Saturday, January 28, 2006
i got a surprise from hejia!!! he made this super sweet surprise for me n passed it to me after work! met him at the outdoor stage near aria, n he passed me a mandarin orange, 3 mochi, n a flower (plucked from outside no signboard seafood), all packed in a cute small basket. it was super cute i tell ya! he's alwaes delighting me w small tiny things! =D anw the orange was actually stuffed w sweets!!!! i was literally 'shaking' the sweets out!! SUPER SUPER CUTE! *beams* he's sucha darling manx. totally loved it. shared de mochi w him n brought every bit of the 'sweet surprise' (as he names it) back. heheh. cant believe he's so freakin sweeeeeet. its cool that we work so near to each other! =)
john went to aria for food tasting session todae, w big boss n all, so he waited up till i knocked off n we took last bus back tgt. n he had a surprise in store for me as well! i was in suspense till i reached his place n i saw...... two boxes of pineapple tarts!!!!! i was ultra delighted! cos i was just complaining to him on the bus how horrid the tarts i have at home taste. hahahah. n so so so coincidentally, he had two boxes for me! n one box was made by HIM! woahs!! the other was by his uncle! n both taste GREAT. it was super HEAVENLY. esp the one made by him. its in the 'golden pillow' style if u guys understand what im describing. omg omg i was like a lil kid w *HEAVEN* in a text balloon over my head. hahahah. hua n ying n chris n harry probably know what sorta face that is. ;) i was just so so so satisfied. *beams*
went shopping w brianna in bugis street today! we bought denim skirts for $15, we both got the same design! n i bought a super super nice belt which i ADORE. n brianna got her stripey pants for $25! we saw it going for $35 in marina sq!!! hahaha. its sucha steal lah. i love bugis street. but today it was packed like nobody's business. brianna was even saying that it was as though we were attending countdown or smth. my gawd. too bad we couldnt find nice gold pocket watches. think brianna's taste n i have some things in common, n somehow i manage to talk to her. din think i'd click w her when i first started working in al dente. hahaha. i still rmr how hua n i used to think she was the 'da jie da' in al dente. =p its interesting knowing her again, after our pri school ballet days. haha. its amazing how fate works huh? =) ohh yes i ate at V8 cafe w brianna after shopping n their food is really cheap n good. i love thier fish n chips! i think its dory fish but it doesnt have that stinko dory taste at all!! =D n its only $8.80 w complimentary soup. sucha good deal as well! n their strawberry smoothie is good! im gonna head back there for a meal w mommy n intro her to it. havent dined w mommy in awhile already.
i got my paycheck for last mth! $521. isnt exactly alot but im contented. however there were some probs w it, so they're still investigating. seriously, i wouldnt take the money if it has to come from roy's pocket. i hate to say this, but im really starting to think that accounts in the company stink. i've heard it from so many ppl but i refused to believe. i really dun wanna WITNESS it. *keeps fingers crossed* i wanna prove my daddy n mommy wrong n tell them "hey! they pay me the amount they promised k!!". =) i love al dente n aria. i love working catering as well. its the ppl that i work with basically. they're a lovely bunch of darlings.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|02:56|
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
this song is so beautiful. i've no idea what im doing up at 530 am. i just cant sleep. too many thoughts clog my mind at night. when im all to myself i tend to think too much. i reckon i wont get much sleep tonight. the sun's gonna rise. i need a jog, a breath of fresh air. time seems to be leaving me behind.
Forever
I'll be loving you forever
Deep inside my heart you'll leave me never
Even if you took my heart and tore it apart
I would love you still forever
You are the sun, you are my light
And you're the last thing on my mind
Before I go to sleep at night
You're always 'round when I'm in need
When trouble's on my mind
You put my soul at ease
There is no one in this world
Who can love me like you do
So many reasons that I
Want to spend forever with you
Chorus:
I'll be loving you forever
Deep inside my heart you'll leave me never
Even if you took my heart and tore it apart
I would love you still forever
We've had our fun, and we've made mistakes
But who'd have guessed along that road
We'd learn to give and take
It's so much more than I could have dreamed
You make loving you
So easy for me
There is no one in this world
Who can love me like you do
That is the reason that I
Want to share forever with you
Chorus:
I'll be loving you forever
Deep inside my heart you'll leave me never
Even if you took my heart and tore it apart
I would love you still forever
(And girl I pray you leave me never)
Bridge:
'Cus this is a world
Where lovers often go astray
But if we love each other
We won't go, won't go that way
So put your doubts aside
Do what it takes to make it right
'Cos I'll love you forever
No one can tear us apart
Chorus:
I'll be loving you forever
Deep inside my heart you'll leave me never
Even if you took my heart and tore it apart
I would love you still forever
I just want you to know that
I can't eat, I can't sleep
I can't breathe, whenever I'm without you
When we walk, I stand tall
When we talk, I only talk about you girl
(Repeat Chorus to fade)
*[a lil princess thought at]*|05:24|
went shopping w brianna todae! got a denim skirt n a top, while she got a polka dotted top from Blossomz. =) i bought a first polka dotted top for my wardrobe. that reminds me, my wardrobe needs packing. n my room needs packing. n basically, i need a room revamp! haha. daddy just told me to draw out what i want for my room, he'll get someone to custom make my shelves or anything. but still, i need to CLEAR my room b4 i can do that. anw brianna n i have made another shopping trip scheduled for thurs, n i've got to make a trip to get stuffs for myself n mommy tmr. n daddy custom made a diamond bracelet for mommy!!! it looks GORGEOUS i tell ya! im gonna snap a pic n put it up here. haha. it cost a whooping $5800 for just a bracelet. omg. but its really sweet cos on the side of the bracelet, there's this tiny carving that goes 'william & yong hua'. how sweeeeeeeet is that. omg omg omg im melting. cant believe it. if only if i had someone who loves me so much till im 60.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|02:33|
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
saw brianna's blog bout her nightmare. that reminds me, i had a really sweet dream last night. it was just a dream about what i hope for. maybe cos i was thinking of him so much b4 i slept.. maybe cos i was crying over him just b4 i slept.. whatever it is, i dreamt that i was back in his arms. i felt it, the very same feeling i feel in his arms every single time. i felt safe n warm. but i woke up to realise its just a dream.... n i cried.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|01:50|
Monday, January 23, 2006
i love this test. i think the results are true to a large large extent. =)
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madeline, when you reveal your true colors in love, you're a
Caring Partner
Above all, you're looking for a steadfast, loyal partner who you can trust to stand by you in good times and bad. You typically value the special bond that love can create. As a result, you're more likely to seek out someone who cherishes that deep connection too. Once you've devoted yourself to someone, you're the kind of person who can feel that nothing is too personal to share with your partner. Perhaps you feel that this kind of closeness is necessary for two people to truly relate. When your mate shares your desire to connect, the relationship you create can be both amazing and intense. However, in the past, you may have found that such intensity can be frightening for certain individuals. Don't let this truth stop you from finding the kind of relationship you really want. Keep in mind that there are others out there who will share your desires. The challenge will be not to get too attached to people who don't have this closeness as a relationship priority.
