Monday, October 31, 2005
so freakin tired. tired of maths!!! gawd. anw im freaked by A level papers somewhat. last time in nanyang, doing O level papers were a breeze. now in hc, doing A level papers still arent a breeze! wth. totally hate it.
anw, thanks chris for that wake up call. i fell asleep on my table when u called. hahah. thanks hua for that nice sweet encouragement msg. im a tough girl. wont let this bring me down. haha. in no time someone else will sweep me off my feet yarh? ;) thanks hui. ydae... just felt weird to pop by when ur frens were there lah. but im okay. =) just needed a hug real badly ydae. no idea why. hahaha.
todae, just maths n more maths. but i had home cooked food! mom's on a wk's leave. guess i'll have accompaniment at home then. saves me alot of boredom n loneliness. im sure my days after As will be filled by all my darlings. but b4 As, mommie will do. =) but having her at home would mean a hell lot of those barley, chrysanthemum, luo han guo, ginseng drinks. yikes.
feeling much better todae. hope my entry doesnt get twinny lost. im looking forward to 28th nov! sentosa w de 2 pretty babes! twinnie n wz! =) gonna tan n look good for prom. haha.
again i feel compelled to write. write down how i feel, how im pulling thru. just 5 mins a day would do. i want this to be part of my memory. wrapping it all up.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|00:42|
Sunday, October 30, 2005
sorry for the messy entry ydae. but i doubt it'd be better todae. sorry. i think i suffered mild concussion when i slipped n sprained my ankle n hit my head on the stair's metal railings. how dumb can i get rite? injuring myself b4 As. but i really dunno where i was walking. n de next min i hit my head n twisted my ankle. but it isnt serious. so no worries. mom thot i got possessed or smth. de whole day she felt that i wasnt right. *shrugs* im still me.
had some terrible lunch. some fish soup that's supposed to be nice (cos mom says there's alwaes mega long queue, so she hasnt tried it b4). she wasnt hungry so only i ate. n my gawd it was terrible. soup was like plain water, noodles too hard. yikes. so i only ate the slices of fish n left the rest in the bowl. sorry my dear african kids. really v hard to stomach. walked arnd w mom for awhile. she bought quite abit of accessories. but they were going 3 for $10 which is v cheap. din look out for accessories for myself. was buried in the world of luo zhi xiang's music.
b4 i met mom, i loitered arnd raffles place for awhile. cos i couldnt enter her office w/o producing IC (cos of all those terrorism scares). knew hui was somewhere near, n my instinct was to go over, find her, n borrow her shoulder to cry on. but i didnt. couldnt find the courage to i guess. so i just walked arnd aimlessly, occasionally wiping off tears. how useless. but the feeling only comes when im alone or when im listening to some sappy love song. wch is why im occupying myself every min. work really takes ur mind off to the mathematical or scientific world. u forget about all the other rubbish.
im a tearbomb. they can hire me for those taiwan drama serials where u cry from episode 1 to episode 638.
thanks harry, thanks ying, thanks chris. ying n harry, de two of u dropped me smses about the same time saying about the same thing. haha. i love u guys. told u i'd spread the love. =)
watched a dvd mommy bought me. it was a surprise gift. Energy's concert dvd. it was supposed to make me happy, but i cried watching it. maybe i miss those days chasing them like a crazy lil girl. or maybe i just miss him.
i wanna watch chicken little. that nerd chick. love him. he's so cute.
its exactly 1 mth after his bdae. =)
*[a lil princess thought at]*|12:14|
Saturday, October 29, 2005
slept at 4 ydae. woke at 930. n maths lesson was scheduled at 10. crap. but ms ng was tired so she pushed it back to 11. lucky me. so i reached in time for lesson w/o the need for a cab. just as i was about to leave sch, mom called n told me she had the day off. so i met her in j8 for dinner. no lunch. n im so totally out of sorts todae. we were walking to crystal jade, n i walked straight into crystal jade bakery. mom even joked that we were having bread for lunch. i have no idea what im doing, what im typing. pls excuse my errors. had tim sum for lunch. den came home to do maths 03 paper 1. somehow, it feels good to be buried in work. cos your brain will just be too occupied to think about anything else. im glad my tears din fail me. they really din fall. though they were alwaes threatening to, i somehow swallowed them back. they only flow freely when im in my room or in the toilet. feels as though i've tamed my tears, n they only make their appearance when i allow them to. which is good.
i doubt i'd be able to sleep tonight. i feel pukish. i've this tight feeling in my chest. feels weird. hope it goes away soon.
was gonna charge my fone n ipod just now. i tried to plug my hp adaptor to my ipod. n i tried for so long. till i realised it was the wrong adaptor. i don't know why but i just broke into tears.
had an apple for dinner. den went to grab a yogurt from de fridge. n i walked out of the kitchen holding ben n jerry's fish fudge. wth is wrong with me? n when i turned back to get the yogurt, i took two expired ones. n i finished them without realising it.
i just hope i can sleep tonight. its 10 days to As. i dun wanna cry no more.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|00:31|
Thursday, October 27, 2005
studied w ying at her place todae. it was nice. n pretty productive. at least we din talk the whole time. n we were so put off by some 2004 stats qns. super gross questions lah! irritating. but overall de studying was fun! at least w her company everything feels better. =) n her mom cooked lunch for us. yays! auntie rawks. i cant wait for As to be over so i can start salsa classes w ying. haha. n chris got food poisoning todae. HAHA. that's for suaning me ydae! u evil pig. see lah. now u get retribution! anw u feeling better? ohh yes, if u're reading this, GO N STUDY!!!
some things cant be reverted. once hurt has been done, the scar just wont heal. no amount of medicine would help. geddit?
