Sunday, July 31, 2005
Are monuments and memorials merely a waste of a country's budget?
my gp essay qn. just finished it. slept my afternoon away. sheesh. was so tired after tuition. no idea why. had lunch w hui at marina sq. i din know there were quite alot of shops opened there already. but damn far to walk now that there are renovation works going on. im lazy. guess i shall head there only when i wanna enjoy sunset view. but marina sq's still a nice place to hang out. i like the peacefulness there. less crowd. but i guess its gonna turn into another orchard-lookalike-area after the renovations. yikes. =(
aircon's down at mommie's room. im gonna sleep in living room todae n let mommie take my room. gotta pack my mega messy room though. well at least make space for her to walk n sleep. i guess my room's gonna turn into a pig sty real soon. looking at the tons of notes dug out by me. the notes from aeons ago. omg. they're turning my room upside down. stacks n stacks everywhere. messssssssy.
i've a pretty pencil case. gonna deco my calculator soon. yays. i've got nice nice deco stuffs. i invest like more than $100 on decorative items. those rhinestones n confetti n fabric paints n what's not. i got TONS of them. i'd probably buy the whole fabric paint shelf by the time i earn enough money. hahahah. at least making things prettie make me happie. that's good enough. cos not many things make me happy nowadays. life's just too.... fake.
people are just so different. understanding and compromising is just so tough. i realised i dun understand some ppl as much as i thot i did. neither do i compromise. im stubborn. i stick to who i am. love me for who i am or get lost. that was my attitude all along. cocky attitude? maybe. but i just wanna stay real... in this fake world. im tired of all those ups n downs n roller coaster rides of emotions. perhaps that's why im so void of emotions now. or rather, i learnt how to deal w issues better. no pt making a big hoo ha since it doesnt benefit either party. people are just different.
no point holding on to the string of a kite that's entangled n stuck. sometime's letting go is easier than it seems. sometimes loving is harder than it seems.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:44|
Saturday, July 30, 2005
wasnt in de mood to blog ydae.. cos of certain issues i wasnt v comfortable with.. but at least i know im at peace w myself n how i feel.. so.. yups. =) sometimes ppl just arent the way u hope they are, n u cant help it.. everyone's different. so why not learn to accept n love them for the way they are. if his/her actions of a certain sort annoy u in a way or another.. just close one eye ba.. nobody's perfect.. one's imperfection allows u to appreciate another better than before. =)
im glad w de amt i studied today. feeling accomplished w myself. gotta keep this pace going. yeaps.
jkok actually bought youzi a sunflower ydae!!!!! all of us were in AWE i tell ya! hahahah. since when did he decide to be nice huh? but its realie nice lah. i took it as a heartwarming scene. cos u seldom see frenship put into actions. get what im saying? hope youzi's performance was smooth sailing n all! =D
im 18 this yr. but i feel that i've been thru more than an average 18 yr old in sg. *lets not compare with the poor n suffering yarh?* anw my pt is, some ppl my age havent been put thru that kinda trauma or stress before. they've probably never even stepped out of their comfort zone before. so naturally, their first fall will be v hard. when u fall at a younger age, u pick up faster. but to fall only when u reach this age, i guess the setback puts u down for an even longer period of time. but i believe in the inner strength of each n every single one. find it n use it. this strength is the force that will put u thru all the setbacks in life. no matter how u fall, u'll learn n u'll pick yourselves up. nobody can help u more than u can help yourself.
that was kinda random. im gonna go do my essay plan. the qns are so boring i realie dunno what to write. gosh. im gonna get brain drained again. 15 wks to As. gambatte.
i dun smile as much as before. im turning emotionless. more n more void of my surroundings.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:11|
Thursday, July 28, 2005
went school. had fever after that. met kor again. how coincidental. i see him everywhere. its as though he's omni-present or smth. had a good talk w him. accompanied him for awhile though i was tired n sick. he treated me to ib mocha though! yays!! =D school was traumatic today. maths was okay, tham was angry during chem. dunno why she so bu shuang todae. scolded youzi n clement. =( n she sounded so pissed. den chem lect was a major RUSH. pang is super zai. he actually finished what he set out to cover for today's lecture. which was a hell lot. n he finished ON THE DOT. he finished his last line n the bell rang. everybody was like WOW~ n some ppl even applauded. hahaha. lame. but yea. he's really zai. he can go so fast n yet make us understand the concepts. cooool. dil n i left after lect. den i heard bout what happened during physics. i hate chiam. he's sucha loser. how de hell can he laff at na!?!?!?! come on lor. he's not even concerned bout his students who are under-performing, so what makes him think that he can laff at his student!? wth. freak him. he's sucha irritating moron. if only if he could be more bothered bout his students, half the class wouldnt be seeking tuition's help. darn. he's sucha edeot. poor na got 'attacked' by him when dil n me werent arnd. if i were there i'd definitely scold chiam. freak. im so tempted to even scold the f word. but i wont. wont degrade myself cos of a moron like him.
feeling helpless cos i dunno how to comfort dil.. n i know its reallie tough on her at this moment.. but just hope n pray that everything goes well n things will be solved.. inconvenient to disclose too much in my blog.. but i'd pray for her.. jiayou my dear! *hugggs* bu yao ku le.. de klass guys din mean it cos they blur blur dunno anything.. so must jian qiang k? alwaes have de class ppl to fall back on.. =)
*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:26|
de clock says 1.20am but im still 2 qns away from the end of chem tutorial. n i havent done chem revision paper for chem lect. wth. n chem lect, chem tut, maths tut, phy tut, gp assignment are all tmr. im not gonna take my gp assignment tmr. im gonna be so out of my mind if i really sit down n do a essay. i'll do it with a better state of mind n not make ms heng puke blood. i dun like failing gp since its my only passable subj. but im still gonna crawl all de way to sch for maths n chem tut n chem lect. hope i make it there n back yarh? super screwed up. im gonna do my chem revision paper soon. n de drowsy effects of flu medicine is just so URGH. giving me extreme headaches when im trying to do work n the med's trying to make me sleep. rahhhhhs. pissed. but tmr will be a better day. so smile. =) cos u never know who's in love with your smile. =)
*[a lil princess thought at]*|01:25|
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
fever in de afternoon. slept thru phy lect. had CT session which was about maf n prom n what's not. tchers day n nat day. yeas. all those celebrations celebrations. clashing w all de prelim preparation n crap. sians. but cannot miss maf. its sucha great event in hc. missing it is just missing out on hc life. haha. i want mooncakes. anybody who has extra money in sept can offer to buy me mooncakes? =D i'll finish all that u'll be able to feed me with! yays!! moooooooncakes!
throat inflammation, fever, flu, gastric, stomach discomfort. wows. 5 diff kinds of medicine i think. for no reason my temp just went up after gp lesson. n phy lect was sucha killer. totally slept thru it cos i was so unwell. thank gosh dear's cold towel therapy helped lower my temp. n de panadol as well. den mom brought me to doc. n i got all those pills. yikes. oh yes did i mention dat i had 3 sushi? yays. at least i ate smth. dinner was.. soup? could only drink soup cos my throat hurts like hell. even swallowing saliva is gross. n dear gave me this lozenges to eat. omg its GROSS. its light green in color. doesnt taste v strong. but the aftertaste is YUCKS. i was 'treated' to a gummy dolphin after the lozenges cos it was really yucky. but when de gummy went in, it tasted bitter. can u imagine!?!? bitter gummy dolphin!!! its definitely a first for me! omg! felt like puking out all the sushi i had. yikes. never ever try that lozenges. i think it would definitely put off ur appetite for a v long time. hahaha.
i cant really speak properly now. v painful for me to speak. wanted to call dil n ask her if she's okay. but i realised i cant talk. =( worried bout her now. hope everything's fine on her side. dil, jiayou k!! i'll alwaes be here to listen to ur stories de.. dun be so sad.. things will turn for the better! jiayou! get a grip of yourself n support mommy all de way k! =) *huggggs*
im dying as im doing my proteins tutorial. its really like im copying the whole stack of notes into my tut. gosh. n im half asleep due to those drowsy flu pills. rahhhhs. n there's maths, chem J1 stuff, chua phy stack to do. how am i even gonna sleep tonight? *keeps fingers crossed* im gonna crawl to sch tmr. dil rmr to come n receive de half dead mad k. =)
tons of mosquito bites. yucks. itching like crazie from hip to toe. haha. all accumulated on my legs. i already have ugly legs k. can mosquitoes pity me? blahhhs. im hungryyyy. a pao, 3 sushi, n soup definitely isnt sufficient to fill my tummy for a day!!! urgh! i want nice nice food!!! ='(
*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:12|
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
YAYS! todae i went to sch for chem lect n chem lect only! =D was pouring in de morning so i couldnt leave home. n by the time i dragged my ass to sch it was 8.10am. hahaha. n we left at 920. how amazing! santi, na n me went to azah to eat prata!!! =D i had cheese n mushrooooooom which was so super cheesy n nice! den we had milodino as well! =) yummmms! after our breakfast, we met ah gong at hc busstop after he finished maths lect *which we ponned* hahahah. n we went to town to watch Be With You w the other class ppl. ah pa n ah ma, ah pui n ah jie, qianjun, ah gong, na n me. obviously de 4 of us sat separately w de other 2 couples. wahahaha.
