesnt even know what his daughter is doing. does he even see me when im studying hard? so he shd just shuddup n not say that im lazy. since he isnt even home to show concern for his daughter. i havent seen him in weeks. havent talked to him in a month. wow. great father-daughter r/s. n if he isnt sure of what his daughter is doing at home every day n night, he shouldnt point fingers n say that im wasting money n im not working hard. so what if i sleep at 1+ everynight? so what if i get so tired out i faint in the morning? u only know how to blame me for not going to school, for sleeping late.. do u even know what im doing up to 1am?? shut up cos u do not know that i've been mugging. if u think im wasting your money stop giving me allowance. even if i die on the streets i wouldnt beg u for money. cos u arent willing to spend on me. while u're willing to splurge on others. thank you very much.

*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:58|

Thursday, March 10, 2005

woahs! everyone got above 80 for de test so far leh! fwine~ i shall come up with a harder one soon yarh? bleahs! hahaha.. wait for de REAL test manx!

this morning i fainted in de toilet! hahaha. again u must be thinking.. yeps AGAIN! i think cos of low blood i faint very easily.. esp when im not resting enough.. =( cos ydae mug till 2 den sleep i guess.. sighs. missed out so much in a day! spent de day mugging at home. blahs!

met na after school so i could get notes n stuff, n den could talk to her since she sounded like she needed da great me! hahaha.. of cos she misses me manx! =) went waffletown as usual~ den we talked talked talked n talked! glad that she gained smth out of our chat.. n i also learnt stuff while teaching her! cos i gotta sort out my thoughts before i can advise her yarh? so in a way i learnt about where my own r/s was heading n what i wanted.. yeps.. n i was so retarded! cos na was talking about taking very long to digest info.. den i was like "erm.. maybe he's CONSTIPATED??? wahahahahaha!!!" den de lil boy at de next table turned n stared at me.. i think i laffed too loud? ooops! super maluated~ =) dats y i luuuuuuurve talking to her! nana u rawk! nono.. i rawk more! shortie rawks! (in case anyone is puking, lemme tell u its not allowed!)

was supposed to meet kor in town to help him find anklet.. but it started raining n we got stuck in waffletown!!! so decided to do work there.. den when de rain stopped we just ran out to de bus-stop! in case it rained again u see.. but guess what.. we left without eating de icecream!!! T.T anw sy wanted to meet cos he din have dinner at home.. so went to tp to accompany him for dinner.. as well as wait to meet mom for my own dinner.. n now im home doing QA4! yeps! =) choco buffet is TOMORROW~~~~ wheeeeeeeees!!! super high about it! im gonna look like some 20 year old i think! but i think de dress n everything is damn chio! huihui lets go take chio neoprints tmr! hahahaha.. im retarded.. lemme update bout chocobuffet tmr! =) n i promise to come up with a harder quizzie!!!

*[a lil princess thought at]*|22:09|



yays! made a quiz for u guys to try out!! =)
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*[a lil princess thought at]*|13:03|

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

yikes! madihah is so meano! our comments for pw were horrid lor! =( put in alot of effort n all she wrote was 'not detailed', 'no elaborations' yada yada yada. horrible her! puis! hope pw grades will be alright. *pray hard* managed to do quite alot of chem revision todae! but guess what. i totally forgot about phy tutorial! gonna pia it now. n i gotta do more qns for chem tutorial. cos i bet tham will go thru at sky high speed. so will chiam. oh shucks lah! im lagging in tutorial! GRR.

one more day to choco buffet! i've been stuffing myself with good food nowadaes. probably u eat more when u're unhappy? hahah. i guess so. for me i either skip all meals or i'll eat like mad. yups. choco buffet!!! ahhhhhs! had ramen for dinner. n its realie yummy! go try spicy salmon ramen at ramen ten. very spicy but very shiok! =) yays!

anw he got his fone already! =) *but its ugly* hahaha. somehow i dun like nokia flip fones lah. sorrie. im prejudiced! they look so steely n cold n squarish. yikes. so unglam. hahah. im still aiming for E800c. which is so freakin ex btw. n i doubt dad n mom will agree to it. well even i dun wanna spend $500 on a stupid fone lah. n to think he spent $568!?!? he's crazie. yups. absolutely. for that ugly fone somemore. oh manx! okie lah. its a new model dats y so ex. but i realie dun like 7270! eeeeeeks! *shudders* im gonna scream 'ugly fone' everytime i see it! hahahah.