tears no longer help to ease my pain. its the tearless cries in my heart that aches me so badly. but not to worry, it'll cease. n i hope with time, all this hatred n anger in me would cease too.
wo xiang yao zi wo cui mian. (translation: i wanna hypnotize myself)
*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:57|
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
i was in a good mood this morning. cos of the cranky mock chem paper. my gawd i forgot like 80% of food chem. argh! but after the paper was a period of crankiness. maybe it was just fatigue kicking in. lunch at sembawang food centre. den study at sy's place. but smth happened n my mood dipped. n i mean a mega drop. well, not like he could tell anw. but im not interested to elaborate, so be it.
thank gawd i left soon after. had the excuse of meeting mom. but even if i din have any excuse i'd leave. i totally wasnt in the mood to face him at all. met mom at novena for some window shopping. den dinner at Hans there. i dunno if its coincidence or what, but my pals somehow seem to know when to save me from bad times. just like when i was totally in de dumps this afternoon, a msg came from harry n i happily submerged myself in the world of sms n tried to ignore things going on in real life. den i also had to put up w chris n harry's temptations of NYDC. cos they were there for dinner w sam. n they kept me entertained w their lame attempts to suan me. but somehow, they kinda 'appeared' at the right time. though not physically, at least i knew i had somewhere or someone to seek solace in. for that time being. n i just needed that. perhaps they dun even know they pulled me back from tears this afternoon. but i guess its like frens are connected spiritually. i believe in that. =) thanks dudes.
n i came home to do maths n read up on mistakes made in chem ydae. den beloved beloved ying dropped me an sms. the timing couldnt have been more coincidental. hahaha. sy msged me at the very same min. n i could easily have sunk into all that moody stuffs again, but ying's msg totally lit me up! so i just told sy i din wish to talk. i needed peace. n i indulged in sms w yingz baby. my darling baby. =) n guess what? i have no lessons tmr n ying asked me to study w her! i have an essay n a maths paper 1 to finish tmr, n i was still thinking i'd be so bored at home. i bet my thoughts would wander n i'd get even more depressed. but her sms came! it was like some "beacon of light in the tunnel" thingie. what would i do w/o my pals manx...
okay, so what has been wrong w me todae? depression? no. anger? no. hatred? yes i think so. for once i feel the hatred in me boiling over somebody. my whole life i've never hated a person so much. the mere appearance or the mere mentioning of this person makes me totally upset. i have no idea why. i no longer detest this feeling in me. cos i know it comes naturally to me. so im gonna embrace it n live with it. i dun think its pure hatred. probably just some major detest. *what's de diff?* well, its me. im emotional n im judgemental. like it or not im straightforward. maybe a zillion others detest me out there. but who cares? i am who i am. n i love the way i live my life. i dun think it does help to suppress feelings anymore. if i dun like anything, u can see it from my face u can tell it from my tone.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:59|
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
had yummylicious THAI EXPRESS todae. their soft shell crab simply rawks! damn im salivating. hahaha. my mom forgot all bout my dinner n i was left to starve. -_-" so i ended up having red bean soup for dinner. i can vaguely hear my stomach protesting.
intensive chem mugging seriously kills brain cells. i cant squeeze food chem into my brain at all. =( i've got sucha tiny brain i barely have space for all the info lah. URGH. why why why!? thank gawd there's luo zhi xiang's cd to entertain me. im so tired i've got triple eyelid on my left eye. eeew.
ohh yea i was telling sy about life as an animal. imagine u were an ant, wont your world be filled w walking giants? n these giants can move arnd all they like n suddenly stomp on u. den u're dead. hahahah. what abt life as a koala? eat leaves, sleep, eat leaves, sleep. den one day u decide to change tree for new leaves. den as u move from one tree to another, u get bitten by a dog or get rammed by a car n u die. hahahah. how sad. what bout sheep? my FAVE animal. hahaha. when it meets an enemy, it drops to de ground n goes into spasm. den after awhile it acts as though its dead, hoping that its enemy will just leave it by then. i bet the sheep must be thinking, "im so smart! my grandpa n grandma told me to do this when i meet w danger! n now i tricked de stupid lion! WAHAHAH!" after de sheep is done w its acting, it continues mehhh-ing away. hahahah. i bet it'd still get eaten by the lion lah. hahahahah. animals are so cute. mother nature made them in such an amazing way.
u know, beings are all de same. they tend to think "im so smart!!" more often than not. n den it only takes a little lesson from mother nature to make us realise, we arent so smart after all. like animals think they're so clever n they know everything, humans do de same don't we? but the recent spate of natural disasters have made us realise there are some things we cant take in hand. =) just like how i laughed at the animals, i bet the Someone up there is laughing at our stupidity. mother nature must be angry w us stupid beings too.
annabel chong was a graduate of RGS n hwachong. n she's de star of the marathon sex vcd. in 10 hours she had sex w like, 251 guys? wth. n she kinda blamed it on her christian upbringing, living in sg, high academic results for oppressing her sexual curiosity. well, from her story, i just learnt one thing, not to blame your doings on others. come on, it was HER choice to do this scandal n she shd face de consequences. after the 'marathon', the vcd also showed her coming back to sg. n her parents knew nothing bout the vcd. they were featured in the vcd (after all that sex n sleaze) saying that they were so proud of their daughter etc etc. n when they were told of the things annabel had done in US, they were also showed chasing her out of the house. seriously, any parent would have done that. its simply not doing justice to her parents who have brought her up so well, giving her the education so many ppl cant even afford. they sent her to US for studies n not for these. gawd. how de hell do u expect them to react when they realise their daughter slept w 251 unknown men? n she even slept w almost all de guys in campus b4 this vcd footage. that's like.... totally unacceptable. quoting annabel chong, "a man who does this would be labelled a stud, but when a woman does this, she's just a slut." its true. n its a fact of life. accept it n live it. since she knew of this, she chose to be the one labelled as a slut i guess. kinda sad for her parents, n i bet her own life's been jeopardised. there's no turn back for such things. too bad.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:58|
Monday, October 24, 2005
apologies for vulgarities in previous post. but im still damn pissed bout such websites. but even if sggirls closes down, there're a million out there to entertain those who want to find such pics. just hate the fact that there're perverts on de street snapping pics of girls that 'zao geng' or even those that wear tops that show A LITTLE cleavage. that's just a total insult to us girls. come on, respect yourself n others. crap.