the movie is wonderful. great. fabulous. fantastic. what else can i say. its just too good. v touching. gosh. its a MUST CATCH. =) i enjoyed de movie so much even though i heard about the whole story from dil already. can u believe it!? hahaha. *beams* great movie. had old chang kee fishballs after that cos na was craving for old chang kee. went to heeren n got my hair tie. =)
headed down to ikea after that. bought 2 photoframes for only $3.90. how wonderful. n there are loads of great deals at ikea cos of the sale they're having. im gonna refurnish my room after As manx. gonna make it a living ikea advert. =) oh yes oh yes! i went to ikea cos dear agreed to my craving for meatballs!!!! =D super super yummy! how can anyone ever resist those swedish meatballs! omg omg omg! im still drooooooling over them! =D i was so full after that i couldnt stomach my fave herbal tea egg k! but still i was SOOOO SATISFIED. =D
i met kor on de bus to town from sch! how coincidental!! i was still thinking of jioing him out cos todae was a half day. n i met him on de bus! =) so long since i last met up w him. anw he seems to have changed a real lot. matured a hell lot. n he's so much clearer of what he wants now. n he was pleasantly surprised that i was already so clear headed of where i wanna head to in uni. n he said it was good that i had a target. an aim i was going for. =) i like his encouragements. anw he might be applying for Oxbridge Law. though he already got accepted for NUS Law. hahaha. i just hope he gets what he wants. talked pretty much to him before i went in for movie. n his advices really helped. he even helped me find out criterion for mass comm in NTU!!! =D he rawks! cos he has this pal in mass comm now. so he helped me find out more details. ;) i love my kor! yayyyyys!!
dil only u'd read this rite? hahaha! our wonderful way of communication! yays! anw dun use food to stuff away ur thots bout him lah. super sinful leh! haha! be w u is SO NICE! n my pics are so ugly!! hahaha! smuacks! love u!
*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:28|
Monday, July 25, 2005
tmr's HALF DAY!!!!!!! yays! =D de morning announcements were so long everybody was just waiting for Ang to announce the half day. hahaha. at least its tmr. =) i think im not gonna sleep tonight. took a nap in the afternoon. den went for a run. now im so hyper i cant stay still. was looking thru baby pics just now cos we gotta bring one for CT session, n omg my sec sch pics are SCARY! hahaha. i love my kiddo pics though! =) lots of those 'act princessy' kind. wait. what am i saying. i am a princess in my own rights. haha! i'll upload those pics when i have the time.
dil arh, i'll rmr to bring pics tmr k! n yepppps i read those thingies! told u i highlight when reading liao! hahaha. our econs break really super fei manx! tok rubbish also can tok for 1hr20mins. hahah! shall show u ugly pics tmr! arent u excited?? hahaha. im gonna traumatise u!!! =D
oh yea i need a smaller pencil case so i stop buying pens to fill my current one. its just getting heavier n heavier. n everytime i put that pencil case into my bag it weighs a ton. -_-" i think its heavier than my notes. hahaha. obvious how bad a slacker i am rite? =x i like de pencil case at borders n at bugis. howwws??
*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:16|
Sunday, July 24, 2005
morning, chua. understood tons of electricity concepts. maybe i knew nothing before that. headed to spotlight after that. wanted to have lunch w him. but i lost my appetite by the time he called back. too bad. den to bugis. slacked arnd till a bloody hour of 4 waiting for my mom, aunt n granny to arrive. i was so pissed i wanted to go home already. wth. n i only had iced milk tea for lunch which probably made me a lil hungry. okay. one word. i was PISSED. den they freakin had to take their own sweet time to get to the temple. n that place was so damn crowded. n those yucky fatso uncles n aunties were so freakin rough. sticking their sweaty backs so close to me. how gross. n this disgusting auntie pushed me as though i was supposed to make a clearing for her in the crowd. like wth! i just turned arnd n shot her a disgusted look n said in my most bitch tone ever "auntie can u JUST STOP SHOVING?" super irritating. only when i blew my top den she din dare to touch me again. how rude. FREAK.
oh i was in sucha pissed mood when i was shopping. that i bought a pouch that read "do i look like i freakin care?" that totally suits me. i've said that exact line before. =) felt comforted/honoured to see it on a pouch which was sold in the wallet shop. oh yes there were nice clothes too. n this very nice shawl i wanted to get. but i din wanna spend my savings. so too bad. i only bought earrings n de pouch. total $5.50. oh yes. n a pen. $1.90. this Zebra pen totally rawks. very very very nice to use. got a total of 3 colors now. yes. those 3 colors. intending to get the range of it.
after all the pushing n shoving n cursing, headed back to parco. bought U2 pants, embroidered halter-spag, S&K top. din manage to find jeans which i intended to find. i used to have 6 pairs of jeans. now left with 1. cos the other 5 are too loose. dil used to have 10. now only 1 to wear as well. blahhhs.
down w cough. pretty bad i guess. can feel it burning inside. guess its gonna be a v bad sore throat again. i cant do maths. only manage abit of it. ='(
i wanna head down to ikea n toysRus. who wanna go w me?? i miss ikea meatballs. im gonna drag some kind soul there to eat w me within this week. =)
*[a lil princess thought at]*|21:42|
Saturday, July 23, 2005
was in a bad mood this morn. continuation of ydae. n i got dragged to sun plaza for lunch. lost all my appetite. ate muah chee cos i thot it was the only decent looking thing that slightly appealed to me. but no it tasted yucky. bad choice. had iced milk tea after that. mos iced milk tea nv disappoints me. so it did cheer me up a little. loosened up only after i came back home. mommy was v worried when i kept quiet the whole day. i'd only nod or shake my head or give one-line replies to her. feeling better now. but at most i'd only say a line or two. blahs. what's wrong w me?
no dinner. no appetite. did revision n hw. havent done chem though. going bugis temple tmr. just a random thot that mad; looks good as a nick. no idea why. i hate it when i gotta find nicks for certain websites or what's not. just irritates me. n all the nicks are either so cliched or so boring. n madeline n shuxuan definitely doesnt make it as a nick. cos there're zillions of madelines n shuxuans arnd. wth. can someone come up w a nice nick for me?
my tagboard's stagnant. hate it. might just close it since its there for no purpose. supposed to allow frens to tag but somehow some frens cant tag. if its gonna stay stagnated for the next week i'll shut it down.
maybe its pms maybe its just me. or maybe its him. im just in a foul mood. dun come near me.
realised how much things would change in a few months time. n realised how different my ideals are with his. realised my parents wouldnt accept him for who he is. realised how screwed up my life is. what i want isnt what my parents wish for me to be. who i love isnt who they'd like me to be with. expectations differ n people change. ultimately things just aint gonna be the same. im not gonna think too far. take a step at a time. im just being cautious so i dun fall flat upon my next step. but i somehow know how things will end. it seems as though i already see the ending. but i just dun wanna step there. i keep taking detours. keep taking the tougher route. just so as to avoid the end. am i just deluding myself? or am i just being dumb?
*[a lil princess thought at]*|21:31|
Friday, July 22, 2005
todae was a good day. short n sweet. n most of the time spent w mrs tham. hahaha. she's really really nice. v encouraging n all. she's alwaes so hopeful that we are so scared to disappoint her. n we had very fun practical session todae. cos it was on vanadium. den there are variable oxidation states for V n of cos the different colors to observe. so fun. n i just realised hui's klass did the same expt todae for their AQ. coincidental.
im pissed w someone. but im not gonna rant. not in the mood to anw. dun want vulgar lang splattered on my pretty blog. not worth it. n i dun even have the energy to fight back or scold someone now. just gonna shut up n head to dreamland n forget that it ever happened. take a deep breath n calm down. im gonna do just that.
bought pens todae. from kino, taka n creative hands. as usual im spending on pens again. but guess i wasnt in a good mood that's why. but they were nice pens going at affordable prices. n i couldnt find the book i intended to find. so just made do with buying more pens to pacify myself. im gonna occupy myself the whole of tmr. study chem? practice maths? do chiam's papers? i've no idea. n my gp sux too. only passed by 2 marks. -_-" so am i supposed to do compre n essay practices too? -shrugs-
im not in the mood to type anymore. im gonna ignore my surroundings n mood n force myself to bed. nites.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|22:44|
Thursday, July 21, 2005
think simple my dear, think simple.
had a long day of lessons in sch till 320. rushed down for chua's lesson. it was productive though. 5 to 7.30. finished de supplement set for electrostatics n electronics. cool. i prefer small grp sessions where he goes at our mega slow snail pace. but its really tiring to have his lesson after sch. anw there's this new guy at our tuition klass. n he's quite ke lian cos he seldom communicates w ppl in klass. n everytime he wanna laff he also laff discretely. but todae was v farnie. cos chua was knocking the door of the classroom from the inside. n almost immediately that guy came back from the toilet, opening the door from the outside. n all of us just burst out laffing at him. chua's crazie. he does weirdo stuffs. but at the same time allows u to clear ur phy concepts. so i guess he's good in his weird way.
