Tuesday, February 28, 2006
john n i spent our off day shopping, eating n chilling out! met him at yck, had our nice nice grilled chicken from ps *its ultimate!!*, den we caught the movie Walk The Line! its good! holds lots of meaning, n it reminds me of a movie called Big Fish. smth i learnt from the show, was that comparison kills confidence more often than not. why do ppl always live for others, live to show others what they can do, to prove others wrong? i think everyone would be happier living for himself. everyone shd probably stop complaing bout himself n live up to his own expectations. that's really enough. okay! back to the happening day! we went to FOS (factory outlet store) at meridien to shop for abercrombie. hahahaha. as usual i bought TONNNNNES of stuffs. bought a white jacket, a stripey tank top, a stripey polo tee. den we headed to holland v for more abercrombie! he managed to get a grey polo tee n a denim blue top as well! =) i got black shorts, white tee, red PRINCESS top from holland v! n i also got this ultra ultra good looking pink top from export factory!!! i shall wear it n take a pic someday. ;) love love love love it!
to top it all off, we headed to queensway n walked arnd for sneakers. ending up eating herbal tea egg!! its SUPERB as usual! hahaha. john was going ga-ga over it as well. who wouldnt!? =p den we headed to chomp chomp for our sumptuous dinner! wanna check out what we had? look at the pics below! basically, 4 crayfish, 2 stingrays, 4 chwee kuays, fried hokkian mee, fried tofu n fishcakes, n that MEGA MEGA HUGE sugarcane right down there. =D *slurps*
TADAHHH! huge huh?
me slurping away at the mega sugarcane.
hahaha. first round of crayfish n stingray. looks great huh? damn cheap too!
ooooh the fishcakes are spectacular! super nice!!
yummilicious sugarcane! its mega! n its heavy! to me its like a huge pint of sugarcane.
we wiped it all clean! ;)
see our contented faces? i shall be a walking advert of chomp chomp now!!!
after chompchomp, we headed to ICE COOL for dessert n drinks. met chipmunk roger there too! he's john's pal. hahaha. the ice peach soda float was nice!! so was john's icecream. im definitely gonna go there n sink my teeth into their ice creams n MUDPIES. hahahaha. icecream w liquor sounds cool rite? =) esp peach liquor. interesting! kahlua, baileys, rum, even butterscotch! they have those! =D yayyys! new chillout place discovered! serangoon! i nv exactly knew it existed. hahaha. its just some ulu part of sg. but now i realised its a 2nd holland v!!! splendid.
ydae i headed to ying's place for baking! we baked a....
hehehe. nice huh? look at the pretty dough below. harry, hua, ying n i painstakingly did it k! =) its super yummy!! ohh im dying for a new oven at home so i can bake. haha. anw, it was nice meeting em! miss them so much. n their company nv fails to cheer me up. how we know each other inside out, how we suan at each other. i guess its smth i wont be able to share w other pals. this gang of 5 just went thru so much tgt.
for harry, sorry bout that night. i was really too tired n drained to talk about those issues. now im feeling much betta. n i really hope u're betta too. perhaps i really got so caught up working i seldom meet n chat w u. but i know u understand me well enough. u read my mind even if i dun speak. but dun push me to talk yet, cos im still not ready. when im ready to share my feelings w u guys, i will. yarh? sorry dear. i really love u loads. u're worried for me that's why u want me to speak up. but i'll let u know when its time k? =) dun fret dear. i'll be just fine.
check out the CAKE! its no longer a kuay this time round!!!
NEW ASIA BAR on 70th storey of swissotel the stamford. its spectacular up there. n i mean WOAH sorta spectacular. hahahaha. i was so so so overwhelmed i forgot the pain in me. went there on 24th w john just to chill out b4 heading to work. that's the nice drink i had. macadamia wheatgrass. sounds funnie rite? but its super nice. ;) its half price between 3-6pm. so do check it out!!!