had chem todae. mrs tham is ever-so-encouraging. n den after dat headed to queensway w sy to get his soccer shoes. got the Nike Total90III in red. super chio!! n we had so much food this afternoon i couldnt stomach dinner. swedish meatballs, sambal fish rice, chicken wings, laksa, ice teh tarik. SUPER filling. obviously most of de food went to sy, so he was even more bloated than i was. but it was a very very good lunch. my only meal of the day. a very very heavy meal. =) I LOVE HIS SHOES!
okay den it was chem mugging all the way. had so much chem to mug i din touch maths or phy todae. im overflowing w organic reactions now. not to mention periodicity. my gawd. i cant rmr much of periodicity still. must buck up. must expand brain space. rahhhs! jiayou jiayou jiayou.
Show Luo Zhi Xiang's cd is nice. i love it. de style i love.
*~* what goes arnd comes arnd, what goes up must come down*~*
*[a lil princess thought at]*|11:59|
Sunday, October 23, 2005
gawd. just what the hell is wrong w singapore girls huh? or rather, GIRLS in general. wtf do they think they're doing by posting lewd pictures online? for all to see? to drool over them? or for guys to wank to while looking at de pics. how gross is that? even if u dream of being every guy's fantasy, this isnt de way to do it. freak. i was so disgusted when i chanced upon a site called sggirls.com. damn, more than half de pics in there are gross. girls are either acting cute, showing cleavage, showing their nips, squeezing their boobs so hard to make it look BIG, or they're probably showing their undies thru their skirts. wth. isit v glamorous to be seen in a pic like that on de net? if i were their friend i'd be so ashamed. if u wanna act pretty n put tonnes of make up, fine. i can still TOLERATE that. but wtf is up with showing lots of flesh?? n dammit de girls are all like, sec sch students? wth is going thru their minds? its freaky. n so appalling that girls that age are doing things like that to grab attn. what have kids nowadays turned into?
"...it seems that there has been a "furore among parents" on discovering "what seem to be Singapore schoolgirls in sexually suggestive poses" on sggirls.com.
..The website came to Channel NewsAsia’s attention last week when a concerned father emailed Channel NewsAsia to say he caught his 16-year-old daughter looking at the website.
According to the email, the girl, who is from a reputable all girls’ school, told her father that "she was under peer pressure to pose such provocative and sexy pictures in this website in order to gain recognition..."
the above's from some website i saw regarding sggirls.com. n guess what? this site's set up by a singaporean guy studying in US. crap. if u have a fetish for these pics keep them to yourself. by posting those pics of de girls up, its as good as defaming them. so what if they look suggestive, cute, or they have interesting figures? they arent your porn stars. girls out there shd be wary of their pics posted. n some pics are so low class i cant believe it.
DAMN. even that is suggestive!? wth!?!
WTF!? who de hell goes arnd taking pics like that!!!! DAMN! bloody chi ko pek.
who de hell takes pics like that n posts them on de net? okay, maybe her bf took it n decided to SHARE it w the others. or else i cant imagine how the crap such pictures get circulated.
WATCH how u sit. i nv knew it was so scary to wear skirts out. gawd. wth are these photographers doing taking these pictures?!
okay. some pics are the "you asked for it" kind. i mean who de hell puts such pics on de net. those in bikini, fine. maybe u're cat-walking at home n taking pics of u in bikini n admiring it. but for it to be on de net, i dun think any girl would love de idea rite? (maybe its just me being conservative) but anw those sick nasty photographers that go arnd taking pics like those above, FUCK OFF!!! what the hell! u guys are DARN SICK. if this is your job u're damn pathetic. if this is your hobby u're just plain fucking bored or smth. get a life idiot! let me catch u on de streets in action n u'd gladly get kicked in the ass by me. damn, it'd be your honour to get a kick from the great me.
girls, all it takes to be in that stupid website is probably boobs n a cute face or a nice ab. damn, doesnt that make all girls eligible? probably not me. but i count myself lucky then. be wary of your pics. cos even pics looking really normal can have headings like "niCe tiTs" labelled. im only putting pics of those not showing face cos i dun want to humiliate those girls any further by putting their faces right smack in my blog. neither do i want those faces in my blog lah. darn i bet i look better even without lewd poses. seriously, BE CAREFUL. i shall let this post be a warning to all my girlfriends out there. can u imagine sitting on de bus n getting shot cos u spread ur legs a lil too wide? crap. just be extra cautious when wearing skirts. guys can gladly go to porn sites to see all the boobs n all the legs they want. why put pics of these girls on the net when the party probably isnt willing huh? okay, if the girl put it up herself i have nothing to say. the world is just weird. what the hell isit coming to?