was still in major pain today. n a cough's coming up. now i cant even speak properly. grrrr. anw this morning i was rolling in bed cos of the horrible cramps so i was late for sch. had to take my pills n allow my cramps to settle down a lil b4 i could even step off my bed. its really so bad. yikes. so i left home arnd 7. n i was thinking i would be the only hwachongnian on de bus. took 855. n surprisingly, at that hour, there were still 4 hc girls on de bus!! meaning all of them were as late as me! but i had a reason to be late... maybe all 4 of us were sick? hahaha. met hua on the 74 i boarded at adams busstop!!! i was just complaining a few days ago how much i missed her! guess i shd complain n whine more. den probably i'd meet her more often!! =) omg my cough is bad. i nearly choked on h2o. hahaha.
i love cindy's blog entry on time. totally roxx. =) n for hui, that edeot 'anonymous' fella is just being irritating lah. ignore him. u're just wasting ur blog entry scolding him. hahah.
im shagged. not in the mood to blog even. havent studied for transition. havent done so many things. sighs. but i'll still procrastinate n do them tmr. tmr is a short sch day. i wanna go town buy my happie sweets. n i wanna head to mango n zara once more. n i wanna study chem n practice maths. i wanna sleep. i wanna eat proper food. ='(
*[a lil princess thought at]*|22:40|
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
RAWRS!!!!! im having horriblyfreakindisgustinglypetrifying CRAMPS. wth! n we had to run 2.4 todae OF ALL DAYS. what the &^@#$%@#$@%*&!!!!!!!!! yucks! already had cramps before i ran. n when i started it was still so-so. but the last round was a mega killer. thank gosh ah jie pulled me along n i finished it. or i'd have fainted by the 5 1/2 round. targetted for 14 but got a 15min timing instead. =( what a deprovement. but i was in so much pain i couldnt care less for my timing. it was like some horrible seizure. could have just fainted there. i reckon the pain is probably as bad as labour or smth. wth. n as youzi, na n ah pa walked back w me, i just suddenly sat down on de grass, refusing to move cos it was too painful. okay PAIN is not even a good enough word to describe what i went thru. lemme see. i was in.... affliction, agony, anguish, anxiety, bitterness, despondency, distress, grief, misery, rack, sadness, shock, suffering, torment, torture, travail, tribulation, SPASM, WRETCHEDNESS. omg. horrible morning. after i managed to crawl out of chinese high compound (youzi n na dragged me out of there actually), the giddy na n i went to the toilet. n i was there crouching in pain for the rest of break. till my cramps finally gave me a little little little bit of room to breathe. headed back to class bench n jkok immediately asked "eh u okay not?" weird. since when has he bothered bout me. rubbish. so i just said "cramps." had to ask dil to get panadol for me from the bookshop. now i know 2 panadols cost $0.30. at least they helped ease my pain. well, they're painkillers for a reason. n jkok started being nice again. i was complaining to na that i was so weak i couldnt carry the load of my bag. n na was giddy too, so she too was whining. n mr jkok was sitting there reading his potter bible, he looked up n said "aiyah u all go, put your bags here, i bring up for u later" o.0 whassup! why's he being nice today? under the potter cult isit? hahaha. he was the first person i saw when i reached sch n he was niaoing me k! n he was being nice the next moment. how nuttie!
went for GP lesson late. ms heng was real nice. she knew that the whole klass din have time for break, so she did not blame us for being late etc. n she even made the lesson much livelier n flexible so we could do what we want. =) i realie like her being our gp tutor. probably a zillion times better than our tutor last yr. =D after that was phy lect. had a lame but funny lecturer. he's like some cartoon character. n na, peixin, me, ah jie, youzi, qianjun all sneaked food into the LT! hahahah. cos we got hungry lah. so ate bread in the LT. i bet the lecturer knew. the plastic bags were so noisy n we were eating so flamboyantly. i bet he noticed but kept quiet lah. =) ct session was nice with the racial harmony celebrations. wch brings me to the pt, tmr is racial harmony day. =)
im gonna grab those pink panadols again. once the medicine wears off the pain comes back. urgh. this sucks. why did 2.4 have to be TODAY of all days. rahhhhhs. oh well that pain is coming back to haunt me. i better start finding my pills before i crouch on the floor again.
thanks to...
ah jie!! for helping me pull thru the last 150m of the run!! =) reallie, if u werent there i wouldnt even have finished it! i would probably sprawl on the floor n give up! thanks thanks!!! n i was keeping pace with u throughout the run! so i couldnt have ran 15 mins if not for u! yays!!
na!! u were unwell yet u kept staying by my side asking if i was okay.. thanks so much dear! =) i'll pei u run next week kkie? jiayou jiayou!!!
youzi!! thx for alwaes looking out for me todae! hahaha. if u din look for me i'd probably been left sitting on de grass for dunno how long! anw thanks thanks! literally had to drag me back to hc side.. xie le!!
dil!! yayyys! my panadol sponsor!! =D thx for buying me that life-saving panadol!! n of cos another life saving thing i wont mention here! hahaha!
ah pa! dun think i'd forget u k! i know u were v worried for me also! hahaha.. even scared i couldnt jump across the drain.. =) i'll tell ah ma u were nice to me! yayys!!
qianjun!! thanks for buying the food for na, peixin n me! we'd be starving if not for your kind service! yays! =)
panadols... woooh! panadols... wooooh! super duper yummy!! *recognise which advert this is?*
*[a lil princess thought at]*|22:24|
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
im glad hui enjoyed de book as much as i did. =) the five ppl u meet in heaven. she posted lots of quotes from the book in her blog. can go check it out if u guys want. n cindy had a great post bout guys vs chocolates. hahaha. totally agree w her manx. why shd girls be at a disadvantage when we ask guys out? n as we were doing the answers for GP compre paper for block tests(it was on feminism btw), ms heng was talking bout how females were disadvantaged in more than one way. feminism is about equality between sexes n not about being BETTER than guys. so those anti-feminist guys are probably just scared that females would do better than them. well, prove your worth. if u're good, u're good. show it, prove it. however, the reality is that males after NS attain promotions easier than females. supposedly cos they spent 2 yrs time in NS. it still sounds kinda wth to me. why shd NS make them a cut above females? Mother Nature already blessed them w stronger physique than females isnt it? blahhhhs. talk about equality between sexes huh?
todae was like diarrhoea half the day. but i ate only wheat biscuits so after awhile it stopped. wonder if its cos there's no more food to irritate my digestive system or isit really the bao zhi yuan working. either way its good. hahah.
aspirations n dreams are such great words. ever wondered how u're gonna take that step towards attaining your aspirations or dreams? chances might just come knocking on your door when u least expect it. what if u weren't prepared for fulfilling that dream of yours just then? won't u let it pass u by? mommie alwaes told me i'd be very dumb if i did everything just out of passion n love. dear also said smth like interest can be grown in any field. cos many a times, most of the things in that case wouldnt earn me much. but im one who'd rather live poor *in terms of money* n rich *in terms of life*. most ppl think this is a very stupid thing to do. but i wanna live my life the way i want it. who shd dictate my life but myself? i think this is probably where my stubborness comes in. =)
*[a lil princess thought at]*|22:59|
Monday, July 18, 2005
rahhhs! continuous random variable is so ultra mega sucky! ='( my maths is lousy! anw todae was quite plain n boring. cos it was too cold i think? i was just shivering the whole day. but i loved the episode between tienyuan n mrs tham.
tham: a NUS lecturer got poisoned by inhaling too much CN u know... then when he returned to his position after he came out from the hospital, he couldnt function properly, so he had to retire... but he was very old already lah..
tienyuan: wah! he's your lecturer isit?
tham: yes tienyuan.. he was my lecturer...
tienyuan: WAH!!! den he must be very very very old already..
tham: *glares at tienyuan jokingly* he was already very old when he lectured me...
hahahaha. mrs tham is so cute. she gave that hMmmMm??? look to ty when the whole class burst out laffing. i love mrs tham. she's always ever so encouraging though i've never ever passed her chemistry. =x we'll do her proud for As. =)
went to coro w na after school. had to cross the bridge in the rain. sorta like a heavy drizzle kinda thing. anw we ate at cosy corner n had fish n chips. its been eons since i last went there. haha. anw i was eating my first piece of fish, n i was 80% through, when i realised the color was weird. n it felt super soft. the flesh was nua nua one. *yikes* den i asked the uncle if it was cooked, n he took the plate into the kitchen n came out with 2 new pieces of fish for me. OMG. so i had to eat 3 pieces of fish. =S super filling. dat was my lunch cum dinner. yeaps. na n sy kept asking me why i din change it when i first realised smth was wrong. i dunno why also. i just continued eating. until it felt really weird. YUCKS. i had uncooked fish. how gross can that get. eeeeeew. overdue choco is even nicer than that manx. im gonna check my food more carefully in future. lesson learnt. my tummy hasnt been feeling well ever since that half-cooked fish. eeeeew. hopefully it isnt anything serious lah. at most just food poisoning or smth. hahaha.
wanted to run todae. but it rained n rained n rained. hope i can run tmr. =)
had a nice chat w na at cosy corner. hmm, all i wish to tell her is that the choice is hers. =) alot of things are in our hands. take charge of what you can control, and for things not within your control leave it to fate. dunnid to worry too much. n im glad i found a fellow 'bo chup' fella sharing my mentality. in a way i feel that u've grown alot out of all this stuffs. n in a way im really glad that u're strong on your own. =) jiayou! keep me updated!