Friendship can be another primary relationship need for caring partners like you. In fact, you may feel strongly that the best relationships are those that are built on a solid foundation of friendship. If this belief holds true for you, you likely prefer a "friends first" approach to dating, rather than jumping in with both feet. If something is going to last, you're apt to feel that there's no need to move too quickly. However, this doesn't imply that you aren't interested in the sexual side of romance. On the contrary, once your relationship matures, you can take as much pleasure satisfying this side of your nature as almost anyone out there.
When it comes to your personal space and grooming, you may be viewed as being more particular than many others are. Aesthetics can be important to you, so you likely make an effort to keep yourself and the things around you in tip-top shape. Striving to keep things attractive and clean can be an admirable trait. However, realize that if you select a sweetheart who is a little on the messy side, your fastidiousness may become a bone of contention.
Still, little issues like cleaning habits aren't likely to put a damper on any relationship of yours. That's because when you are part of a couple, you generally make the effort to be flexible and understanding of personal differences. You also tolerate criticism better than most do. For you, friends' and lovers' constructive criticisms are typically viewed as acts of compassion. These traits can be great for your relationship, as long as you don't allow yourself to be pushed beyond your comfort zone. When difficulties arise, just try to maintain your approachability as well as your sense of self and take things in stride. After all, relationships — even the best ones — will have their moments of dissonance.
Your outlook on dating
Whether you're new to the dating scene or a self-proclaimed expert, your perspective about dating will go a long way toward determining your ultimate success in finding the partner who's right for you. Just remember that no matter what your view of dating is today, you always have the power to change it if it isn't bringing you what you desire. Here's what your colors revealed about your present outlook:
When a romance ends, you can be pretty hard on yourself — blaming yourself for problems and even seeing the relationship as a personal failure. Rather than just dusting yourself off and getting back in the saddle as many people do, you typically carry your sadness after a beak-up much longer. While it's important to allow yourself to grieve after a relationship ends, getting stuck in those feelings can inhibit your future happiness. Instead of telling yourself that you'll never find another love like your ex, or that there's no one out there you can trust, take some time to build up your faith and positivity again. Ironically, the best way to attract a compatible mate may be to find strength and happiness in being single.
As you venture out to find your life partner, use your well-developed imagination to come up with creative ways to meet new people. Your tendency to indulge in fantasy, romance, and the magic of chance, makes it so that you probably have no problem envisioning a million ways you could find love. Now, all you need to do is put those dreams into action. Try going to new places, getting involved in new activities, and seeking out inventive ways to meet singles. You might even want to try online dating. As much as you may wish for it, your dream date is not going to drop into your lap one day. Instead, you'll need to focus on your goal and create new and exciting possibilities.
How you handle conflict
Once you find yourself as part of a couple, the way you and your new partner handle disagreements will become crucial to your relationship's long-term success. Realistically, you can't expect to avoid relationship problems entirely, so it's best understand whether or not the way you and your partner argue is compatible. This is something you'll usually be able to determine within the first three months of a relationship, and sometimes even sooner.
In your case, you tend to feel that it's important for both parties to feel heard in an argument. So if your partner yells at you, you're likely to try to calm things down so the two of you can have a more rational discussion. Sometimes, though, you may lose your temper and respond with a sarcastic or biting comment. For the most part, though, you try to decrease tension to have a good talk about each person's perspectives. This is one way you look to better yourself in relationships: by giving and receiving honest feedback. However, if your partner confronts you when you've done something wrong, you may try to change the subject rather than face the consequences. If that doesn't work, you'll make other attempts to displace the tension. It can be difficult for you to have open, honest conversations about your own faults. However, to have the kind of close relationship you want, those are just the kinds of talks it will be important to have. Growing in relationships sometimes requires us to humble ourselves from time to time. The rewards can be well worth it. So for your relationships to be the most satisfying that they can be, you would do best to find another person who's willing to have caring, open discussions even when things get tough.
How you end your relationships
The way a person ends their relationships is often a sign of both the maturity one gains through experience and the compassion one has for their romantic partners. Your colors showed that you can be a real pro when it comes to ending romances gracefully. At the close of a relationship, you're much more likely to make the effort to discuss your feelings with your ex, rather than leave them with questions about what went wrong. You're also one who'll typically offer support during this sad time by listening and letting your ex share their feelings with you. By ending romances this way, you ordinarily have the benefit of remain friends later if you choose to.