*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:18|
Saturday, October 22, 2005
tuition todae was fun! had rubbish talk bout birds dying if they stand on one foot on de cable wires. hahaha. i really wonder if they'd just chao ta n die. my gawd. i'd find burnt birds under cable wires? how dumb is that!? hahahaha. i cant stop imagining. n na entertained us w her definitions of "pendulum bob" n "pendulum". she actually thot the whole system was called pendulum bob. hahaha. she learnt todae that its only the ball below that's called the bob. n we had nice food! spag sauce meatball on a cucumber!! yummmmy! =) ooooh we got a ride from xiangjing n poor him got his car dumped w food. courtesy of na n me! hahah. okay crappy n rubbishy morning.
afternoon was spent in amk mos studying w sy. was supposed to teach him maths but i think we digressed. maybe study w him again ba. im once again convinced that the world is puny mini tiny. gawd. how de crap did i ever go arnd in circles n only to find out that the blog i've been reading regularly is actually sy's classmate's blog!!!!!! its like "HUH!?!?" when i first knew it. lmao. what the crap lah! i mean, this blogger is like some unknown person on de net. n yet i realised from her entry that she knows mich, den now i know she's from ngeeann poly, n the next thing i know, she's from sy's class!!!! wth. how scary is this?? im still appalled. i only read her blog regularly cos she's v straightforward, n i kinda like her steadfast attitude. but its just so shocking that im actually distantly linked to this stranger. gawd. SCARIE!!!!!
i've been HICCUPING non stop since i dunno when. damn. im like short of breath already lah! damn!!! how do u stop hiccuping!?!?!? i've tried like everything! breathe deep, drink water, count fingers... shiat! what else can i do!? eeeeeeeeeeeks! *erppps* <-- btw that's de sound produced when one hiccups. im SO FAMILIAR w it. went apple shop at j8 just now. n that funny salesman kinda talked to me bout de mini condom for so long. den when i said i want to buy he told me they were already closed for the day. den he shd just tell me to go again another day rite!? talk to me so long for what?? -_-" waste time. ding tai fung dinner was pathetic. de pao skin was like cow skin or smth. super tough. den the noodles were alright only. n their xiao long pao.. i still prefer crystal jade's. im gonna boycott dng tai fung at least for a month!!!! so disappointing. waste money.
i read twinnie's blog bout pariss international buffet!!!!!!! I WANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *beams*
can u believe those frogs shown above can easily kill us? they're the poison frogs. n they're TINY. 2 mg of their poison can kill a human. n one frog has arnd 200mg of poison in it. hahahah. this slimy thing can easily kill 100 ppl. woahs! n they look prettier than normal frogs. well, if u see a frog next time, see no touch!
*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:59|
Friday, October 21, 2005
ydae was spent w my darlings ying n hua!!! =D i shant go to elaborate how much of a gem they are to me. hahah. anw we had nydc @ holland v cos hua had this 1-for-1 set lunch deal, so we only paid 16 for two set lunches!! =) the mushroom madness pizza was literally finger lickin good. i love it so much. de baked rice wasnt that fantastic instead. but still we had our fair share *or more than that* of bitching about nj n hc ppl. haha. i cant believe the world is SO SMALL. they were bitching bout this girl in their sch n the story goes on n on.... n suddenly her name is revealed! n she is from my pri sch! she's my "little enemy" in pri sch! *n she's still gaining negative attn now?* okay im a meano. but yea. how small can the world get!! n to think that she's been the person to be bitched abt since pri sch. urgh. how terrible can it get. -shudders- for all i know, some ppl out there have been bitching bout me since pri sch too! hahahah. losers.
did i mention that ying, hua n i have some amazing ability? ying can talk to herself, i can daze n dream off not knowing ying n hua are not in sight, n hua can self entertain VERY well. weird huh? its as though 3 of us are living on different universes n communicating thru some alien language. hahaha. but like ying said, it seems like we've been frens for centuries. i wanna grow old w them. =) just talking bout our meet-up ydae makes me miss them like hell. im gonna be hovering arnd them like a housefly after As. wanna get rid of me also cannot. hah.
todae was spent w hui studying at J8 mos. felt bad that i fell asleep for about 20 mins. cos i was really tired. well i managed to squeeze quite alot of chem into my puny brain. den after that harry came n we left. den headed to chris place n watched AXN. watched termites n some mud-eating-woman. yea lah those extreme stuffs. ooooh n i came back to yishun n met ah fat. he's recuperating pretty well!! yays!
i feel abit 'revived' from my books after meeting so many frens in 2 days. =) my pals just make my day!!
*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:59|
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
i like de kinda laughter i find w my pals in sch. had crap talk at 6th ave eating prata. n realised my ah ma was sucha bully in pri skl. can u imagine a pri sch girl who's bent on beating up a guy till he cries? n she beats him up EVERYDAY. my gawd. what a spunky ah ma i have. scarieee. anw ah jie was shocked by this begger that came to our table. he even poked her on de elbow n gave that buay song face when we refused to give him money. how rude!! spent quite some time at 6th ave cos it was raining n we couldnt head back to sch.
i found my inner self. in the form of a sad child. i need to be coaxed n i get hurt v easily. i like to cry. but i have alot of hope. just like a child alwaes holds on to hopes n aspirations. i dream about what i wish i had. n then cry cos i know i dun have it in reality. i can be matured n rational. but deep inside, im just a child at heart. sometimes i just hate to be so matured. i wish i knew less, i were more innocent, den probably i'd lead a happier life. im easily contented. just like a lil girl can be pacified w a sweet, i can be easily cheered up by food or things. i like fantasies. even if i lose smth, i tell myself things arent that bad. i shd wait n see. maybe smth good will pop out of it. its just like how i hold on to things relentlessly now. like it or not, im just a stubborn kid who refuses to give up. i can cry n get depressed over it, but i'd still hold on n try, n wait. im a sad child at heart. the more i think, the more i agree with that analogy.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:52|
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
had our last maths revision session todae. quite productive n useful. came home n did another maths prelim paper 1. was pretty okay except a few qns. i need to do some paper 2 to boost morale soon.