*[a lil princess thought at]*|22:25|
Sunday, July 17, 2005
chua's tuition todae was v funnie!! he was so lame n edeotic. he promised us the most expensive buffet on earth. n guess what he dished out for us? PEANUTS. hahahahah. regarding the recent nkf scandal. he's so edeot!!! so we had alot of peanuts for tuition todae. =) n electrostatics n op amp was covered todae. shd be finding him on thurs again to complete the set. =)
went town w ah ma n hui after tuition! ah ma went to buy ya kun for ah pa *awww so sweet* n takopachi! n hui n i shared tahu telor (some egg n tofu thing deepfried together or smth lidat) n ate our fave fave fave sweet potato!! i kinda got a few of my frens addicted to the sweet potato w me. heheh. dil n hui love it too! yays! i have a feeling ying would like it too. =) mentioning her, i do miss her n hua. rahhhhhs. n chris n harry. n our mahjong camps. blahhhhhs. we all need to concentrate on As first. ;) ah ma left after awhile to go sph. den hui n i went to walk walk at mango n guess n far east. mango had the purple pants i love. but the only piece of my size was spoilt. the button came off. ='( not my luck. i shall look for prettier ones to come. n the guess bag was only so-so. din realie like the look cos it looked too chunky. i prefer chic looking ones. shall save money lah. so we went off to far east to find hui's belt from 77th street! she bought the pink one in the end! personally i'd have preferred white but the glitter was dropping off so it kinda put me off. saw other nice belts arnd too. =) but i doubt i'd accessorize myself that much anw. so no pt. kkie after far east we just headed to tangs to get de sugarcane drink n went home. yepps. must do tutorials.
came home n slept from 3 to 5. n woke up to do tutorials n had dinner. feeling pukish for no reason now. yikes. oh yea i was just wondering why ppl are paying to make themselves suffer nowadaes. its like, they pay $10 for a packet of cigarettes to die of lung cancer earlier? they pay $7 to drink a bottle of beer to die of liver n kidney problems sooner? n ppl pay thousands for botox n plastic surgery n what's not. all the pain for what? everyone will turn old n their face will turn wrinkly anw. even if ur face doesnt sag ur boobs will lah. no what's the pt. its just a never-ending chase for beauty. are u gonna spend a lifetime chasing after superficial beauty? most ppl arent contented with fixing just their nose or their jawlines. they'll go on n fix other parts of their bodies. n they'd probably spend $30000 on their body by the time they turn 25. omg. what an investment!! seriously, why are ppl paying to make themselves suffer?
saw the episode of 'you hua jiu shuo' ydae. was talking bout teenage suicides. n of cos all the adults went on n blabbered all that nonsense about how u shd treasure life n all. so coincidentally, i chanced upon a blog that talked bout this girl's cousin who committed suicide. the guy was a police officer. n he shot himself in the head w his own pistol. his mom was totally devastated. n the girl (aka the blogger herself) mentioned incidents of how all the cousins would exclude him from games when they were young. n how she regrets it now. all i can say is, don't regret when its too late. cherish the ppl arnd u now. no matter how insignificant they may seem. for all u know, when a person u hate dies tmr, u'd be shedding a tear for him/her. everyone has his beautiful side. its whether u appreciate it or not. really.
who'd remember me when i die?
who'd be at my funeral?
who'd be crying?
who'd be glad?
who'd be the one on my mind when i close my eyes?
*[a lil princess thought at]*|21:33|
Saturday, July 16, 2005
shopping shopping n more shopping. mom had her fun shopping todae. she got a guess bag *yes AGAIN*, two Mango tops n a pair of pants from Mango. also some accessories from far east. she also saw a nice guess bag for me n some nice clothes from Mango she told me about. im supposed to go check them out tmr n buy if i like. =) met yuru n johnny *again*, met xuehui, met xinen n another hc girl. sat crowds are disgusting. i prefer shopping on sunday actually.
went for dinner w dear at the bishan coffeeshop w nice bbq chicken!!! =D super ultra nice! n dear introed me to this nice yam milk tea for only $1!!! n there were lotsa pearls! it was like 2 inches high of pearls!!! omg i want! why isnt it in yishun!?! if it was in yishun i bet i'd be 5 kg heavier by now. hahaha. =) anw i had a great great dinner~
i also met Mr. MVP in town today. the temasek jc guy who got MVP this year. ultra mega shuai. hahaha. at least he's shuai to me lah. cos his bball is really super zai. he's my no. 1 idol. i was literally STARING at him when he walked towards my direction. cos we were heading in opposite directions. n i think i stared a little too hard. he noticed me n nodded n smiled. i guess he is kinda used to that kinda attention lah. n he probably knows im staring cos he's mvp. hahahah. super shuai. my mom was like "huh?? lidat shuai meh??" n she said it v loud. right in front of him. -_-" my mom reallie knows how to choose timing. hahaha.
hui: aiyoh my ripcurl shuai ge is alwaes there. ;) i go still can see him wor! hahaha. next time go w me n u'll find him! tmr we dun do de shoe le lah. what happened to your eye? isit twitching or isit v pain or what? go see doc n ask k. maybe he can give some eyedrop or smth. maybe its infection. ehhhhhh TAKA FOOD FAIR ENDS TMR!!!!! ='( i wanna go buy 5 packets of sweet potatoes!! n i wanna check out Mango sales. mom says alot of nice stuffs. Guess also. there's nice wallet n bag my mom wanted to get for me. but she scared i dun like so she say tmr i go see den buy myself if i like. oh yea dil n me might quit chua's tuition leh. discuss w u tmr. ehh im not a nottie girl btw. =) i complete my work n still do my revision at home k. im just everywhere u go. i haunt u. didnt u realise? muahahaha. u're gonna see me again tmr. arent u looking forward to it? =D
ohh im so sad i saw a pic showing lindsay lohan w her fake boobs. cos when she raised her hands her boobs went all the way up to her neck. *yikes* real boobs arent like that isnt it? =( but i still love her. i still wanna watch herbie. =)
*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:56|
i was too lazy to blog ydae. n im heading out soon. so i guess this entry aint gonna be long as well! kkie ydae we ended at 1240, so dil n i headed to town to slack n chat. went to taka food fair!! that poor girl had a mega ulcer on her tongue so she couldnt eat alot of things. hahahah! de day b4 ydae she was totally like somebody on MUTE mode. she could only "hmmm hmmmm hmm!!" (n i could make out what she wanted to say!! she said "i hate you!") hahahaha. im so smart! even dil was amazed! =) anw ydae she still ate the kong bak pau n sweet potato w me. she used the other half of her mouth to eat. hahaha. if i tried that i'd probably end up drooling. she quite zai! =D hopefully her ulcer's healing already!! so we went to eat, went to kids section in taka, went borders, n went to see shuai ge!! the ripcurl shuai ge! omg he's still there!!!! =D hahahah! but dil thinks he looks good from side view only, she say front view his nose too big. =( but i can vouch that dil's taste is weird!! we went to adidas after that n she said this SA guy was shuai. n i went all the way to the other end of the shop to catch his front view. yikes! he's not shuai at all!! *dil i think we shd both get our eyes checked. if there's ONE guy that we agree that he's shuai, he must be some ultra mega shuai ge already!* =)
met dear after that n headed to lido to do my work while he read the book "the five ppl u meet in heaven". i slept on the table after doing my work. so he just continued eating popcorn n reading. hahaha. i think i slept for quite awhile, cos he had already finished de book by the time i woke up! (or rather, by the time he woke me up.) so we headed to taka food fair AGAIN. n i introed him the kong bak pau!! nice nice!!! n guess who i met there? HUI. again u know! i see her EVERYWHERE! aiyoh. nottie girl. always outside that's why i always see her. hahahah. when i saw her my first impression was "HUH? YOU AGAIN?? shoo shoo i dun wanna see u liao..." hahaha. im seeing her again tmr. oh save me. =p after that went for dinner w sy. headed to somerset there to makan, den bought milkshake from mos after dinner. n i met ppl again!! met zhiyin, yuru, jingmin, jialing.. all those hwachongnians. cos they had tuition there. the whole day i just kept meeting ppl. n i kept banging into weird things n ppl too. i nearly walked into a pillar for your info. -_-" i think im blind. ='( oh yes lemme see who i met today, i met joanna, blackie from cj *think he's called derek*, alot of hwachongnians i dunno name, spike, cach, na's shuai ge from vball, a whole grp of vball guys, the grp of ppl who had tuition, my theatre snr *i forgot her name*, ny frens *i forgot alot of their names. but we still wave n say hi!*. okay i cant rmr who else i saw. i bet im gonna meet alot more ppl later in town. omg. i hate the saturday orchard crowd!!! but im gonna be one of those faces in de crowd. look down n u'll spot me. =)
*[a lil princess thought at]*|13:04|
Thursday, July 14, 2005
im reading this book titled 'the five people you meet in heaven'. its REAL GOOD. grab it. here are some snippets of it.