well i was pretty pissed off todae. but learnt to control my emotions lah. plus i was too tired to get angry n stuff. im tired and angry cos of de same person. dammit. who de hell is he to make me so shack! argh! n he says not to let others affect me so much? u think its possible? -_-" can someone draw de line between not caring n not interfering? its different right? at least to me it is. but i guess ppl differ in views. n if it makes him feel better if i do not do this den i'll not do things my way. but i think its kinda selfish to say that we'd change back to my way if things go wrong. so what does that mean? if things dun go the way u like it u'd ask me to stick to my no interference plan? if things are fine u want me to be there to care n all? if history repeats itself u'll tell me that i shouldnt be interfering in your friendships or your personal life? dun u think its a tad too selfish? like i shd be there when u need me. n when u dun im not supposed to disturb u? at least that was my first impression. maybe im wrong. i hope im wrong.

anw i realised many ppl do not realise that i left a link at de post where i said im worth $1.8 mil. hahah. click HERE to go to de website n check out your worth k! =)

*[a lil princess thought at]*|22:20|

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

i dun understand how some people can be so selfish. its okay if u dun appreciate others. cos i think sometimes people do forget to thank others. but u do not need to be so selfish! why do you point your fingers at others before thinking where u've gone wrong? pls look at yourself before u blame others for what's going on. cos the problem probably lies with you. so wake up n stop thinking everyone else is at fault. stop thinking everyone's supposed to serve you. sighs. wonder when u'd wake.

every friendship has its ups and downs. when u see through someone's actions, everything he/she does becomes fake. cos every action seems planned for a motive. its sad reading a friend like that. i hate it. but honestly, it is obvious. n more n more people are seeing the truth. truth hurts. yes it does.

talking bout kor about probs. miss talking to him this way. this afternoon talked to honda n na bout stuffs too. it was nice hearing honda talk serious lah. seldom hear him talk this way. he's alwaes that crappy poser guy. but he definitely can give u great advices when u need help. =) well. din expect kor to be having de same situation as me. i guess we have our reasons for doing things. i might seem like im not bothering. but to me this is for the better of both of us. when i interfere less, when i choose to stay blind to certain things, i can avoid possible conflicts. like i said, sometimes i wish i were blind n deaf n dumb in a r/s. being innocent is a blessing. but being cheated of your innocence is another thing.

im sorry if im treating u weirdly sometimes. cos im hiding from certain memories. n i dun wish to rake things up. so i'd rather never relive those painful memories buried at the back of my mind. i hope u'd understand how i feel. i'll never revisit those places with u. neither would i go eat my fave baked rice with u. u know why. i guess we'd both choose to go with frens.

*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:09|

Monday, March 07, 2005

half day! reached school late due to mega jam.. n there was rain.. so quite a yucky start to de last week of school manx! but GP changed my dae! cos GP was extremely funnie! hahaha.. we were split into groups.. den each grp received a newspaper article headline.. den its like a charade.. we'll act n the klass will guess de headline.. sounds quite boring rite? but its ultra farnie! esp ah gong's group! which consisted of weileong zhiyin cao lu and ah gong..

Scene 1
ah gong: *wave* im a prostitute
(class roars into laughter)
ms heng: male or female???
ah gong: female

hahahahah.. n weileong comes along to 'hook up' ah gong.. its like 2 guys lah! so gay! hahahahah.. den comes..

Scene 2
zhiyin: im weileong's wife *hahahahha*
(zhiyin n weileong try to squeeze under de teacher's table n den make de table move.. to suggest *ahem ahem*)

den beloved zhiyin knocked his back on de table! it was like BAM! kinda ke lian him but de klass just roared into laffter again!! hahahah..
den there was this part they went to see doctor, who was cao lu.. n cao lu actualie took their pulse!! den ms heng was like !?!?!?!??!?!?!!? hahahah.. which western doc on earth still take pulse??