Now that you know what your color choices revealed about you in love, it's time to find out more about color itself.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|02:26|
madeline, you're a
Responsible Friend
You've earned this title because as someone with a loyal, trustworthy, and giving nature, you're the kind of person almost anyone would be proud to call a friend. The high value you appear to place on your personal integrity is indeed an admirable trait. Types like you seem to try to live by the ol' Golden Rule: Do unto others as you would have them do unto you. Because of this inclination, you insist on taking responsibility for your actions, even in difficult circumstances. So if you're over at a friend's house and accidentally knock over an expensive antique vase, you're not the kind of person to try to blame it on the cat. In fact, not only are you likely to own up to the mistake, you might even scour local antique stores until you find the perfect replacement.
You also appear to take conscious steps to honor your commitments to others. As a result, if you tell a colleague you'll help at a charity event early on a Sunday morning, chances are you'll be there — no matter what you did the night before. And although you probably wouldn't call yourself a crusader for social causes or the environment, chances are you do your part. As someone who is loyal to their friends and helpful when called upon, you can be proud of the positive effect you can have on the people you care about and the community at large.
Who You're Compatible With
Besides people of your own type, the two types that are the best matches for you are the Ethical Benefactor and Gentle Protector.
Ethical Benefactor:
Ethical Benefactors have earned this title because they appear to have exceptionally high ethical standards when compared with many around them. It also seems that they typically manage to adhere to these ideals and expect that others do the same. Consequently, if one of them came upon a winning lottery ticket lying in the street, they'd be one of those rare types who'd probably search high and low for its rightful owner. Ethical Benefactors likely know that many other people would simply take the money and run, but that wouldn't feel right to them. Whether they're admitting when they've done wrong, holding themselves back from snooping into others' private things, or not accepting what doesn't belong to them, they strive to remain honest, upstanding people.
These standards can lead them to bring out the best in themselves and others. However, their high ideals may also mean that the people around them let them down from time to time. When others conduct themselves in ways they find dishonest, forgiveness may not come easily to Ethical Benefactors. They should try to remember, though, that mistakes are part of life. There are times when everyone could use a second chance. This type of person should consider putting their giving, caring nature to use by offering the wrongdoer their support in the same way that they'd aid a vulnerable person in need; then everyone involved can benefit from their high ideals.
Gentle Protector:
Gentle Protectors have earned this title because as people who recognize that they can make a difference in the world, they tend to be more mindful of their actions than most others are. They would probably also agree that they make concerted efforts to be helpful and giving to those around them. Because Gentle Protectors like to feel that everyone is taken care of, they're one of those rare types who'll go out of their way to protect the vulnerable from harm. Whether a little old lady needs help crossing the street or a neighbor's cat is stuck in a tree, you're likely to find a Gentle Protector right there to lend a hand. Members of this group also seem clear about their responsibility to society at large. As a result, if they find someone doing wrong, they may go out on a limb and notify the authorities so that dire consequences can be prevented.
Many Gentle Protectors appear to be more personally concerned about situations that violate innocents' rights than most others are. As a result, they may find themselves involved in local charitable activities or keeping a close eye on humanitarian efforts around the world. Chances are, they can't bear to see others suffering or being taken advantage of. This kind of empathy, coupled with their ordinarily giving nature, can make Gentle Protectors real crusaders for the underdog. Interestingly enough, it seems their care for other living things goes beyond their fellow humans. In fact, it's likely that these people count themselves as friends and protectors of the earth around them, as well. For this group, going the extra mile to recycle, conserve energy, or use earth-friendly products may simply seem like the sensible thing to do. Their can-do attitude and caring are things that others can admire.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|01:55|
dad flared up todae. cos i was supposed to get a day off but i didnt. n mommy only told him this morning. so he was fed up that he actually arranged today to be free to accompany mommy n me. sighs. now i understand why a family finds it hard to meet up when everybody's working. it used to be dinner w family EVERYDAY. now its like, not even one day in a week do i sit down w daddy mommy to eat. i feel guilty for it actually. =(
this cny, i need:
a new camera (when my pay comes in)
denim skirt
jeans
new furniture n paint for room (when i finally PACK it up)
that's about it. i dun need anything else! i've got way too much stocked up in my room as it is. anw salsa ydae was super fun!!! de class was like, 20++ ppl. n i reached really really late cos of mommy. hmph. but i still managed to learn what they were taught ydae. the left turn. so now we have the right turn, the cross over n the left turn. its super super fun. i love salsa so much!!! its just a casual n fun n social dance. COOL STUFF!
i hope john's feeling better right now. really worried bout him but i guess he shd need some time alone so im not gonna msg to disturb. i'll keep him in my prayers b4 bed. =)
this wk im working mon to fri. 3-11 everyday except friday. haha. nobody believes im a part timer now. all my frens cant even find me. =p which part timer works SO MUCH huh? but i guess i need to be preoccupied. either working or sleeping. i dun like to be alone. or rather, i hate to be. it gives me too much room for my thoughts to wander. im still mustering up courage to do what i really wanna do. to ask him for the answers i need. sigh. im sucha useless bum. i dun think i'll ever dare to ask him. n in future when i see him w someone else i'd start regretting. rahhhhs. lousy shitty me.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|01:21|
Friday, January 20, 2006
Like We Never Loved At All - Faith Hill n Tim McGraw
You never looked so good
as you did last night,
underneath the city lights,
there walking with your friend,
laughing at the moon.
I swear you looked right through me.
But I'm still living with your goodbye,
and you're just going on with your life.
How can you just walk on by
without one tear in your eye?
Don't you have the slightest feelings left for me?
Maybe that's just your way
of dealing with the pain,
forgetting everything
between our rise and fall
like we never loved at all.
You, I hear you're doing fine.
Seems like you're doing well
as far as I can tell.
Time is leaving us behind,
(time - leaving us behind)
another week has passed
and still I haven't laughed yet.
So tell me, what your secret is
(I wanna know, I wanna know, I wanna know)
to letting go, letting go like you did,
like you did.