::Sacrifice. You made one. I made one. We all make them. But you were angry over yours. You kept thinking about what you lost. You didn't get it. Sacrifice is a part of life. It's supposed to be. It's not something to regret. It's something to aspire to. Little sacrifices. Big sacrifices. Sometimes when you sacrifice something precious, you're not really losing it. You're just passing it on to someone else::
::All parents damage their children. It cannot be helped. Youth, like pristine glass, absorbs the prints of its handlers. Some parents smudge, others crack, a few shatter childhoods completely into jagged little pieces, beyond repair. The damage done by Eddie's father was, at the beginning, the damage of neglect. As an infant, Eddie was held by the man, and as a child, he was mostly grabbed by the arm, less with love than with annoyance. Eddie's mother handed out the tenderness; his father was there for the discipline::
::Love, like rain, can nourish from above, drenching couples with a soaking joy. But sometimes, under the angry heat of life, love dries on the surface and must nourish from below, tending to its roots, keeping itself alive::
"there was a reason to it all."
"what reason? How could there be a reason? You died. You were forty-seven. You were the best person any of us knew, and you died and you lost everything. And I lost everything. I lost the only woman I ever loved."
"No, you didn't. I was right here. And you loved me anyway. Lost love is still love. It takes a different form, that's all. You can't see their smile or bring them food or tousle their hair or move them around a dance floor. But when these senses weaken, another heightens. Memory. Memory becomes your partner. You nurture it. You hold it. You dance with it."
"Life has to end."
"Love doesnt."
its sucha good book. omg. im overwhelmed. anw i guess im meeting daniel tmr. =) havent seen him in AGES. years n years i would say? maybe 2? hahaha. im going to bed soon. was so caught up reading that i forgot the time. but i feel so nourished by the book. so enlightened. i love books like that. Eleven Minutes is good too.
today's lessons were as usual. long day. chem lecture was hilarious. okay not that the lecture was hilarious. its na n me that were!! the lecture was so mundane n boring that we started playing with her torto n her squeaky devil. n we're childish freaks! totally crazy lor! even resorted to playing hangman n tictactoe k! omg. we were so amazingly bored. hahahah. but our self entertainment skills are superb. ;)
*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:59|
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
PE todae was v funnie!! we had to take height n weight, n we got assigned to our respective modules for the term. ms chen (our pe teacher) was doing the announcing of the modules for every class, so when it came to our turn, she got v excited.
ms chen: ehh, 04s6b under me right?
6b guys: yes~ (wait expectantly) *before that they were laffing at the klass that kena swimming*
ms chen: we'll be doing DANCE!
tienyuan immediately fell backwards. all the guys had the OH-MY-GAWD face. hahahahahah. ms chen kept laffing at them. n the whole hall burst into laffter at the guys' reactions. ah pui n tienyuan even stood up n said they wanted to leave straightaway!! hahahahah. ms chen just kept laffing heartily at the class. goodness me. this is damn farnie. i think this term's PE lessons will be boy-less. oh yea den we were briefed bout our napfa stuffs. n almost all the class guys havent taken their napfa. (we were supposed to take in may but i think all of em ponned) n again the briefing was done by ms chen! =) n she told the guys that they had to train for their napfa so for the first few PE lessons they wouldnt be able to join the class for their modules. as u would have expected, our beloved 6b guys went "YAY!!!!!"
anw ht n wt was also v entertaining. im amazed at brotherhood ppl manx! tienyuan desperately wanna be short, while zhiyin n weileong desperately wanna grow taller. so tienyuan was 185cm *wth!!!!* n zhiyin n weileong were 171!!! they were so happie u know!!! =D zhiyin was so ecstatic when he realised he grew! he literally ran arnd n laughed. n all the girls just laffed at his rxn. ht reallie matters that much to guys arh? oh wells weileong n zhiyin were kinda like fighting to be taller. but they are of the same ht!! =) yays! everybody's happy! hahahah. everybody GREW rite? so what about me? I GREW TALLER TOO!!!!!!!! IM NO LONGER 148CM K!!! IM 150CM!!!!!!! *jumps n waves* n i put on weight in these few days!! last week i was 42kg n this week im 44kg! i thot i would be above 45 though! =x n i only realised todae that i was much much heavier at the start of the year! oh manx! im sucha pig n i still eat so much! hahahah. but i dun care~ im 150 150 150 150 150 cm!! =)
okay we had GP period wch was fun as usual. hear this.
ms heng: u know how in the past, when u talk to non-living things, ppl think u're crazy. but now everybody on the streets is talking to the handphone!
interesting huh? hahaha. she alwaes sprouts funnie things like that. n her funny things make sense. how interesting. okay phy lect was a plain bore staring at chiam. omg he wore the gay purple shirt again. he wore that on monday!! omg. anw things were calmer in school today. im just glad nothing major happened. oh but we had a irritatingly long n boring n retarded CT session. dialogue session with some EDB fella. he was like some walking social studies textbook okay. -_-" n he just refuses to shut up. yucks. we were all pretty disgusted. propaganda.
oh yes after sch na n i headed to swensons for lunch!!! wanted to go causeway swensons but she said there was one at westmall so we just went there! =) had calamari n fries! yummylicious! the calamari there is finger lickin good! ;) n na kept making this little baby girl cry k! everytime na turns over n smiles the baby starts crying! i bet she freaked the baby out!! hahahaha. but de baby's really really cute! she starts wailing n u stuff her a little icecream or bread n she'd stop crying! so amazing rite! hahaha. she is one chubby little baby! =) after that we headed home n did work n stuffs. yays!
i made smth for dear todae. but he wanted to study so din get to meet him. so naturally the thing went into the bin. he's not fated to have it i guess.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|22:09|
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
this is de 3rd time im gonna say this story. first was to siyuan n second was to na. hahaha. oh wells i feel so much better after talking to them. but i shall still blog bout todae. cos its a MEGA CURSED DAY.
early morning, ms ng said that we had to do a make-up reading period cos we're skipping the one today. n naturally i felt bad cos i think na n me should have seeked ms ng before we went to chiam. we just happily thot that reading period stuffs can be brought home. so we just shifted phy practical forward so we can leave early for judo match. but no. ms ng insists on ONE PERIOD spent in a classroom reading. the idea is abit -_-" but i think she just has to put down her foot as a teacher la. i think it was na n my fault that we din consult her beforehand. so i felt guilty. ='(
first 2 periods. chem lect was okay. den after dat was a break. went to chinese high for western food. n halfway thru break i realised ah jie n ah pui were glaring at each other. dat was when i realised things were not very right. =( i know im kinda slow but im not very very close to ah jie, so i reallie was in the dark about the whole thing. i got a shock when i saw them glaring at each other so fiercely. den as we were walking back from chinese high to hc, ah jie was v angry n upset. ah jie din go for maths lect after break. n when i went into maths lect, youzi told me ah ma walked out of the lecture suddenly. so i kinda thot smth happened between ah pa n ah ma as well. n qianjun headed out to find ah ma. so 3 girls were not in de maths lect. they went to chit chat somewhere for the whole 2 periods. after maths lect was econs tutorial. so dil n me went to class bench to slack. n when zhiyin came down from econs tutorial he was with this super black face. scarieee. heard that ah jie n ah ma kind of vented their frustrations n anger on him, cos they were angry w the whole of brotherhood or smth. i reallie dunno what went on. but all i knew was that both parties were super angry. weileong even said that ah ma/ah jie rolled their eyes at him. n weileong felt injustice as well. den things were reallie tense. zhiyin was really really pissed. dil n me got so scared we din know how to comfort him. after some time he simmered down lah. thank gosh. ah jie also settled stuff w ah pui during break. phew. but then came the next 'urgh!' thing for me. cos some classmates wanted to pon physics practical n go straight home. not going for judo. ydae na n me went to ask chiam to shift lesson forward. n he had to go to the lab to check if they could prepare it earlier so that we could shift the lesson. he was nice enough to do it immediately so we could get an answer asap. so really i felt that he was being pretty negotiable already. n he shrunk 3 lessons to 2. also just for us to go for judo match. ydae class ppl said shift lessons forward so that can go support judo. todae? ppl are leaving even before phy prac. i felt ultra guilty towards ms ng n mr chiam. i just felt this basic responsibility that the class ppl should at least turn up for all lessons today (since they've already been cut to the minimum) n turn up for judo match to support weeming (as they said they would). i wonder what chiam thought when so little ppl went for prac. n if ms ng realised less than 1/3 of the class went tp stadium. really. i din know what na n me went to chiam for. neither do i know why we had to bargain w teachers to release us early. is it so that ppl can arrange for tuition, shopping, or other sessions? or so that they can go home early? no. the reason we gave for shifting lessons was judo. so at the very least they should have headed for judo rite? or at the very very very least, complete the lessons of the day? i really felt bad towards the teachers. n i felt that i was so damn irresponsible. in a way it was as though we made the arrangements to give our classmates a chance to go home early. wth. i really feel bad. in the end only lingyong, zhiyin, weileong, ah pui, tienyuan, jkok, weeann, kongtat, hong quan, and i went for the judo. as u can see i was the only girl. but i went anyway. i felt even more obligated to go than ever. i feel so disgusted by the thought of the whole issue still.