been thinking quite abit since i left after lunch. i guess i need some time to sort things out with myself b4 i can proceed any further from here. feels as though i've been in a daze all this while. which isnt a good sign. but i believe things will somehow straighten out. or at the very least, i'd come to terms w myself.
yoga really does wonders to calm one's nerves. the past two days i've been vexed n stressed, but just an hour of yoga can release alot of my tension. though my muscles ache from the previous day's yoga, its a good stretch n a really good stress therapy mtd. i love the way i can just listen to my own breathing n nothing else. just keeping my mind clear n not allowing any distractions to take me away. perhaps i havent felt this in a long while, that's why. i miss theatre.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:46|
Monday, October 17, 2005
went for mrs tham's lesson todae. she's really nice lah. =) anw we slacked arnd for awhile b4 heading for ms heng's gp. n as usual she goes crazy reading our AQs. hahaha. after gp was home sweet home for awhile, den lunch w sy. n we had ben n jerry's "PHISH FOOD" which is v nice! its a ultra corny name but its real nice. must try this new flavor!!
den it was maths maths chem chem all de way till now. my gawd im literally frying my brains lah. okay i had a 1 hr break to watch jin zhi yu nie. but that was it! im looking forward to wed to chill w my darlinggs. my gawd i need a life!
ohh ydae was spent at ah fat's house taking care of him so i din blog bout it. well that fella is still pretty pathetic w all his wounds n all that. so being the nice me, i went over n played nanny again. but most of de time i was doing my work n he was watching tv n disturbing me. so it was just like having some kid arnd de house while i did my work lah. wasnt that bad. ;) ah fat = kid. yea u get the link. =D
did yoga ydae. my muscles are so tensed up now. havent stretched for sucha long time. no wonder todae my muscles ache a little from ydae's yoga. i shall do it conscientiously from now on! but for now i need beauty sleep. =)
*[a lil princess thought at]*|11:59|
Saturday, October 15, 2005
ydae i fell asleep n woke up again to help ah fat w his proj. -_-" n den guess what? this morning i received a msg at 10am saying that ah fat is in hosp. he got into a bike accident. it was pretty freaky hearing that it was a lorry colliding into bike. n ah fat was the pillion rider! ='( i was so super worried for him lah! den after tuition immediately went down to pei him. cos his mom was working. he had to do de registration stuffs himself cos he had no one to assist him k! i felt so sad for him. den i was de only one there to pei him so i stayed longer than i intended to. i wanted to leave for han's house warming, but looking at his pathetic state in de hosp, really couldnt bear to lah. anw he got a fractured elbow, lots of abrasions, mild concussion n probably a traumatised heart. he was going on n on to me bout how he was so scared he'd die n never see me again. hahaha. but i know its really scary seeing your clothes drenched in blood n being carried on a stretcher into de hosp. i vaguely rmr my freak accident in pri sch. anw poor ah fat wasnt fed todae. he was starving till i met him. his other fren who was the driver was quite badly hurt as well. but at least he had his parents to take care of him. so i was ah fat's nanny for the day. he owes me one! =) at least i know he's safe now. i was so worried for him lah.
a cab aunty driver cheated me of my money todae. for $12, i got sent to amk mrt station. WTH! n she din know de way n yet din wanna let me alight n take a bus. freak manx. how can u allow such drivers to hog the streets hurh!? yucks. im so disgusted by her. n her irritating shrieky voice.
we had curry chicken mashed potato for tuition todae!! dr chang is really cute lor! n he loves to cook. n he has that really cute n xing fu expression when we tell him his cooking is good. ohh yes, n he has very very lame n cold jokes. *shudderS* hehehe.
im gonna do compre le. was studying chem just now. jiayou jiayou!
*[a lil princess thought at]*|22:15|
Friday, October 14, 2005
things were very ugly last night. not to mention dat i couldnt find a single soul to cry to.
eyes were so freakin swollen todae. n gastric pain n headache din alleviate de prob. i slept at 4 dammit. i dun even know how my tears lasted till 4am. had my ass stuck at home all day, till twinny called. i dunno why but i agreed to meet her. n the most scary thing is that she had probs w her parents last night as well. it gave us the goosebumps to realise that both of us were sad the previous night cos of similar issues, n we both had swollen eyes todae. wth. this is so freaky. met her for coffee in starbucks n some slacking in northpoint cos it was pouring n we couldnt come back to my place. in the end we got semi-drenched as we came back. no diff. im glad she made my day more tolerable. i hated all the fone calls from parents. just wanted to act as though i were dead n not pick up the call. it sucks. but thank gosh na n cindy called. though na had her own set of problems, she prob din realise how comforted i felt that i had someone to talk to. wch was what i really really needed. i hope de taiwan things are pretty much settled. den cindy somehow miraculously made me leave de house. at least out of de house i cant exactly cry. well, thanks girlies. im so fortunate i had u guys todae.
blog hopping just now gave me a surprise. there's this blog i read sometimes cos i like the layout pretty much. i guess de girl did it herself. cool. its simple n it has ashley simpson. that's de main pt. well anw, i realised this girl knows MICHELLE ONG! n cindy knows mich too!! how small is this world huh? at least cindy n mich are in de same sch. but the blogger girl n mich are chij stc frens! this is really scary. why is the world so interconnected? this girl's called angeline melody i think. no idea if that's her real name or a nick or smth. but yea, her blog layout's cool. n i like her straightforwardness. love it. *i mean her blog, not her*
okay anw, de world's real small. but i aint travelling arnd it. at least not with my frens this time round. shant explain more, but im not going taiwan.