Scene 3 (in geylang again)
ah gong: im a prostitute again *hahahah!!! rofl!*
ah gong: male one this time
zhiyin comes along n goes off with him! so it looks damn gross again! 2 guys! eeeeeeeks~! but it looked v farnie.. hahahahah.. cant stop laffing even when i think of it..

anw de plot was about HIV lah.. cos weileong's character supposedly contracted HIV but he nv tell his wife.. yeps.. but somehow de story became so messy that everyone was looking for prostitutes.. n de worst thing was that ah gong was de COMMON prostitute!!!! hahahaha.. poor ah gong!

phy lect was crap.. chem tutorial was fun.. yups! den we headed to causeway pt for salmon baked rice!!!!!!!! *droooools* i still want more! oh manx! who'd go with me again! sticky chewy choc! ahhhhhhs! DROOL. anw ah gong, ah pa, ah ma, dil n me went causeway together~ den ah pa n ah ma went off to study.. ah gong went home.. i accompanied dil to get her CD n i got my file.. den i headed to city hall.. went to marina sq foodcourt to study! =) i love that place. ultra condusive! yays! im gonna mega mug there!! oh yesh.. i might not be able to get de pinky fone after all.. cos dad seems reluctant to let me change fone again.. but if i dun get it now i wont get a new fone for like 2 years plus? wch is kinda retarded too.. well.. i dun like to overspend.. n i honestly think $530 is abit ex for a fone.. but nowadaes de fones are all $400 n above!!! grrrr. so ex! im a poor kid! well i'll see how lah~ anw mugging was very successful todae! YAYS!

dil.. dun so sad le.. some things cant turn back time, so just move on. perhaps one day he'll turn back n realise what he has lost. perhaps one day he'll find out what went wrong. but that's in the future. n nobody knows what to expect for the future. if he isnt willing to talk den u guys cant do much, so i guess just hope he'll change for the better soon k? dun be so sad le. people change due to a thousand and one reasons. to someone u may like or u may not. but its inevitable. even you've lost the old him u can try to accept the new him. if you cant, den just let go. jiayou girl. u alwaes have frens arnd k! *smile~* =)

*[a lil princess thought at]*|22:38|



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*[a lil princess thought at]*|22:05|

Sunday, March 06, 2005

had tuition again! =) tuition is just funky every single sundae! never fails to spice things up for my week! glad i understood what went on todae.. about UV, visible n infrared light stuffs.. about quantum law? or quantem physics? okie i dunno de exact term but i understood what was de theory.. that's good enough rite? hahahah.. anw choco buffet's on fridae! wheeeees! im excited! im going to fullerton! yays!!!!!!!!! kkie.. afta dat went to town w ah ma cos she wanted her beloved comics! n true enough kino sells comics at de same rate as outside! luckily nv waste ah ma's trip! =) well we also walked into a M1 shop n we checked out student's plan n all that.. which i realised was ending this mth end!!! goodness.. i betta grab it n enjoy it b4 it ends! hahahah. im thinking of using de plan for 6 mths.. den when they reduce it from 700sms to 500sms i change my plan to suntext! so i get 1000 sms! for just a dollar more! WAHAHAHAH. i feel soooooo clever! hahahah.. n i also found a phone i like!!! its samsung E800c! b4 anyone says its a old model n its ugly or whatsoever.. check out the PINK version! its freakin chio!!!!!!!!!!! totally melted when i saw it! its light metallic pink! *DROOLS* im so gonna get it! even if im using ang pao money or whatever i dun care! IM SO SO SO GONNA GET IT! its too chio to miss! n its a slide fone! *double DROOLS* hahahahah. im so high. mommy agreed to let me get it since its limited ed.. n she thinks i describe until very chio.. hahahaha.. =D im a great promoter i told ya! hahahahah.

oh anw i walked arnd with ah ma for some time.. den she left n i was supposed to go study.. but havent got lunch so in de end met sy at united sq for subway! n guess what! i met ah jie! she walked in n i immediately screamed 'AH JIE!!!' but she totally ignored me! *yeps maybe im too short.. shd have stood up n waved yarh? or maybe stand on de chair or smth?* she was bz smsing smsing smsing~ hahahah.. i wonder who ehs? =p she onlie noticed me when she sat down on de table next to mine! n she actualie recognised sy b4 she spotted me!!! ahhhhhhhs! ah jie arh! *faints* how can u do this to meeeeee!!!!???? okie.. afta dat youzi came down to meet ah jie n they went for tuition n i left subway.. went to LJS to study! managed to get quite abit of chem n maths into my teeny weeny brain! WOWS! hahahah.. successful mugging session k! must jiayou! afta dat sy wanted to go simlim so we went down.. n that was where i spotted my ultra super duper freakin chio fone! click here to look at it now! =D imagine it in sweet pink though! ;)

went for dinner at LerkThai.. some restaurant opposite bugis junction.. quite ex n its not exactly superb.. i still prefer my cheap cheap Taste of Thailand at sembawang shopping centre! =D shopped abit in bugis n i just reached home not too long ago.. bugis has nice n interesting stuffs.. de onlie problem is de CROWD there.. terrible manx.. but i'd love to go there again to buy some stuffs.. =)

tmr is a SLACKER dae. we're having GP, phy lect, and chem tutorial. chem tutuorial is de onlie useful one i guess? hahaha. everyone's probably thinking of skipping the first two. bleahs! im gonna be guai n drag my ass to school earlie in de morning to face ms heng! *wows* im tired. im going to bed.