judo finals. hc won both guys n girls team. =) cj lost. =( i was pinning for herge like crazy. hc ppl were shouting "Anthony!!! Anthony!!!" while i was like "HEJIA!!!! HEJIA!!!!!! HERGE!!!!!!" all the way. sorry. he's my great pal from cj. im gonna support him all the way. but herge lost. ='( but it was a really tough n good fight. impressed. *beams* met xuanrui n talked to him. =) real cool. met herge's gf n talked to her while he went for photo-taking n debrief. so that she wont be lonely u know! =) n den shufang came along n managed to talk abit to her as well. =) i miss my darling cj frens. they're really sweet. all of them.
hui; yeshyesh im so adaptable im like some chameleon lah!! im blend w diff ppl differently. sometimes i even wonder how i can be so changeable. =) but i take it as a good thing. flexibility is good ritE? hahaha. anw i reallie think it was so qiao to meet u at tp station!!!! so so so qiao lor! aiyoh. did u mention my name before that? isit ur amazing mouth again?? okie okie. i know its shaw plaza liao. hahaha. that place has nothing but lights n furniture n this fashion rite? =x dun worry girl. give urself time to recover. shi jian zhen de neng gou chong dan yi qie. shift focus of life back to yourself like it was years ago. it was like that before, so u can be sure it isnt anything difficult. stand back on your own feet n im sure things will turn for the better. really. =) le guan yi dian. keep telling yourself to look to the brighter side. even if its compelling at the start, it might just slowly become a habit. n u'll just naturally feel better after some time? just try. no harm trying every method. n u'll find a fool proof mtd that works best for u. =) jiayou my dear. heyheyhey. lets go do our shoe this weekend! =D
*[a lil princess thought at]*|22:46|
Monday, July 11, 2005
firstly, sorry na for making u worry bout me! im safe n well! =) realie dunno what's wrong w my phone.. cos i din even get a single missed call from ya! den u keep getting engaged tone when i wasnt even using the fone! =x im so sorrie sorrie sorrie for making u worried just now! *sheepish grin*
managed to catch a movie at balestier! i dun even know what that building is called. just know i watched batman there. n its in balestier! hahaha. dun even ask me how i got there. i forgot the bus i took. well batmas was a nice show! okay though the 'action' part was not v much but still the story was good. =) oh yea i have other movies im looking forward to!!! Herbie (the one by lindsay lohan about racing!!!! omg lindsay is so cute!!), charlie n the choco factory (willy wonker!!!), the island (some show bout cloning). oh yes n the hitler show i wanna catch w na. n i havent caught A LOT LIKE LOVE. ='( basically cos i cant watch it w dear. he'd just be so s-i-a-n-e-d. okay nvm. save $$ n buy vcd after As. =)
todae started pretty nasty. quite alot of tension in class recently. dildil agrees. its quite sad to see that alot of things fell apart. glad that one was settled within a day. =) but the other isnt. okay im being extremely vauge here cos i dun wanna disclose anything regarding anybody. just hope that things will turn for the better. yeps im sure they will. =) oh yes GP todae was spent reading aussie papers that ms heng brought back from melbourne n perth!! hahahah. fun gp session rite? na n me were excitingly checking out their rubbish news, their movies screenings, their tv timings, their adverts, their horoscopes, their puzzles!!! they even have crossword puzzles n all that in their newspaper wor! omg i hope that happens to sg newspapers too!!!! we were happily playing the puzzle maze thing in de papers. n we were so elated to complete it. hahahah. that's how easily entertained we are lah!! =D
after sch na n me went to find chiam to change our phy lab timing. cos we wanted to shift the lab period forward so that we can head down to toa payoh to support weeming tmr! =) okay tmr is judo finals of cj vs hc. for BOTH guys n girls team. omg. i know a few ppl in cj team. but i'll be wearing hc uniform. how to cheer for them!? =( okay i shall wish them the best of luck here den. =) but of cos most of my heart lies w hc judo team. *if i do not know the cj opponent of theirs* hahaha. yays!!! so tmr i end at 2 n we'll all chiong down to tp to support!
i've got two links from the aussie newspaper for games! checkout zeek n yahooligans under games!!! =)
i rmr talking to hui bout this b4. im a multi faceted person. i can be A to someone, B to someone else, n C to another. but im still me. i guess everyone acts v differently with diff company n diff situations. is that called being two faced? i dun think so. but maybe some ppl do think it is the case. well, my main pt is actually to say that we shouldnt read a certain prediction or deduction n apply it to ourselves. for example, a Taurus is supposed to be stubborn n blah blah blah. den maybe i'd think 'oh yea.. i remember im stubborn in this this this issue...' i think it shouldnt exactly work that way. cos somehow u're finding a reason to fit yourself to the bill isnt it? den wont a person like me fit a thousand n one bills? every side of me is drastically different. but im still me. im not faking anything. i prefer to consider myself being versatile. hahah. sounds like some self-comforting line. but really, arent ppl diff in diff occasions w diff ppl? or isit only me?? is that why i love to act? i think everyone is uniquely different. n as long as your conscience is clear, there's nothing wrong with being different w each of your frens yarh? =) to me its just like switching from mode to mode. cos diff ppl communicate on diff frequency level. =)
that was just random. dunno where it came from. well im off to do some work n rest early.
hui; jiayou. u know im always here if u need me. i dunno what else to say. but yups. take care of yourself pls. n fri kbox yarh? ;) *hugggs*
ah ma; doubt u'd read this but jiayou for nats!! =) nu er zhi chi ni!!
ah jie; dun think u'd chance upon this as well, but take care k? everything is alrightey.. =) cheer up!
na; heyheyhey! im nice i din post ur ramen story here k!! hahahaha! next time go there eat must bring u along!!! free yogurt wor!!! *drools* =p
dil; bugis is so nice to shop rite!! lots of stuffs to see n grab!! i wanna go ABC bookstore!!!
youzi; dun worrie blackie will be alright after some time.. =) cheer up! dun care bout him! he can blend into the cement ground color for all we care alrightey? *pats*
zhiyin; dunno what u say is true or not.. dun alwaes bluff na n me leh! i know we're quite gullible lah.. but anw dun be sad k? things will alwaes simmer down n u'll see the light! jiayou jiayou!!!
*[a lil princess thought at]*|22:56|
Sunday, July 10, 2005
chua's day. todae was WAVES of all topics. ='( i totally cant take this topic manx. but its a huge topic in phy. what to do. well after phy hui n me headed to mos!!! she was so nice she agreed to my craving!!! =D so we sat at mos n talked... *contents confidential* so yups. im happie for her in fact. wonder if its wrong to feel this way. but i think she'll be happier in time to come. =) jiayou my dear! *hugggS*
there's a food fair held in taka!!!!!! 7th to 27th july! its YUMMY manx! hui n i bought plum sweet potatoes! i love sweet potatoes~ n i bought 2 packets home! im sucha greedy pig!! but who cares. i love food. its sucha sin not to eat. hahahah! wanna check out more food fest events? go HERE!!! im alwaes keen to go try food anywhere! who wanna jio? hahah. im reallie sucha piggo. heh. i know this pic will make my dear drool.