played arnd w fabric paint n defaced twinny's calculator. but its chio. she drew a pretty pink heart on my calculator too. damn, it looks so good now. totally FAB. im gonna keep this calculator for a long time. i'll do a scan n upload de pic of it if possible.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:26|
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
had lesson till 1030 again. went to kap n kinda slacked arnd w na, ah ma, youzi, ah gong n wee ann. den ah pa came n joined us after that. anw we were playing truth or dare in kap. childish game rite!! but i guess its the company that matters. in de end we got quite high n digressed to other stuffs. shall keep the contents of the game within the table. shhhh. =)
u know how parents sometimes ask their daughters to marry a rich guy? n sometimes children like me think they're being materialistic or what. but mommie made me realise it wasn't so. cos they are married n they know what its like to be in a marriage, the things u can quarrel over are always the same few. money being the major factor. i mean, just list the rest.. jealousy, lack of care etc etc. none is as prominent as money rite? all the bills n payments pile up monthly. by marrying a rich guy, parents just hope that their children's marriage will have one less thing to quarrel over. as simple as that. they're not as materialistic or money minded as some children deem them to be. ultimately, its their child's future they're concerned about.
my klass is going on a TAIWAN TRIP!!!!!! we have free tour guides *ah pa n his fren who's a taiwanese*, we have cheap air tickets *na's sis can get half priced budget airline tics*, we dun even need very high klass hotels! hahaha. i realie hope it'll be a budget budget budget 7 day trip cos i wanna save money for trip w ying n hua too!! =D im so excited bout class trip! cos i really din expect de klass to be so onz! how cool is that! its like a graduation vacation. n its just a few days after prom! woohooooo!! ;)
sometimes i just wanna opt out. let go.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:32|
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
a man stole an old lady's money. it was just reported in the news. $8500 cold, hard cash + some jewellery. n that $8500 is what the old lady saved from being a worksite worker in the past. n she's sick n needs to see de doc n pay for medical fees. sometimes i really wonder if the thief/robber has any heart. the idiom lang2 xin1 gou3 fei4 really applies here. even if they do not pity or love old ppl, dun they have parents? how'd they feel if the victim was their own parent? i dun really care much bout those that steal from the rich n wealthy who flaunt their wealth n throw their weight arnd. maybe they wouldnt feel the pinch even. but for old ppl who are helpless n income-less, their savings mean so much to them. what has the world come to? where's the supposed "moral values" n "virtues"?
*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:21|
only got home at arnd 9 todae. totally worn out. not to mention the bugging flu which is killing me. n for god's sake i din take de fotocopied 2004 chem paper. how smart of me. i've no idea if its on class bench or what. anw its forgetful me again. todae went to sch for GP only!! -_-" finished at 1030. can u believe it!? n i rot till 9pm. how great. im falling sick again. i betta head to bed b4 i topple over. but b4 dat i wanna post this really cute pic of a KOALA. one of my fave animals. n i rmr carrying a koala in aussie. it looks so small n cuddly rite. n it only eats leaves. but its SO HEAVY. de one i carried was like a 10kg sack of rice lah!! my gawd. but its still so cute. =)
i dunno how im gonna tahan this stay-out-till-9pm thing. seriously i'd just collapse outside. its damn tiring mind u. try waking at 530 n keeping AWAKE n STUDYING till 9. its seriously murder.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|22:51|
Monday, October 10, 2005
my privacy has been compromised. without my consent. i no longer find home the place to be when im tired. damn. i hate invasion of privacy. it makes me feel damn insecure. not to mention that im mad about it cos i wasnt pre-informed. i was notified only when 2 strangers n my dad walked in that door. n mom said they were gonna stay till 25th. DAMMIT 15 days!?!? !@%$#%&#$%@!$# dun i have to study for As!? freak. who in de fcuking world cares bout my welfare huh? n when results are out they ramble bout how badly i perform huh!? n who de fcuk comes home drunk at 4am n pushed me down the stairs!?!? my damn foot isnt even healed. im glad i din get a concussion n go into a coma or smth. n now i lose my study area. WELL DONE.
fcuk it. im not gonna control that anger in me. this is no laughing matter. its my As im talking about. i wanna get into mass comm. damn him. now i've gotta stay out of home until my mom comes back at like 8+ or 9. what the crap is that. i've a home that i cant return to!? just cos some stranger is putting up here n they deem it unsafe for me to be alone at home!? what screwed up reason is that!? darn. im so f-ing pissed. so now i have to stay out from morning till 9pm. i might as well sleep on the streets. doesnt really matter anw. just a mere few hours. or maybe i shd just RENT a place n stay n study. at least i can have the comfort of taking a nap in the afternoon when i need it. freak.
n i had fever this morning. this definitely doesnt help. dad actually said they'd stay for A FEW DAYS. but freakin hell he told mom 15 days. congrats to me huh? bloody torment.
I HATE THIS!!!!!!!!!!!
*[a lil princess thought at]*|22:00|
Sunday, October 09, 2005
2 bloggers have been charged for racist comments. does that mean i have to be careful w what i say here? in a way yes. but im a trained-to-give-politically-correct-answers kid. so i guess i cant n wont sprout too much nonsense for my own good. i dun give unjustified critisms too. hope that protects me from being put behind bars. since when has bloggers created such an uproar amongst lawyers? lawyers that're too free might surf the net looking for the next fella to fight the case for. hahaha.
todae was plain n mundane. w de company of notes n books. oooh except for the fact that mom bought $136 worth of clothes at this tiny weeny store in the central area. the clothes were pretty n quite worth the price, but one shot $136!? she must be mad. its scary how she splurges. omg im a mega spender too. n i buy little little bits of useless stuffs!! =x
short day in sch tmr. maths only. yays!~
sometimes i just wish i could live in an isolated world without anyone's concern. i dunno why. sometimes u need the love n care. but at other times u dun want anybody to care bout u. maybe im just saying this in a spate of anger. who knows?