for someone out there: dun think u're so great n u're always right. cos u arent always de greatest. stop using others to your advantage. its disgusting. u can bask in the limelight for all i care. but just stop hurting others with your actions or words. its sickening. n i hate to see others getting hurt. when i cant do anything to help or save them out of this shit. pls be sensible n stop acting the way u are now. its realie irritating. stop thinking that everyone's there to serve you. cos nobody is born to be your slave. treat others nicer if u want them to treat u better. wake up before its too late. u'll come to regret of what u have done. or rather, what you are doing. stop it.

*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:38|

Saturday, March 05, 2005

had so many plans todae but all got screwed up! so in de end spend time doing work n making konnyaku jelly instead.. actualie there was de hc talentime to go to.. but na sprained her thigh muscle (is that right?) n so she couldnt go.. n i somehow changed plans to make konnyaku jelly w him so i din go as well.. our $8 tickets!!!!! =( hope it was good! at least diya was performing! =) okie.. n i had another plan to go to hua's bbq.. i wanted to meet ying n her.. but i finished jelly-making at 8! wch was kinda late already.. so decided not to go to her place as well.. dinner was bishan bbq chicken!!!!!!!! *drools* the chicken n chilli is just so wonderfully perfect! bought it back to his place n watched I guess x3 while we ate.. YUMMY! i want some more!!!

todae i managed to study from morning till 2! which was about 6 hours! wows~ that's quite a feat for me lah.. hahaha.. im sucha slacker.. cos my concentration normally doesnt last that long.. well.. den headed to his place to make konnyaku! longan n yam flavour~ it was a success! yays! =) okie that's like the whole of my day? hahah.. i wanted to catch howl's moving castle... who'd watch with meeeeeee?? oh yes! mondae's a half day! yays! can go catch movies! YAYS!

+_+_+_+replies+_+_+_+
dil: yesh i know its that guy! hahaha. he's cute lah! i must've been blind not to spot him last year! where did he pop out from manx!?

hui: i think de skirt looks good on u lor! read ur blog.. maybe ur frens got different taste ba.. or maybe cos they nv see u wear with that top? the pink top! i think its a perfect match w that top! hahaha.. if i were the girl i would also break with that stingy guy! its like so horrible lah! few bucks also so kb! slap him arh!!

bongie: ah ma u were out having lunch lah! how to tell u about that shuai ge? plus u have ah pa liao.. dun anyhow look.. hahaha.. that guy's youzi's snr wor.. ask youzi intro to u lor! =x

*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:50|

Friday, March 04, 2005

A's results were out todae!!! n i think hc did pretty well this batch! as far as i know chem n maths 100% passes! n GP improved! n 95% of de students got C and above for chem!!! hahahah.. mrs tham was saying we shd work hard n we wont be de 5% getting D.. bleahs! anw.. i must blog bout smth! i saw a v shuai snr in school todae! *wonder why i nv saw him last year.. i must be blind or smth* hahahah.. nana agrees with me that he's shuai! *drools* he's realie realie shuai.. dunno him.. but i shall call him de white billabong cap guy.. in short wbc guy. hahahah.. he's got good complexion, toned bod, nice features.. n most importantly.. he looks good even when bald! wahahahah. wbc wbc wbc guy. but he's attached! (girls shd go *awwwwwww* im harmony at this point) hahahah.. im honestly nuts todae! nuts over dat wbc guy!

i wonder what would 04s6b be like at this time next year.. when we come back for our results.. na n me were laffing cos we were trying to imagine those guys in our klass being BALD! like.. ah pa??? ah gong!?!?!? wahahahahah!!! i'll just roll on de floor n laff! goodness me.. i hope i'd be excited more than scared when im waiting for results.. wch is probably hard lah.. looking at the way my results are now.. but im piaing! at least im forcing myself to! n i think this year's slightly better than de last! =) jiayou jiayou!