How can you just walk on by
without one tear in your eye?
Don't you have the slightest feelings left for me?
Maybe that's just your way
of dealing with the pain,
forgetting everything
between our rise and fall
like we never loved at all.
Did you forget the magic?
Did you forget the passion?
Oh, and did you ever miss me,
and long to kiss me?
Oh baby, baby.
Maybe that's just your way
of dealing with the pain,
forgetting everything
between our rise and fall
like we never loved at all.
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this song made me cry like nuts. im still crying as i listen to it. the meanings mean so much to me. it hurts. still it hurts so bad.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|01:41|
i realised working w mr T can be alright. i just gotta learn more about PR skills lah. im really still a kid. havent seen the true colors of the working world yet. i've got so much to learn. i was just thinking, if i say working w mr T is hell, den im probably a damn pampered kid who hasnt seen shit. haha. anw, i'll learn. that's what i love to do!
tmr working catering event again, den gonna get my mini greenie fixed. it cant be detected on my comp!!! =( sobs. cant download my nice new songs into my mini greenie too!!! RAWRS! after catering i'll rush down to wheelock, fix mini greenie, den head to marina sq to get SKII for mommy *im so gonna go broke!!* den grab a snack b4 work. my days are so filled to the brim. i wanna go forever 21 n i wanna go bugis to grab some denim shorts or skirts. queensway to get accessories too. my gawd.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|01:14|
Thursday, January 19, 2006
i havent updated my blog for the longest time ever i suppose. my gawd. i've got SO MUCH to say i dun think i will express myself properly. cos normally the brain goes faster than the fingers yarh? anw, firstly, happie belated bdae to garfield n na!! i feel damn sorry i din manage to drop them an sms on the day itself cos i was working. n partially my short term memory's to blame too. i just cant rmr things. they're two besties of mine n yet i cant rmr!!! URGH. i'll treat them to belated celebration meals. ='( okie. must move on b4 i forget. i kena food poisoning on Tuesday 17th Jan. i ate prawn mee at 925 n i got gross prawns which caused me major food poisoning the next day. i was literally in bed till 3pm. kept running to the toilet to puke n all, n i felt totally jelly manx! how suay i was, cos roy ate the same thing n he din kena! i had to cancel out on ying's shopping trip, n i met john for a quick lunch b4 going to work. oooh i found nice prawn dumpling noodles in yishun!!! =D wilson alex n i were having a hell lot of fun at work. though i was like a little sickling n alex kept watching out for me like a big bro, we played the stupidly retarded game which restricts u from saying "i, you, him, her, they, is, the". retarded n boring as it sounds, its damn fun to play. hahahahah. alex was supposed to be a 'smart aleck (alex)' but apparently not! wilson was supposed to be the smartie cos he came up with the game, but right after we started playing he said a line going "ehh i tell u arh...." n alex n me just dropped to the floor laughing. my tummy was aching earlier due to food poisoning, n after that due to the laughters we shared. hahaha. ohh yes chef chris was super sweet! he knew i had food poisoning, he found this gastric pill called 'Actal' for me, it works wonders! the next morning i was fine already!!
ydae i worked split shift w our new assitant manager who just got transferred over from holland v. lets call him...... T. he's so bloody irritating! i havent worked w any manager n felt like throwing things at him!!! there were like 6 to 7 tables n i was literally doing most of the service myself? take orders, serve drinks, seat new customers... the routine just goes on. n obviously my short legs n short hands cant do everything that quickly! n where is Mr T? I HAVE NO FREAKING IDEA. n when i found him, he was behind the bar meddling w fruits. FOR WHAT!? wth man. n i needed him to key in the orders quickly cos i dun do cashier job. ohh not to mention, ydae was the day i felt so disgusted offering lousy service to customers. he hasnt set the table cutlery b4hand, so there were no soup spoons on the table. i saw that the soups were prepared, so i took a tray, took 3 soup spoons, n wanted to help him set b4 he served. but the smart Mr T just plonked the freakin soup in front of the customer without the soup spoon there. b4 he placed it down i already gave him the signal to hold it there first, but he just smiled n kinda gave the 'nevermind lah' look n he just plonked it down. WTF! hello u're a manager okay. i felt my face burning when i placed the soup spoon after the soup n the customers gave me a queer look. my face was red cos i was EMBARRASSED TO HAVE SUCH A LOUSY MANAGER n i was ANGRY N PISSED. ohh yes, another incident happened b4 lunch time. he was trying to shove all the buffet stuffs used for the event into the store cos they were taking up space outside. i asked him if it was possible to shift it to one side so it didnt block the way so much, den wait till jason comes to pack it into the store cos jason knows where to place it. he gave that corny smile again n said 'nvm lah, i just shift it n chuck it somewhere first, jason will rearrange later'. isnt that double job? jason gotta move everything out again!! -_-" n in the midst of him making the store seem like a maze, he broke this glass plate that belongs to catering. i was standing there staring at him so obviously i saw that he broke the plate. n guess what was his reaction? gimme that CORNY SMILE again. wtf. it makes me feel like bashing him up sometimes. n he even said "shhh, dun tell anybody. quietly bring it to the dustbin behind n throw it away." wth!?!? u broke smth n u're scared to admit it!?!? wth man!!!!! irritatingly pissing pest. URGH.
okay enough bout him. i dun like to contaminate my blog w too many horrendous ppl. hahaha. im still happy working in AD n aria! cos MOST or rather 95% of them are nice ppl!! ;) n so many of them take care of your well being when u're sick n all, it really feels more like a family than a corporate. okay, when the cost cutting measures come in, it feels more corporate like. im working w roy n brianna later n they're not up yet. -_-" working w chris too! yayys!!!
ydae hejia came to find me w my 'lunch' n 'dinner' he prepared!! i was so excited bout it cos he was so sweet to have made lunch n dinner for me. how often do i get guys preparing food for me huh? its so so rare lor!! n he made two really cute onigiris for me!!! =D it was pouring arnd 4 so he couldnt come to esplanade to meet me, so we met at night arnd 11 after i finished work. he brought the two cutey onigiris to esplanade to let me eat! hahaha. it was super yummy!! hahah, not to mention that he used the $2.50 per bowl rice. he's just so cute. its his virgin attempt so he wanted me to try it. how schweeeeeet. =) i feel so blessed manx!
went to 925 w mommy to sit n chat w roy, brianna, eric n ah boy. its super entertaining to hear roy talk bout gays n les. hahaha. kkie im gonna bathe n get ready. n brianna n roy are still not up. urgh. how to wake them up!?!?