*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:26|
Saturday, October 08, 2005
some of the pics on my fone that i really like. =)
*[a lil princess thought at]*|11:59|
Friday, October 07, 2005
my swollen foot is still swollen. =( anw Goal is a good show. i LOVE newcastle united. =) that cute guy in the show is not bad too. hahah. i wanna catch into the blue as well. corpse bride. rahhhs. i dun have time. all those can wait till after As.
todae was the last gp lesson. but i'll still be seeing ms heng on tues for consultation. nonetheless, i'll miss her as my gp tutor. she's really good. not only in her command of language, but also her perspective on life n all that. she teaches u much more than just english. her optimism often influences us. n to think that she was apprehensive bout 6b at first, cos we seemed so playful. well, we are playful. but now she's the one going cranky w us. =) in no time, it'll be the end of sch. read kettle's blog. todae's the 8th. n A's start on 8th nov. that leaves me 1 mth.
anti dermabrasion. qianjun recommended it. some kinda facial thingie. but i cant seem to find much on the net. all're just adverts.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:59|
Thursday, October 06, 2005
went to school for chem n gp only. chem was short n sweet cos na n i only did mcq. den we had to leave to meet ms heng cos we pre-arranged it w her. going thru de AQ w ms heng was quite farnie. she alwaes has that asthma look when she reads our essay. hyperventilation. hahaha. i guess our essays really kill her lah. w my lousy english expressions n my limited vocab plus that superficial arguments of mine, its no wonder she hyperventilates.
had some unexpected stuffs last night. n now i've got a swollen foot n i dunno what to do with it. im so busy i din even have time to go see sinseh todae. urgh! its freakin painful. damn.
after sch i went raffles place w sy to eat nice malay food. its the same store mommie brought me to last time. now i know how to get there myself. n there's a store there that sells accessories at 3 for $10. not bad. there are lots of things there that are cheaper than other areas. after late lunch we went to city hall. cos he had to return his borrowed books from a bookshop at bras basah. n i went there w him cos he said he'd be staying n reading his book. so if i just ps him n study at raffles abit bad. but in de end he ps me. wth. he just suddenly told me he was gonna leave at 4.30. which was like 45 mins after we reached there? freak lah. i dun need him to add on to my anger n fatigue. n i had to make another trip back to raffles place to meet mom. crap. i shd have jio-ed klassmates for lunch instead. at least i'd be arnd school n not making wasted trips.
had fever in de evening while studying in BK. bought myself panadol n kinda tried to heal myself. of cos it din work. DUH. so yea. struggled w rising temperatures in freezing northpole BK. n had to do work n make my brains function. that's the ultimate challenge. im going to bed. nites!~
*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:58|
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
hahaha. i was amused by the numerous tags left by my pals just cos i kept talking bout FOOOOOOD in my previous entry. see? food appeals to all. young n old, tall or short, fat or thin. dun tell me skinnybones going on diets arent tempted by food. i dun take that. hahah. who wont be interested in good food? tell me?? no wonder they say the stomach's the way to get into your guy's heart. but i cant cook for nuts lah. jialat. nvm, best alternative is to have lots of places w good food to go to. so i can make him eat out w me all the time. wahahaha!
todae was so terribly hectic. i cant believe we had lesson from 8 to 4.30 w only a half an hour break. it was scary i tell ya! we even ran to classes cos we were scared we would get screamed at by de teachers if we were late. super lang2 bei4. but mrs tham was super cute. she was saying that almost the whole class was down for remedial. n she was laughing as she said that. n she still said very positive stuffs to encourage us. n put us to challenges. =) she's so sweeeet. our 6b zhao1 cai2 mao1. (that cat that brings in fortune for shops n all that)
after a very hectic day *n very little food =(* i went to sy's place. actually went there just so that he had the excuse to drive n send me home. den he can get the chance to drive. anw i was so shagged i lay on his bed n fell asleep in less than 3 mins. den he bathed n all that n woke me up after dat. i was tired n hungry. so went to de fried hokkian mee store near my place to eat. =D the super yummy hokkian mee. n he had to park in this multi-storey carpark which had a very narrow n tight lane to drive thru. n it was really hard to get in n out of de multi-storey carpark *his mommy's car also abit big. its a mpv.* well we got our food n we went to the new comic store in northpoint. omg omg they have dvds, vcds n comics for rental! im gonna drown myself in them after As. =)
i feel like going to mommy's office area to eat nice malay food tmr. den maybe study there till night time den go home w mommy. im so tired out. i think this weekend shall be a break for me. ='( the week is passing so s-l-o-w-l-y...
*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:53|
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
im gonna SAVE this post b4 i even click on the "Publish Post" below. friggin blogger has eaten up my LOOOOOOOOOOOONG entry ydae i got so pissed.