that's the MUDPIE! sinful delight. its super nice as well!! cant believe i indulged in mudpie in sucha great environment. sheer blisssss. =)
just gotta drop a note for brianna darling. thanks girl. so so much. that hug of yours really really touched me. all the way deep down inside. i knew everyone in al dente would see me cry if i went there to look for ya. but i just had to. i simply felt a need to find u, cos i knew u'd understand how i feel. n true enough, that hug said it all. i suddenly thot we connected though we din say much. telepathy maybe? u're probably one of the rare few that'd cry along w me when im upset. sorry to have made u cry for me though. i appreciate your presence, your hug, your smses. =) thanks sweetheart. love u tonnes. im sure w de help of all my pals, i'll be able to stand strong again. someday. thanks a million. love ya.
results out in a day. i dun even know what to feel or what to think now. panic. den horror. den trauma. hahaha.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|00:40|
Friday, February 24, 2006
*[a lil princess thought at]*|00:49|
Thursday, February 23, 2006
hey darlings. thanks for all the smses, flowers, encouragements. i got my answer. smth i expected. i got rejected. could tell it from the way he wasnt exactly interested in meeting. the way he pushed back the timing n left after an hour. i dun matter to him at all. it hurts, of cos. to realise that someone u love so much, someone u have been missing since he left u, doesnt give a damn bout u. suddenly feel lost, bewildered, n then unwanted n cheapened. not that it matters. cos the pain inside basically engulfs me. i cant even be bothered to think straight.
my tear glands are at work again. i cried the moment i turned away from him. really din wanna let him see me in my pathetic state. ego? pride? i put all all that down when i asked him the qn. there was nothing of that sort to speak of anymore. i've lost the courage to love. cos i've loved n i've lost. i broke down the moment i saw brianna. n she cried as she hugged me. i dunno why but i needed to find her. couldnt find hui or ying or anyone cos i thot they were all at work. went to esplanade, sat there alone n cried for an hour plus. went aria after that. talked to chef chris. leonard bought me icecream to cheer me up. alex was cracking lame jokes. as usual, they make me laugh. i love this bunch of ppl. the al dente ppl, the aria ppl, my p/t bf, my frens, my kor, my darlings.
ouch. i nv knew hearing the truth could hurt so much.
met pj n ccc for dinner at AD. it was so filling we were bloated. but we still couldnt resist choco fondue. pj got me a sunflower cos she read my blog n she knew i was unhappy. thanks sweetheart! the 2 of em really brightened my day. if i hadnt made plans to meet them, i might just wallow in self pity the whole night. but they made me laugh, we talked bout old times, bitched bout ccc being the 'gu niang'. to them it was probably just another dinner session w frens. but for me, it meant a true lot. i needed the company so hell of alot. =) in any case, thanks my dearies.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:30|
today i received a sms in the afternoon. he said he might not be able to make it tmr cos he had lessons. everything just crashed down n i somehow started crying in aria. there were freaking chefs n some carlsberg ppl arnd but i din care. the tears just kept falling. drop by drop. i typed in an sms, saying how i felt n everything, n i realised i had nobody to send it to. that only caused my heart to sink deeper. all my frens were working, n i knew they had no time to hear this crap of mine. for a moment i felt so unwanted. i din matter to him. n i have no idea how much i matter to frens. i dunno who to turn to now.
ichiban boshi serves nice lunch for only $5. pls try it. 3-530pm. =) n i've got my new phone. a N70. it was 'born' on 19th feb. n its called fatty. cos its so fat compared to my old samsung E800c.