*[a lil princess thought at]*|11:47|
Friday, January 13, 2006
check out "al dente ktv" under snippets! really nice pics there.. =D
*[a lil princess thought at]*|01:52|
Thursday, January 12, 2006
im so bored i took this from brianna's blog.. im gonna start at 2247pm.
ANGER
do you have a quick temper? depends on the issue i guess.. sometimes i do.
what do you do when you're mad? erm, take a deep breath n hope smth nice happens the next sec. haha. if possible i'd find a quiet spot n scream.
what's the worst thing you've done when you were mad? i left him there n walked away. now i regret it, but its too late for regrets.
if you can take back time, would you have never done this? of cos. i would nv do it again.
ever made anyone cry when you were mad? yea
do you curse when you're mad? sometimes. when im really really pissed off.
CRYING
when was the last time you really cried your heart out? a second ago
ever cried yourself to sleep? yea. i still do when things happen, or when memories just pop back into my mind.
ever cried on your friend's shoulder? yea of cos. but its really rare unless the issue's v serious.
ever cried over the opposite sex? duhh. it isnt new to me.
do you cry when you get an injury? hahaha. i get injuries so often they're peanuts!!
do certain songs make you cry? yups. Love Me & Zui Shu Xi De Mo Sheng Ren are 2 of the many many songs that make me cry..
PAIN
what's the hardest thing you've ever had to go through? till date, its probably the break up w sy.
what's the worst thing you've done to yourself? got myself so drunk i puked at roy's place. n i got drunk for the stupidest reason ever. dumb me.
what's the worst thing you've done to somebody else? i hurt him so deep that the feelings faded and he gave up.
ever had a painful break up? yeps. so painful i havent recovered. but im still trying. =)
how depressed can you get? erm.. VERY depressed? i dun wanna eat n drink n see anyone?
do you inflict pain on yourself? nahh. that's pure stupidity.
HAPPY
are you normally a happy person? yepps! esp w frens arnd n all. really helps!
what can make you happy? any small thing. can be a lil kid, or a smile from the customer, or just TIM SUM or any happy food. =D
do you wish you were happier? hmm.. yes. i'd be if he's still in my life.
what makes you the happiest? receiving an sms from him. currently my hp reads 0 sms from a person who's so impt to me. doubt he'd sms or call me ever. but its just gonna be a secret wish.
is being happy overrated? NOOOOO. its so impt k.
what about being with your friends, does that make you happy? of cos!!! i love them so much.. to put it simpler, i cant live without them.
can music make you happy? yes definitely.
LOVE
how many times have you had your heart broken? once or twice. only by parents n sy. not many ppl have that ability to hurt me that bad.
do you still have feelings for any of your old significant others? yea
did you ever love a guy, tell them that, and only got 'thanks' as a reply? no
ever loved someone so much, it hurt and made you cry? yes
has anyone besides your friends and family ever said 'i love you' to you? yupps
ever stopped a relationship because they didn't say 'i love you'? that's dumb!
HATE
who do you actually hate? nobody!!
have you ever been on a hit list? hahaha.. i think so! im sucha mega bitch.
do you hate any one that breaks your heart? hating someone takes too much effort n energy. i'd rather learn to forgive.
do you hate George Bush? wth. i dun really care much bout him to hate him.
SELF ESTEEM
is your self-esteem extremely low? yes it is! okay wait.. 'extremely' is too strong a word. my self esteem is just low. =)
do you believe in yourself? i believe i can do whatever i put my heart n soul into.
when people say they think you are pretty, do you deny you are? of cos i deny! cos im NOT pretty. hahaha.
are you one of those idiots that think they are ugly, dumb, and fat? not ugly n dumb. but short n fat yes. =) but im proud to be short. fat, i still eat what i love. who cares!!
ever wanted to kill yourself because you thought you weren't good enough? i must be crazy to even think about killing myself.
are you happy with who you are? i love the way i am. cos im unique n nobody's me.
FIRSTS
First best friend: i got serious short term memory. cant rmr.
First car: no $$
First screen name: cant rmr.
First self purchased album: crap! is this memory game!?
First funeral: my grandpa. i love him so much. he's looking after me from up there. =)
First pets: erm.. goldfish? i rmr i killed one.
First piercing/tattoo: 4 years old. ear piercing. cos i thot earrings looked good on amanda jiejie. n i cried n ran out of the shop after only one side was pierced. HAHA. all that for being vain.
First credit card: age 16.
First true love: siyuan
First enemy: no major enemy since i was born.
First big trip: to vietnam i think.
First music you remember hearing in your house: huh? how am i supposed to know?
LASTS
Last cigarette: no way. i dun smoke!
Last car ride: just now? in the catering van?? -_-"
Last time you cried: just awhile ago.
Last crush: its been a long time since i had a crush on anyone.
Last phone call: ah boy. called a min ago!
Last IM: brianna i think.
Last time showered: half an hour ago!! i smell so nice now!
Last shoes worn: yucks. my working shoes. that aunty looking heels! wheees~
Last item bought: hor fun at 925~
Last annoyance: dun rmr being annoyed today...
Last time wanting to die: i nv wanted to die.