im high cos of many things! okie.. i got a great lunch! at like 4+? goodness me.. n i din eat since like breakfast? woahs. i'll just starve to death one day.. hahahah. anw i got to eat cream sauce pasta!!! cooked at his place! =) our pasta's de best k! bestest recipe u can find! hahahah.. n i managed to catch latest few episodes of naruto! yays! exciting matches coming up! for those who actualie know of this anime.. I LOVE ROCK LEEEEEEE! he's this fuzzy eyebrow fella who's ultra farnie! but he's extremely zai too! hahahah.. he's sucha cutie!!!!

oh yesh i headed to bishan.. did my chem spa n vectors while waiting for mommy! n when she came we went to shibuya to get clotheS! cos there was this sale~ n de clothes were going at 50%! im good at finding sales stuff yarh? hahahah.. anw i managed to get a dress (formal looking kind) for $30.. which is quite a good bargain.. yeps! =D mommy got a blouse n a skirt n a dress! prettie prettie~ whoever wanna buy shibuya stuffs can borrow card from me k? got further discount.. hahaha.. i should go be salesgirl manx..

ate at ajisen ramen w mommie.. n i saw smth weird happen.. well this waitress served de mochi (some kinda jap ice cream) to de wrong table.. n de couple on that table ate it without telling her that they didnt order it! n den afta dat they realised that they hadnt served de mochi for another table.. den found out that it had been served wrongly.. so the manager sort of told the couple that they had to pay for it since they ate it already.. n de guy actualie said he wasnt going to pay! but isnt it his fault for eating it though he knew it wasnt his order? isnt he being very selfish like that? i understand that de waitress made a mistake.. but if u din order it u'd SAY rite? he just happily ate it up! wth! n refuse to pay! n in de end de manager was v angry n made de waitress pay.. in a way she did make a mistake.. but in a way i think de couple should have paid for de mochi.. its onlie $1++ oh dammit! if it was a restaurant n they served u abalone when u didnt order it would u eat it all the same? n refuse to pay? how ridiculous!!!

kkie im going to bed already.. very tired.. niteynites

*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:59|

Thursday, March 03, 2005

doing hydroxyl tutorial. vectors assignment. im so tired! im gonna knock out soon. anw todae was quite hyper! cos de whole klass was so noisy every single teacher buay tahan us.. hahaha.. we have a way of communicating with teachers lah~ mrs tham was so cute todae! she was telling us how many days we needed to ferment vinegar.. den she ask us to think of de chinese name of vinegar to get de answer.. cos it was part of de chinese character.. but guess what! ah pui started counting de no. of strokes!!!!! n he kept asking why it was 21.. wahahah..

went to waffletown with na after school!!! was supposed to do work yarh? hahaha.. never realie got down to it.. cos we kept checking out ah jie n ah pui.. den kept laffing n joking with him.. hahahahah.. he's realie farnie lah.. =) alwaes makes others laff n brightens others' days! hopefully he stops suaning my height n i'd love him more~ hahahah. den sy came n we left de place.. cos he had to meet wx afta dat.. n we had no idea where to go. i just wanted to sleep.

i wanna catch howl's moving castle *de director was de director of spirited away!!!* constantine *which doesnt screen anymore! ='(* n hitch! who wanna watch w me? =) im available for movie marathons! hahaha.

timothy just told me that i underestimated my love for him. is that true? is that good or bad? im scared im taken advantage of. especially when im so used to giving in to others. to an extent that i dun realise it myself. its onlie when i start feeling empty, feeling that i've got no more to give, that i stop giving. n i realise i've been cheated. sometimes the people closest to you hurt u the most. if friends stab u from the back, loved ones stab u from the front. n sometimes the hurt doesnt diminish.

arhhh im so tired! eyes closing as im typing. nitenite.. sweet dreams guys.. byeeeeeee

*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:46|

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

yeps. its officially 1st yr anniversary. but doesnt seem like the way i hoped for it to be yarh? well things are weird still. probably will change n improve for the better. i dunno. im taking a step at a time. hoping i dun fall upon my next step. probably i'll set foot into empty space once again. but i shall walk on and see for myself. =) in uncertain bout things. n i dunno if im heading the right way. i dunno i dunno i dunno. argh. i hate to not know things. esp when i cant find answers within myself! blahx. go on n see how lah~

million dollar baby is SUCHA NICE SHOW! no wonder its so critically acclaimed by Oscars! de storyline is reallie GREAT i must say. honestly loved de story. its about dreams, about life, about fighting for oneself, then losing hope n losing the fight for one's life. oh manx. realie a must watch. reallie reallie. havent caught this kinda movie for so long. movies with depth are realie scarce nowadaes.