im tired. spent the day doing tutorials, watched nkf, took a nap. i needed the nap SO MUCH. i have no idea why i was so shagged. almost knocked out immediately on the sofa. n i set my hp alarm for an hour. it didnt ring!!! n i slept for 3 hours instead. -_-" at least i feel better now. but im still tired. hahaha. so i shall still wash up n sleep early. tmr's monday! hopefully no monday blues! n i wonder if ms heng is gonna be arnd. if not GP is gonna be slack again. omg i need an mp3 player so desperately. im dying without music. no music to listen to. no songs to scream along with. arhhhhhh. oh yea next week im intending to have some small kbox session. anybody keen? sms me. =) *rwahhhs* im tired. nites.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:59|
Saturday, July 09, 2005
Mulan was a BLAST!!! reallie good show. loved it. cool stuffs they did. n i bet they put lots of sweat n hard work into it. =) inez was sitting next to siyuan n after de show she was crying like nuts. that sudden feeling kinda gushed up in me n i nearly teared with her. hahaha. its not even my show!! oh wells. =) its theatre. a whole team working hard together to get to that common destination. how cool! they reaped what they sowed. im so glad ny tcn has got this far. i bet they're gonna soar to greater heights. im so sure of that. *beams* their choreography n music n lights were great. cassandra actualie played the piano LIVE for the play. meaning that the action was going on onstage, n background music is done LIVE on the grand piano on stage at the side wings!!! that's like so mega ultimately WOW! can u imagine the immense pressure on her? goodness me! im so proud of her!! n of cos im extremely proud of Victoria! our beloved Mulan. =) n of cos all the generals (tom dick harry greg n another), the stage actors n crew. everyone. tcn rawks big time!! i dun think anybody doubts that. ;) i seriously cant wait for our next play. krishen jit. how can i get his scripts hurh? i type in his name n search in google. all i get are obituaries. wth. -_-"
im gonna go do some work after blogging. there's tuition tmr. rahhhhs. im so tired. my digestive system is screwed up again! ='( maybe i shd eat more. hahah. n ying baked brownies!! its yummy!!! ultra chocolatey n nice! i bet it'd be great w ice cream! oh yes im suddenly craving for mos burger. anyone wanna go eat it w me tmr? hahaha. guess im gonna camp at mos n mug the day away after tuition. =) i need to get fabric glue!!! cant believe i lost it. ahh crap. well i shall get it so i can deco my clothes with my bling blings! =D
*[a lil princess thought at]*|11:59|
Friday, July 08, 2005
wheee! todae's lessons were pretty slack! cos i din bring maths notes, den chem was going thru paper. im sad na couldnt find her 1 mark. ='( dun worrie girl! we'll all PASS for de next chem paper de!!! =) anw todae after school i headed to meet mommie in bugis. cos she took de day off for physiotherapy n i din wanna make her go home n rot alone. so i decided to be a good girl n accompany her. =) went bugis to shop shop shop shop shop. bought 3 skirts, 2 sets of lingerie, 2 jacket suits, a belt, 2 skirts for mommie, a top. we nearly bought a pair of heels to share. its REALLY pretty. but mommie saw the price as $19.90. when its actualie $49.90. hahahah. obviously we din buy it at $50. =S but its so prettie! mom n me were so geked. urgh. but it was like some mega shopping spree lah. bugis market street has reallie nice n cheap clothes! the minis there are like less than half the price u'd get them in far east. oh manx. OG sales is v hiong too. gosh. just shopped till i totally knocked out on my way back. on de train i fell asleep. n i got a neck cramp when i alighted at yishun!! =( but im alright now. =)
got abit geked in the afternoon due to some glitches in planning lah. was so brain dead after 2 hours of chem. n i had to decide where to go. -_-" anw just a tip for guys out there. girls DONT LIKE to plan the day. most girls i know prefer the guy to have a plan in mind before even asking them out. cant understand why guys can alwaes say 'anything', 'sui bian', 'up to u' etc etc all the time. next time ppl shd only ask me when they have like a PLAN for smth to do. not that i cannot slack arnd w frens. but when u want an activity, take de initiative to plan it. if de girl wants smth particularly she'll tell u. urgh. na n me discussed this b4. we alwaes get ultra mega geked when guys are indecisive. its irritating u know. hahaha. i'd actualie just cancel all plans n walk away. yeapx im an attitude kid.
tmr's mulan. not sure who's going n who's not. wanted to meet him tmr afternoon but i guess i dun have to ask n i know he's busy. at least i know my afternoon will be spent w mommie. at least she's arnd to accompany me. n she wants de indonesian food in town so we shall head there. meet ying after that. den its mulan. =) looking forward to it. even more keen on our alumni piece next year. janice n xiangyu were telling me how keen they were. but they'd be real busy w J2 life n block tests n block tests. we'll see how i guess. =) im not exactly in the mood to blog properly. shall go do my stuffs.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|22:12|
Thursday, July 07, 2005
trying to change my tagboard. isit my tagboard not working or isit that nobody is tagging? nvm. shall change it anw. well todae's first day of school. not exactly the best 1st day of school i could have but anw it was alright. wasnt that bad. =) constantly reminded of the fact that i have 4 mths. must jiayou. but to my sweetum out there, dun overwork urself k? u still need to take a breather sometimes. if u go at full speed from now onwards u're gonna break down before As. must alwaes take care of yourself k? *pats* jiayou! im glad i did transition tutorial just now. gonna do my maths tutorial tmr. mrs tham forgot to leave de paper in de pigeon hole for us. i couldnt find it. =( i wanna do it n gauge myself abit.
na: dun despair k! jiayou dearie! im not gonna fang qi my maths so u're not gonna fang qi chem too! we'll all do well n show mrs tham dat we can do it manx! dun be discouraged by BT cos u know we aim for As yarh! ;) we'll all mug hard tgt k! camp somewhere n study all the way! im sure we're all capable of doing well!! *hugggs* jiayou dear!!!
dil: dun be sad darling! we'll all do better next time round! i understand the useless n discouraging feeling.. but must zhen zuo den work hard towards our next goal yarh? =) alwaes self encourage n self motivate to keep yourself going even if u're struck down! cos u know u can do it!!! have faith n believe n everything will be possible!!! =) jiayou!
zhiyin (who probably wont be reading this anw): bu yao nan guo le.. we'll all work tgt k? hard work will eventually pay off.. n mrs tham will see that all of us have worked! n by then we'll let the results do the talking! ;) jiayou n dun give up! gambatte!!
ah pa: i dunno why im writing this for u when u're like scoring so well already.. hahah.. i shd keep some encouragement for myself instead rite? but anw i prefer to share it n motivate everyone else.. =) im sure u're a smartie n u work real hard for ur results.. compared to u i think my efforts are like.. 10% of urs? ='( but dun let the grades put u down or anything k? u know u can do real well so lets all strive for the better yups? =) jiayou ah pa! im sure u're proud of ah ma!!! =D
okay my self motivation part shall be kept to myself to be read in my heart. i guess the self motivation part has been trained over the years. ppl might think that im in some prestigious school but still i struggle to meet the mark. n obviously i do not meet the mark now. but all those years since pri sch i've been so accustomed to be like.. the worst of the best? if i wanna self console i can happily say that im among the best. but come to think of it, do i even belong to this group of ppl so called 'the best'? dats y i've grown used to it. kinda pathetic sounding but yea. i know im not cut out for studying. n i mean it. haha. no matter how many ppl can say things like 'come on lah, u're in HC n u say u're not cut out to study!?!' i know myself better. studying just isnt my cup of tea. but i know i gotta do well no matter what. dats y i mug my guts out for all those PSLE, O's n now A's. de things i like to do are like nowhere near studying lah. oh wells. face reality huh? i've forced myself to face reality time n again. that's why im in hc. shittie huh? that's life! live it! ;) or rather, make the best out of it! =D flunking maths isnt anything. failing myself is worse. so im not gonna let myself down for As. =)
had cheesesticks w na at cafe wadever after school! yummmmmmy! havent eaten it in so lonG! n tmr's gonna be tennis w ying n hua! yays!! finally getting to sweat a little. =) probably gonna go for a jog on threadmill too. oh yes mulan's on saturday!!! super excited bout it! n i was talking to xiangyu a little n she was pretty traumatised by hc block tests. hahaha. poor girl. she'll get used to it! =) everyone jiayou n dun let this period put u down k! i know its depressing for many, but must alwaes cheer up n move towards ur next goal!!!
*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:26|
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
woke real late todae. arnd 12+? i dunno. i only woke up when siyuan called. haha. was being sucha pig lazing in bed. anw i woke up n slacked n watched tv n den headed to town after siyuan took his final theory test. he passed!!! YAYS!!!!! =) i wanna take driving lessons tooooo! after As after As. =) caught fantastic 4 today! nice nice! its funnie at some parts n de action parts are nice too! it just reminded me of 'the incredibles' at some points. go catch it n u'd know why! anw the girl was so hot! reallie chio! i wonder why i alwaes look out for girls in movies. i seldom comment any caucasian guy being shuai. oh well in initial d i thot edison was shuai! =D initial d is a great show!! i still wonder why harry, chris n siyuan say the anime is better. i like the movie. hahah. maybe cos of the stupid fren jay chou had n the shuai guys in the movie. =)
so sianed. tmr shall be the official start of school. im gonna heed na's advice n bring only the exam papers to school. hahaha. saw the whole hc bball team when i was at cine todae. they look super poseur. yikes. but my idol was there also lah. mr jkok. but he looked poseur as well. =( oh wells! i got a nice pretty mango bag! its simple n sweet n just my type. =) goes well w clothes as well. still rmr hui saying how weird it was for me to dress up n hold big bag. so now i have a nice small bag to go w my dressy clothes. =)
was talking to mommie bout my future spouse. haha. she just popped out that topic out of nowhere. she said dat she just hopes i'd find some guy who really loves me n treats me well. seeks improvement. filial to his family. doesnt smoke, drink or gamble. that's about it. =) actualie those are the requirements i have for my guy as well lah. i dun wanna ill treat myself with someone horrid. its hard to find someone who loves u. its even harder to find a guy whom u love n loves u back. so to find some guy of that quality its quite tough huh? n ppl change. so even if he's the one for u now, he might not be the one for u in future. ppl's expectations change, your own expectation changes. it takes alot, n i mean ALOT for a couple to stay together for years. lots of compromises, lots of quarrels, lots of ups n downs. n u gotta pull thru all that to be able to stick together bonded like some married couple. not easy i must say. =)
kkie im off to bed soon. gonna watch some tv before i head to bed. nitey nites!