Last time scolded: ydae by chef?
FAVOURITES
Colour[s]: red white blue black purple pink brown orange green... actually i only dislike yellow a lil. the rest im fine. haha.
Food: my gawd. marina sq tim sum, makansutra century egg porridge, nydc mudpie, swensen's baked rice, manhatten's seafood platter for 2, pepper lunch, crystal jade, arragosta cream at al dente, cheeeeeesesticks from coro/aria, mos kakiage burger n fries n ice milk tea w lotsa milk!!! omg there's still loads at the back of my mind...
Boys' Names: nv thot of it.
Girls' Names: nv thot of it either! madeline sounds good. =)
Subjects In School: maths n gp
Animals: koalas, dogs, sheeps
Sports: tkd, running, rowing, blading, swimming
Perfume: i dun wear purfume. but i love my Nivea deodorent!!
HAVE YOU EVER
Given anyone a bath? yupps! my baby cousins!
Smoked? hell no!
Bungee jumped? uh huh.
Made yourself throw up? no. but eric oh made me throw up. hahahaha.
Skinny dipped? i dun have the assets to flaunt.
Ever been in love? yeaps.
Made yourself cry to get out of trouble? that's pathetic. no.
Pictured your crush naked? no way!!
Actually seen your crush naked? huh?? no.
Cried when someone died? yes.
Lied? a few times. but im a lousy liar.
Fallen for your best friend? nahhs.
Been rejected? no.
Rejected someone? yes.
Used someone? noooooo. i dun make use of ppl.
Done something you regret? yes. i regret it so so much.
CURRENT
Clothes: hwachong tee n fbts
Music: bei ai de nu ren
Make-up: nahh make up sux. why de hell would i put it on at home…?
Smell: rose.. (from the body shop)
Favorite artists: hmmm?
Desktop picture: none.
Dvd in player: none.
Color of toenails: no color currently!
Last person You touched: my beloved mommy
Hugged: erm.. i guess its john? on 1st jan?
IMed: john
You kissed: sy
ARE YOU
Understanding: not really. still trying to be.
Open-minded: depends.
Arrogant: i dun think i am, but i nv know if others think im!
Insecure: very very insecure
Interesting: yeshyesh
Hungry: sometimes.
Moody: occasionally. but seldom lah.
Hardworking: depends on what im doing.
Organized: im not organized AT ALL.
Healthy: i dun eat enough veg. im getting fat. im lacking exercise. other than that im fine. =)
Shy: no.
Attractive: no.
Bored easily: no. self entertaining is my forte.
Responsible: quite?
Obsessed: nothing much im obsessed with.
Angry: not now.
Sad: yea. deep down i still am.
Disappointed: with myself.
Happy: yes im happy. happy dat my frens n darlings are arnd for me.
Hyper: yes. haha.
Trusting: to frens, yes. to boyfriends, no.
Talkative: very very talkative.
Legal: im above 18 but below 21. =)
WHO DO YOU WANT TO
Kill: nobody!
Slap: nobody….?
Get high with: dearest darling frens!!
Look like: nobody! i look good enough!
Talk to offline: siyuan?
Talk to online: siyuan as well?
WHICH IS BETTER
Coke or Pepsi: pepsi.
Flowers or candy: candy.
Tall or short: SHORT
RANDOM
In the morning I am: sleeping
All I need is: at this moment, its just him.
Love is: to be nurtured.
I dream about: ….. i only dream bout him (sometimes w her in the picture), but that’s not the pt. haha.
What do you notice first: eyes.
Last person you danced with: na? indochine party?
Who makes you laugh the most: anybody makes me laugh. im easily entertained.
Who makes you smile: many ppl make me smile. even a baby on the streets make me smile.
Who gives you a funny feeling when you see them: siyuan
Who do you have a crush on: no one.
Who has a crush on you: nobody!
DO YOU EVER
Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone to IM you: did that b4. hahaha. so stupid of me.
Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: yea.
Wish you were younger: yupps. reality of life sometimes sucks so bad u wish u were a naïve lil kid.
NUMBER OF TIMES
I have had my heart broken: once or twice? i thot i answered this qn b4?
Of hearts I have broken: i really dont know.
Of continents I have lived in: one.
Of tight friends: less than 10
Of cds I own: tonnes of them.
Of scars on body: alot! arnd 10 i guess.
finished at 0014am. =)
i failed my advanced theory!! gotta retake. -_-"
i went to IKEA ydae!!! it was so packed i got too lazy to buy anything, even anything small. haha. but john n i just walked arnd n saw nice stuffs, den we left n headed to marina sq for timsum! i'd drop by ikea for my table n all that when my room's more or less packed up. =) anw tim sum was SUPERB as usual!!! its so so so nice n filling. satisfying. =D n john's my ultimate tim sum partner. hahaha. we're both tim sum fans. after that we headed to play pool for an hour or so *i suck at pool manx. who's gonna teach me?*, b4 heading to work! i worked for a catering event ydae. it was fun!! i think catering events are fun. we finished arnd 930 n left at arnd 10. cabbed back w hua, john, jackson *john's couzy*. after dropping hua off, the 3 of us headed to 925 for supper! hahaha. i still could eat after timsum. =p anw john sent me back after supper n i got a surprise. =) details shall be kept to myself. hahaha.
today i flunked advanced theory, went to cafe cartel w chris darling, cut my hair w ying n told her stories, met mommy in town for dinner n shopping. i got new bracelets! =D not the girly type. more of the bohemian styled ones. i really love them. n i ate w mommie in nanbantei n we paid like $44 for really tiny portions of food which came super slow! ='( i was hungry after that so we had cheese sausage from level 1. even the cheese sausage filled me up more than the lil bit of jap food!! sobs. mommy wasted money!