1st oct
had tuition, den headed to amk central to meet cindy twinnie! =) met her to pass her notes to fotocopy, den we went to de ramen place to eat. i had my fave spicy salmon while she had her beef teriyaki~ we were so bloated after dat. hahah. i finished de whole bowl of ramen k! but i also found out that dae that de S11 in amk is down for renovation. =( alot of nice food there. hopefully the stalls dun change after reno! ohh anw twinnie n me shared a peach fantasia. nice name rite! its a dessert that consists of peach ice cream. n the ice cream is coated w this sugar crust n the crust is in the shape of a real peach!! n its hand painted to look like a peach too!! super cool rite! =D we were so fascinated by de peach that we took pictures w it. hahahah. like some peach advertisement of sorts. anw we collected our notes n den cindy went yishun while i went causeway to meet parents.
mom n dad wanted to go causeway to buy stuffs from john little cos there was this mega sale. n i mean MEGA! i still cant believed de fact that i bought Young Hearts set for only $5. hahahah. its even cheaper than market place manx. super scarie! well there were quite a lot of good buys n all that. esp de cosmetics. super shuang to have 25% off cosmetics u know!! esp if they're expensive n all that!! okay i sound like some ah soh now. i shall just shuddup on those cheap bargains. well after dat we had dinner at Buckeroo. listen carefully k! Buckeroo sells very very very very very nice western food. the steak there is like marvellous. its heaven on earth manx! we had mushroom soup *which was served in a bun*, golden fried mushrooms *which was a little too oily for my liking*, steak *its $45.80 but its meant to be HUGE n meant to be shared. it comes along w ultra nice mashed potato n caesar salad!!! the caesar salad totally melted me. my gawd...* n we had salmon *which wasnt as good as de french restaurant one lah* okay overall, the mushroom soup n the steak is a MUST ORDER. the mushroom soup is so creamy n thick! n i believe they brewed it themselves cos its got this very special herb-y taste. which is very very nice btw!! =D the whole dinner was especially yummy!!!!! okay its a little bit more ex than those normal kopitiam lah. it was $99 for 3 of us. but now we know what's nice n what to order, i bet it'd be cheaper next time round! *beams* (ohh btw, my previous entry was like double the length on de description on food. too bad u guys missed out reading on that. ;) save u guys de trouble of clearing up ur drool.)
anw at night, ah fat called up n asked me down to town. ohh yea i was in a bad mood dat day actually. very very sour mood. n since he asked i just complied. i only realised upon reaching that we were going to black. -_-" of all places, black. that crowded stinky sweaty place. hahaha. but i basically slacked arnd w ah fat n weixiang n zhiwei lah. just loads of crapping n drinking. n i was in sucha bad mood i downed all sorts of liquor. vodka 7-up, vodka lime, whiskey, margarita *it sucks btw*, beer. eeew. beer sucks too. well just downed all de diff kinds lah. n i was surprised i wasnt drunk. all those 3 fellas who drank w me were semi drunk by de time we left. n we headed to zhiwei's hse after black cos we decided to play billiard. hahaha. couzy joined us cos he was at liquid earlier. n another grp of frens were at momo. so yea. all gathered at zhiwei's place at 4am to start playing billiard. n i was laffing at ah fat so hard cos he was so drunk he couldnt play properly. n to think that they all got drunk cos they were listening to me complain. i think the whole night we barely hit the dance floor. maybe only 1hr of dancing. that's so rare! well they were nice enough to hear me rant. =) n after all that ranting, all 3 got drunk n i was de sober one rattling on. =S anw we had billiard till 8am++. got sent home, den i slept till 12, den woke to do work all sunday. =) its probably one of the few times clubbing made me happier. im normally pretty high in clubs except for days like that. how sour.
2nd oct
what's there to say. just study study study. ohh dinner was at home w granny n aunt. mommie cooked. yummmmy! im gonna grow so fat eating so much. hahaha. but same as twinnie, i'll prob say im gonna lose weight, but i belong to the NATO group.
3rd oct
ydae. what happened ydae? school. den i had this horrible bout of flu. i was using tissue paper like nobody's business. n to think that after school i had to go all the way to ntuc *cos the school stalls were closed* to buy tissue paper!!! how bad is that!! but to make myself feel better i bought the super cute winnie the pooh tissues. =) i actually cant rmr what happened ydae. just a normal day spent in school i think.
4th oct
TODAY! tadahhh~ na n me left after taking physics paper. n we went to kap to eat breakfast! =D talk talk talk. as usual. all the gossipmonger talk. hahah. its been a long while since i got to talk to her like that. we've all been busy w work n all that. but at least i feel good to know that she's opening up to someone. i have so much to tell her i think i shd write it in a letter or smth. n we were bitching bout this girl whom we dunno. n we were speculating how evil she was. its a mega long story n we do not directly know the people concerned. but its sucha dramatic story its so bitch-able. =) im a true blue gossipmonger hurh?
went simlim w sy to find out some stuffs for his dad. n i saw this really nice n cool n small ASUS laptop!!! its got a camera with it! n its white in color! TOTALLY what i dream of. hahahah. dad promised me a new laptop in uni. *cos his freakin engineer took mine* n i intend to earn myself enough cash to get a digicam w my own money. =) its much better to have a target u're working towards. den u'll conscientiously save n scrimp to get there. yeahs! i shall go do chem! tahhhs!
twinnie u're not reading ignorance IS bliss anymore!! =D
*[a lil princess thought at]*|12:10|
DAMN. even that is suggestive!? wth!?!
WTF!? who de hell goes arnd taking pics like that!!!! DAMN! bloody chi ko pek.
who de hell takes pics like that n posts them on de net? okay, maybe her bf took it n decided to SHARE it w the others. or else i cant imagine how the crap such pictures get circulated.
WATCH how u sit. i nv knew it was so scary to wear skirts out. gawd. wth are these photographers doing taking these pictures?!
can u believe those frogs shown above can easily kill us? they're the poison frogs. n they're TINY. 2 mg of their poison can kill a human. n one frog has arnd 200mg of poison in it. hahahah. this slimy thing can easily kill 100 ppl. woahs! n they look prettier than normal frogs. well, if u see a frog next time, see no touch!