*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:42|
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
yeahs! class 'chalet' is over! successfully planned by na! n of cos qianjun helped alot by offering her place! =) we had a stayover at qj's condo in westcove (somewhere near jurong) n we had a bbq last night! thank gosh everything went smoothly and we had about 20 ppl coming for it! real nice! and most imptly thanks to those wonderful ppl who cleaned up the area for us!! namely ah gong, na, weeann, peixin, ah pa n ah ma! who else did i miss out? oh wells the place was simple n nice n just right for a group of us to spend the night lah! well after the bbq, na, ah ma n me headed to the jacuzzi n the furobath (hot water bath)!!! had a great time just slacking in there n rotting n chatting bout everything manx! n we were happily telling stories when ah pa came n said that it was already 12.16aM!!! so we quickly went back to the room n showered n started the mega girl chat session! okay girl chat included santi, ah jie, qj, youzi, dil, na, peixin n me! we just started those poker card 'matchmaking' n den talked bout ghostly stuffs den talked bout our dreams n all that crap.. we actualie spent a whole night talking k! till about 5+ den most of em fell askeep.. leaving na, peixin n me~ den it was about 6+ so we decided to wait for the guys to come back.. they actualie went all the way to ORCHARD to play dota.. -_-" that irritating game.. hahaha.. oh well they're nutcases lah!! so ultra mega boring to spend 3 hrs k! n to take the cab there is even more ridiculous!!! n since they finished dota-ing at 3, they got stranded in town cos they had no transport back! wahahahaha.. so they could only wait for the first bus at 5+.. i heard that some of them slept at the youth park.. poor things! oh well they safely got back at 6+ n tienyuan, sk n jkok wanted to go to the furobath.. but they couldnt find it n they ended up in some icy cold jacuzzi at that hour.. hahaha.. n they came back shivering cos strong winds came n it seemed like it was gonna storm! those poor fellas! hahahah.. anw todae the whole day was spent on billiard, swimming, jacuzzi n furobath again, n SLEEEEEEEEPing. cos all of us were so shagged from ydae's tonning that we totally knocked out todae! im still in a pretty s-t-o-n-e-d mode actualie! i shall go rest up before i totally die out on my spare batt.. nites! =) blog more bout chalet when i rmr to! =D
*[a lil princess thought at]*|00:34|
Sunday, July 03, 2005
im tipsy tipsy! okay im almost close to being drunk now.. lemme recap as much as i can.. i went for breakfast w daddy mommie.. had tim sum which was quite nice.. den came home n slacked arnd n went to town at about 2+? headed to art friends to get some stuffs! its real nice! n there's 10% off going on now so i bought quite abit! =) real real nice! big n u can possibly get most of the art stuffs there! n that level has all the artsy stuffs! coooooool! its called Fourem cos its located at the 4th floor! check it out! ;)
anw met up w sy after 'much difficulty' den we headed to borders after a long time deciding what to do n where to go.. was supposed to catch initial d but yea plans got screwed lah.. =x so we had ICE MOCHA!!! of cos its from coffeebean! =D n after that guess what we had?? NYDC JEDI MUDSTER!!!!!! woahs! ultra mega bloated after all that! hahaha.. so we walked walked walked the way down to heeren n took a bus to the hotel where his daddy's fren was staying in.. =)
the next WOW thing was at city hall! it was flooded with policemen n army guys!! cos of the NDP rehearsal at the padang, plus the IOC conference going on, the whole place was FLOODED with policemen! they had to be 101% sure of the safety of the area lah.. so when we enter the hotel we even have to go thru those security checks like those of the airport k!!! goodness me! n another WOW was how fast the lift went! the room was at the 52nd storey n the lift took like less than 15 secs? WOAHS manx! n so we got there, n i got introduced to the family from NZ~ they're really nice frenly ppl! =) uncle ian, aunty shirley n rachel! *hope i havent got their names wrong* but yups they're reallie sweet n friendly! =) den we watched the NDP rehearsal at the padang from their balcony!!!!! can u imagine watching it from 52 storeys high!?!?!? its like ultra mega WAHHHH! n the fly-by was like SO CLOSE! i was totally amazed manx! n from above u can see the mega powerful strobe lights n all the pretty lighting designs n all the neat marching n even where the cannons are fired from!!!! i was reallie reallie amazed.. its the jaw drop kinda amazement.. =) but it was a sight of a lifetime.. all the tanks lining up for the parade, all the helicoptors n fighter planes flying by.. all i can say is WOW.
after watching all that we went off for dinner! it was at a nice place called NUSS, where only members are permitted i think? there was great food! YUMMY!! i dunno how to describe actualie.. but its just superb! accompanied with great wine brought by siyuan's daddy! the wine is reallie GOOD. splendid. *slurps* i especially loved the white wine which smelt so much like lychee! reallie reallie nice!!! but that's also why im tipsy now~ i get drunk on wine very easily.. plus tonight was a mix of red n white wines! im so flushed now!!! but i reallie enjoyed talking to rachel n angela as well! angela's actualie sy's bro's gf. yups! nice young lady! =)
im actualie quite apologetic for today. cos i only realised today's the 2nd when sy told me on the bus trip towards the hotel. so i was like HUH!? yeps. im sucha meano to have forgotten. =x sorry dear. but i reallie appreciate what u planned for today. reallie love ya. *hugggs* thanks. =) i asked whether it was july cos i was counting how long we've been together. its 1 year n 4 mths. =) n of cos still counting. ;)
*[a lil princess thought at]*|00:57|
Friday, July 01, 2005
omg omg i love my sweetiepie-honeycoated-muffin! =D okay that doesnt make much sense but i love muffins nowadaes! anw ying was sucha darling for coming up n accompanying me for dinner! =) siyuan too! i love them both!!! it was only at dinner that i realised i havent exactly eaten anything todae! =x anw lets start w grocery shopping at cold storage. ying n me were like mini taitais choosing groceries. bought broccoli, tomatoes, green-yellow-orange pasta (which included clamshell n fusilli shaped ones), cream sauce, abalone mushrooms, corn! den we paid up n walked past guardian, where ying checked out some aloevera thing. n den it fell! 2 fell from the rack thingie n burst right in front of our feets! =S its extremely hazardous k! they were just stacked one of top of the other. n they were so high. i cant imagine what'd happen if a kid ran right into it. gosh!! so ying had to pay for those two things. =( they ought to do smth to their racks. blahs. anw siyuan came along when we were at guardian so we headed home to cook! yays! i din do much but slack arnd lah. ying washed stuffs. sy cooked pasta. =) so a simple n nice n cosy dinner was done! n 3 of us sat down n ate like some happie family. hahaha. totally love that feeling. so so cosy n heartwarming. i seldom have dinner cooked at home. n its so cool to eat smth u make w ur frens. =) thanks darlings once again! *smuacks!* siyuan had to leave earlie for his driving lessons. so he missed out on the corn!! which is ultra mega nice!! ying n me had the WOAH face when we first bit into it!! we din add anything to the corn! its just steamed! n its so sweet on its own!!! try getting cold storage corn n steaming it!! THUMBS UP i tell ya!
my pals are such sweeties. they're alwaes there for me. n i mean ALWAYS. no matter what happens i know they're there. how nice. i alwaes feel so blessed to have them. =)
*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:23|
woahs! i fainted in the toilet! yet again n again n again~ n doc says i have extremely low blood pressure!! he said 90/55 or smth. when ppl my age are supposed to be 100+ at least? i think mom is 200 dats y she high blood pressure leh. mine's less than half of hers. hahaha. anw ying just made my day by calling n saying she's gonna come up!!!! YAYS!!!!!! i was in sucha grouchy n tired mode the whole morning cos of my faint. blahs. but now i get to meet my darling! i aint that sad anymore!! =D there's a reason why i love her so much! ;)
oh yea i decided to add a scrollbar for games n another for web shopping. =) to entertain those frens of mine who'd be bored in the week to come. i've got lotsa websites for those branded branded stuffs. i'll just go surf n den go WOW (at the price) n den i'd start inprovising on my own shirts. =) copy n learn n do it better! that's your personal style! *u save money at the same time!* games are those websites of flash games or whatsoever to entertain ppl lah. at least they do entertain me sometimes! so i'll just put it up for everyone to share! =D maybe i'd do that tmr or smth! yeppps!
ying's call made me high~ dunno why. maybe i was reallie reallie bored out doing nothing. n now im feeling much better. de doc is good! but he told me there's nothing i can do to my blood pressure. ='( no medication no food would help. what rubbishy thingie. den wont i be like fainting v often??? yikes.
i doubt mommie would allow me to head to de class chalet thing tmr. sobs. i'll try my best to go! or maybe i'd head down on sunday instead. =) managed to make an early morning appt w skin centre. my massive breakout is killing me. n congrats congrats! im going back to the same old woman doctor who speaks like a turtle n writes like a snail! she takes 5 seconds to pronounce one word k! n i sit in the room watching her write for about 20 minutes!! n she charges me $60 for that immensely slow moving process. -_-" shall go surf abit n wait for ying's great arrival!!! YAY!!!!!!! block tests are over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*[a lil princess thought at]*|15:54|