oooh. friday the 13th is coming! im working. hope nothing bad happens!!! *touch wood*
*[a lil princess thought at]*|00:09|
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
got a thrashing from dad a few days back. now i gotta leave work at 11pm SHARP n get home by 12 or i'd get more shit from him. hahaha. i thot i'd be angry n all but all those kinda dissipated in less than an hr. john's call, roy n ah boy's smses all helped to ease my anger lah. n i could also understand how my dad felt. having his daughter coming home at 2 or 3am everyday isnt exactly safe. daddy mommie will always treat me as a kid no matter how old i am. it gets stifling at times, but i guess that's what i gotta face as an only child. im their precious daughter, n its good n bad at the same time. =) anw roy was really sweet to agree to let me off by 11pm every nite. i was really thankful manx. if not i'd have to quit n leave. which i really really dun want to. the ppl there are nice, the managers are good, what more do i want? though john's gone, n im seldom working in al dente, the company there is really great. i miss the time when roll calls caused traffic jams in the storeroom. when the night was so busy 2 or 3 runners were needed. the time where a huge group of us just packed food from makansutra to share in al dente vip table. it felt so much like a family of its own. n i just loved that feeling. i miss all the darlings.
went surf n turf suntec to work afternoon shift ydae. they were slammed at arnd 1. but funan S&T was slammed big time since 12. hahaha. there's 50% off surf n turfs, which is really worth it!! the food they serve is pretty good k!!! pls go try! =D who wanna go eat w me again? im always game for it. just call n jio me out. the ppl working at S&T suntec were really nice to me lah. cos i think i screwed up a lil since i wasnt clear of table numbering. also had to keep asking the ppl there for the location of things n all that. it isnt good working first day on a day that's so busy! at least it wasnt THAT BAD. i count myself lucky!
i've officially started salsa classes on saturday! its fun n all, but im kinda lazy to elaborate bout the ppl in the class. i shall do that together w next week's lesson yarh? anw meeting ying after so long was super exhilarating. cos she knows me like nobody does. i cant believe she could easily tell that i was still super stuck in my previous r/s. my good frens really read me damn easily. they just see thru what im thinking n all. amazing!
just chatted w brianna on msn. im so surprised we actually click! as in, i din expect to talk to her bout those issues. n we share the same feelings n same views. hahah. i've found someone to talk to at work. she says she sees the old her in me. for me, i just hope i find him back. i realised nobody can take that seat but he himself. i need more chats n longer chats w brianna. haha. =) i'll upload 1st Jan pics soon~!! stay tuned!
*[a lil princess thought at]*|03:17|
Saturday, January 07, 2006
we got slammed at arnd 8pm todae!! omg. din really expect that many customers cos it was a rainy nite. anw lynn lau dined at al dente ydae w a guy!! hahaha. too bad i was working at aria. or else i might have served her! n todae peng fei dined there w cheryl. for hwachongnians reading my blog, cheryl is the one from hc OAC!! what a combination huh? peng fei n cheryl manx.. heheh. i sound like a bitch now. blahhhs. back to today, nothing much happened i guess. but there was a nice romantic bdae surprise for this lady. her bf had 2 of his frens to help him, one blowing the trumpet to the tune of 'happy bdae' n one holding a bouquet of roses. while he went up w de cake. how schweeeeet. i bet vdae's gonna be 100 times sweeter. brianna said there might be guys proposing n all. omg omg omg. cant believe i'd be witnessing the proposals of ppl i dunno! =D but its damn cool. i like romantic settings. even if im not the girl sitting there receiving the bouquet i'd be so touched. =) im looking forward to see how my vdae 06 is spent....
*[a lil princess thought at]*|02:31|
Thursday, January 05, 2006
nothing much happened at work ydae except for the big quarrel between gen n leonard. i was freaked. literally. cos i din know what to do! but i kinda talked to leonard.. telling him she needs some time to get used to him being supervisor n all. n it really isnt v smart having a couple working tgt. need tonnes of communication to make that work. i was just being the lil girl listening to both of them n occasionally patting gen on the back to cool her down. whatever the problem, it will be settled after operation hrs. =) but things were fine afterwards! yayys!!
today's my LONG AWAITED OFF DAY. but i went back to aria in the afternoon to meet ah boy for lunch. n i bought cd case for leonard. had lunch at nooch, went to pack food for chef chris, den headed to town to meet mommy. my flu was making me tired n all, so i wasnt exactly in the mood to shop or anything. in the end i only had my body shop rose body lotion in my bag. it was going at half price i wanted to buy 10!!!! but i bet it'd turn mouldy by the time i used the 4th bottle. so i just bought 1. =/ im gonna smell nice! (not that i usually dont) yippie!~
did i mention that all my smses from sy were deleted on 31st dec 2005? ah boy did me the favour. but i realised certain memories arent that easily erased. no matter how good an option stands right in front of me, i know i wont pursue another r/s. or at least, not yet. till when? i dunno. i think i've plunged into self pity n all that again. blahhhs. crap.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|22:31|
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
31st dec 2005
this yr's countdown was spent at WORK. that's a first. its the first time i spent it at esplanade watching fireworks as well. but work itself was helluva hectic. throngs of ppl came up n asked for tables, only to be rejected cos there was simply no seating space. blahhs. i had to put up that apologetic 'im so sorry' look so many times i think im a pro at it now. n i turned away a few groups of young ppl as well. so after an extremely busy nite it was COUNTDOWN!!!! i wanted so much to chiong all the way back to al dente n watch fireworks, but it wasnt allowed. so i caught fireworks w de aria gang n ah boy. =) still it was amazing. i bet the view from al dente was 100 times better, cos eric oh actually recorded it down into his fone! n it was SPLENDID i tell ya. n it was only recorded thru a camera phone!! can u imagine using a video cam or anything betta? awwww...