anw i kinda reasoned with nana that ppl are selfish. mo matter how magnanimous a person may seem, there are times where he would think for himself. i agree that one has to protect one's self interests. but i think it shouldnt be at the expense of others. if one's doing things to hurt others just so he can gain smth out of it, i think its so wrong, so selfish. mom told me bout her colleague who backstabbed her. this apparent 'close colleague' of hers actualie told her superior that she was bad-mouthing her superior. what a backstabber!!! i despise such ppl! mommy feels hurt. cheated. *sounds like my feelings not too long ago* but yea. being stabbed straight in the back hurts i tell ya. esp when u thot the person was closest to u. oh sheesh. isnt there true friendship these days?

oh yesh! this morning i saw de nj guy on de bus! de tuition guy! de drunk nj guy! did i mention that he loves powerpuff girls? hahahah. he actualie went arnd popular bookshops in singapore to find de powerpuff girls files lah!!! *faints* he's so crazie! n he's got a wanna-fall-asleep face! i rmr de first time i noticed him was when he RAN out of de mrt station n RAN to class.. shouting 'chocolate chocolate!' cos that dae chua was treating us chocs. HAHAH. he is so comical lah! n todae i met him on 852~ he stays in amk!!! (huihui ur good fren! hahahah!!) i was asleep. super malu for ppl to see u sleeping. like spoil image lidat. hahaha. anw i woke up n i saw this familiar guy. so i waved n smiled. den he gave me de 'who are u???' look. after awhile den he realised it was ME! so he waved n smiled back. den he mouthed de words 'chi2 dao4' cos we were both late for school!! hahaha. well he's a frenly fella~ n i just knew his name todae! erm. i forgot it already. heng yi i think. hahaha. i'll remember him as de drunk nj guy!!! =D

*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:45|

Tuesday, March 01, 2005

sheesh. internet has been down for so long. last entry was like 26th? n todae's de 1st. yikes. life without internet is pretty good actualie. concentrate more on work. hahah. anw so many things have happened. my mind is still in a whirl. its as though i dunno what im doing. but in a way i do know im following what my gut feeling n my heart says. but i cant get over de hurt yet. honestly im very very broken n hurt. probably onlie nana would understand. cos she's de one i've been talking to these few days. every single dae just hang out with her until evening. bleahs. i think i'd realie prefer les life. its realie less troublesome. at least she understands how i feel. =) thanks nana. i love u. reallie truly honestly. u're sucha wonderful great pal. =) *dun ego k*

i wonder if he finally understood what we were quarreling for. n sometimes i feel that im selfish. but at times i realise that he's the selfish one. there's a limit to one's compromises. i learnt that from kor. when u've given everything u could u just collapse. cos its seriously tiring. especially when the other party doesnt see what u've done. n u're blamed or maligned. sighs. i hate being wronged. but in a way i might have wronged him. oh wells. we just keep getting n losing hope. is this even gonna end? talking on de fone was weird. i dunno what to sae. i dunno what to do. am i still supposed to accept things? like i always do? but in a way i saw certain things. which for now i'd choose to put aside n ignore. n i realised we'd both go on fine even if we were without each other. is that good or bad?

okie. im not gonna dwell on that matter anymore. well sundae was funky tuition again~ n choco buffet is on 11th of march!!! FULLERTON HOTEL! =) hui n i are gonna wear matching bimbotic clothes! hahahah. im so so so looking forward to that dae! n im so happie my jnrs scored well! well jnr klass got between 6 - 10 pts.. n my theatre jnrs mostly got 6 - 8!!! im so proud of them~ well done! =)

caught up with kor recently. even met him for 'dinner' todae! okae. onlie he ate. hahah. but managed to talk abit. n i realised i miss those days of mugging with him in holland v! afterall he's still my kor n we still click on a certain level lah~ =) its like we dunnid to keep in close contact.. but when we do contact each other we dun lose that chemistry. wch is good! =) he gave me lots of great advices when i was down n out. kinda freaked him out. cos i was so sad that dae. but he managed to talk me out of it. he's studying law. good debator lah. hahah. i hope i can give him great advices too. but im not a good advisor lah. i can onlie listen most of de time. but hope i can be there to listen when he needs lor. =)

k if i remember more bout what happened these few days i'll update again. anw i got my skirt!!!!! yesh. de lady was pretty apologetic. thank gosh she remembered us. yays!

*[a lil princess thought at]*|22:32|