okay anw after the fireworks everybody just hugged n wished each other happie new yr n what's not. the crowd slowly cleared out, most of the family family ppl went home. leaving youngsters n all to loiter in the late night esplanade. lemme see, 3 guys n 4 girls told me i look like carrie chong *i suspect john sent them*, 7 guys i dunno came back to aria after countdown to say hi n wished me happie new yr *they were ppl i turned down earlier cos i couldnt get them tables.. they went to other pubs n came back just to say hi*, only one guy made a big hoohah that nite over the small table he had, lots of good looking ppl in esplanade. =) wellwell that shd be all? but we worked till freakin 4am cos we had to do setting for event the next day. i went back to al dente n realised that john, roy, fabien, ashik were all there!! =D at least i had yishun ppl to go back w me!! heheh. my p/t bf din disappoint me! i sat there in al dente watching roy n fabien flaunt their bar stunts. u know those bartenders that throw their bottles all over the place n somehow manage to catch 'em back? yea that sorta stunts. i was shocked when i realised both roy n fabien could do it so well. (their standards dropped once they got a lil tipsy) hahaha. in the end we went home at like... 6 am? i reached home at 6.30 n slept at 7.30am.
1st Jan 2006
worked in al dente that night. nothing much. din really get slammed or anything. comfortable pace w comfortable ppl. yepps. but everyone was looking forward to john's ktv session! hahah. cos it was my p/t bf's last day in al dente. sobs. he's still ranked my fave manager. my first day was spent being his runner. n he slowly intro-ed the food to me. it helped so much! that day was the day i registered all the food n their appearance. making work in al dente so so so much easier. he's good lah. ohh n he doesnt smoke. HAHA. how many ppl in al dente dun smoke? u can easily count tt w ya fingers. okay anw we had a ktv session after work!! ashik, rudy, brianna, eric oh, roy, jason, jane, ah boy, chef kelvin, me.. i cant recall if there're any others. anw we met the holland v al dente ppl there. hahaha. there was this chef that knew me but i dunno him. his name shd be rex or smth. yupps. anw i realised john sings damn well. n i mean the WOAH sorta voice. no wonder ppl are asking when he's cutting his album. hahaha. loads of beer (for the guys), tonnes of songs n dance, crappy games to make ppl eat fruits n drink beer. from 1 to 6am, they actually downed 13 jugs or so. ah boy was K.O by 5am, john was a lil tipsy. i got double shocks in the ktv itself. but it shant be disclosed. took me a lil time to even react lah, but i guess everything's gonna stay the way it is.
we left party world at 6am n we started scouting for breakfast! went to swensons n realised they only served those american breakfast sorta thing, toast n waffles n all. but roy wanted smth more filling, so we decided to head to meritus mandarin chatterbox. chatterbox serves HORRIBLE food at incredulous prices. john n i shared omelette n waffle, roy had wanton mee, chef kelvin had chicken rice, ah boy had chicken rice, brianna n eric shared i-dunno-what. but in any case everything was cold n unappetizing man. the rosti was like stiff n all. i thot it'd be crunchy k! imagine my face when i bit into it n it got stuck in my retainers. hmph! n considering the fact that there were 2 chefs n 2 f&b outlet managers, obviously we couldnt take it. but the company was amusing lah. everyone was like tipsy n going nuts, so we made a fool of ourselves in chatterbox. i was laughing so hard i got stitches man!! horrid food aside, it was still a heck of a night to remember. =) who the hell eats chatterbox at 6.45am anw?
cabbed home n reached home at 8am. totally SHAGGED. slept till 12pm n headed out for lunch w parents. i realised its been so long since i ate with them. somehow a pang of guilt hit me cos i've been spending way too lil time w them. i only manage to talk to mommy b4 i sleep. n those are probably the only conversations we share now. sigh. gotta put in more effort n time on my darling parents.
2nd jan 2006
worked in aria. nothing much, just handling outside again. im always the pretty face standing outside aria's door. so pls smile to me when u walk pass k! i feel like an idiot when i smile n the person gives me the 'who the hell are u smiling to?' look. blahhhs! edeots man. obviously im smiling to you n not to the air arnd u!! hahaha. there was this caucasian guy that asked me for the time when he himself was wearing a watch. lousy pick up line huh? but after that leonard told me that guy sat down just cos he was interested in me. but i just laughed it off. who cares if it boosts aria sales rite? he spent $10 to sit there for 5 mins ogling at me. so be it! hahaha. i dun stand to lose anything.
3rd jan 2006
aria again. lester came! n he gave me a muffin! so sweeeeeet of him!! =D he went al dente only to realise im now working in aria. n tmr he's going to go bald. awww. ohh btw, Aria n Al Dente are under Creative Eateries. so i DID NOT QUIT. im still working at al dente sometimes. dun ask me why im working at both al dente n aria. cos i have no idea! its tough learning things from both sides, but as long as i get to learn, i get to serve n meet new ppl, i dun mind. =)
b4 i went to work i was at kbox w 04s6b ppl~ but not the whole class turned up. only about 10 of us? but still its been so long since i met up w them. i was having this terrible sore throat when i woke up, but amazingly it cleared up after singing. hahaha. n i met john for dinner at raffles city shopping centre b4 i headed to work. he sent me there n it was kinda weird seeing him in casual wear in al dente. cos my image of him in al dente is alwaes the 'long sleeved shirt n black pants' attire. wellwell, he's no longer my manager! but still we're a p/t couple!! hahaha. still can meet him for meals b4 work n all that. eric oh's been transferred to holland v together w jane n mervyn. so many ppl are leaving. even ah boy says he might leave. sigh. ydae nite had a long chat w ah boy in 925. an hour plus i guess? he's a really nice chatting partner manx. can totally be my jie mei. after last nite's chat w ah boy n mommie, i figured some ppl only have the mentality of 14 when they're already 20. all i can say's that age's just a number. ultimately the maturity n all depends on the individual. i dun think im matured, but sometimes i just think others are childish.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|15:11|