i cant think of anything to blog now. mind's in a blur. i just want an answer tmr. n i wanna meet pj n ccc for dinner.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|01:06|
Saturday, February 18, 2006
i din finish blogging. anw, today i did smth super brave. brianna was the first one i told. haha. that girl has lots of stories to tell too. so we were sharing as we folded napkins. its one of my most therapetic (i forgot how to spell it!) 'workouts'. i shant disclose brianna's stuffs here, but for me, i finally mustered the courage to ask him out. he agreed. but his replies were coming in half hourly it was such a torture waiting. cos i was so scared the next msg would say smth like 'ohh im sorry i forgot i had smth on...' on the bus to work i was just reading his smses n i teared. maybe its the work of the sappy love song on mini greenie as well. i guess i'll get all the answers i need next thurs. brianna was asking me why i wanted to ask him face to face. i told her its cos that would probably be my last chance seeing him. i really hope it wouldnt be so.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|01:30|
the last time i blogged was b4 vday! so lemme update bout my vday DATES. hahaha. basically i dated my colleagues lah. plus hejia n plus john. met john in de morning on my way to aria to help leonard. n he gave me a sunflower!!! *beams* my fave flower! =D n he also got me a Guess locket keychain n a cutie pig~ super super nice!! den i worked in aria from like, 12 to 3. met hejia at 3+ n he passed me smth he painstakingly MADE!!! he's amazing manx! always coming up w great ideas n putting in so much effort to make them! this time round, he's got me a keychain! its super super nice! n its SO TOUGH TO MAKE. omg. he spent so much time on it! he finished it only at 419am on vday!! =) thx so much my darlings! u guys rawk! past yrs i've been spending time on making pressies for frens, this yr im making stuffs for restaurant deco. i still carry the present he gave me last vday. it stays w me everywhere i go. yepps.
working on vday was quite hell-ish. it was so busy we made 17k that day. haha. but i hated the fact that thomas was the caller. roarhs! i still dun like working w him. ohh after vday nite, on the 15th we had a company dinner at this ulu place in tiong bahru. the food was good but i was too full from surf n turf w mommie! im growing oh-so-fat eating n eating n eating. the company dinner was nice, n it was the last time i saw herbert n johnnie cos they headed back to philippines at 6am the next morning. i miss them. miss johnnie calling me 'ai zai'. miss herbert's english cos nobody else can replace him. they provide so much laughter n joy.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|01:15|
Monday, February 13, 2006
tonight's fireworks were splendid. they were so WOW i cant describe it. there were even fireworks in de shape of hearts, stars n flowers. i was amazed n awestruck. haha. but there was a tinge of emptiness after all that splendour. cos the company wasnt there.
anw hui, i've alot to tell u. i've got tonnes to tell na as well. i'll check my schedule this wk n tell u which days we can meet k? i have a feeling both of us are stuck in a rut now. im glad u're feeling better alr. but im still at the same spot, yuan2 di4 ta4 bu4. its not abt what sy's doing to me. its more like im self torturing. oh wells. for vdae i'll make do w watching all the romantic things happening in front of me. hopefully i can share abit of that joy of my customers. hahaha.
today i got a personal tip from this table of 4 ladies. they were super super nice ppl. one was fabien's fren n one was roy's ex colleague. roy got praised by a customer of his that our service was as good as a 5 star hotel! hahaha. he was like sky high~ hahahah.
ydae hui came to aria w keat for drinks. n today i met her n daniel for early dinner. for frens reading this entry, pls come aria for drinks! come entertain me lah. sometimes i do get bored u know. ;) anw the drinks are so cheap.
its a sad n lonely vday. but i'll pull thru cos i'll be witnessing lots of 'romance' n lots of 'expressions of love' in al dente. =D
*[a lil princess thought at]*|01:05|
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
im watching fireworks everyday. =) they make me happy, but they also make me miss the company i had when i watched it last yr. but fireworks nv fail to make ppl smile. just as roy puts it. i was serving this table of 9 japanese n they were so excited to see the fireworks. hahaha. somehow everyone's inner child just appears when they see beautiful things like that.
i talked to siyuan the past two days. it felt nice talking to him again. i not only miss him. i still love him. but too bad, its a lil late to turn back the clock. dun think there's any hope or chance to talk about.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|01:11|
Monday, February 06, 2006
happie bdae chris dear!!!
=D
*huggggS*
i was reading thru my folder in hotmail, the emails i exchanged w him a long long time ago. n i bet all my pals know what i did. i cried yet again. hahaha. i can laugh at myself for being so retardedly stubborn. but i know this isnt good at all. im never gonna move if im gonna be stuck here forever. i just had a urge to go online, n i saw his nick right there. surprisingly he's online. n we're actually chatting. he's apologising bout missing my chalet n all, but he'll never know how i got so disappointed n cried. oh wells. as much as im dying to see him, i wont let him know anything. i dun think he needs to know all these details.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|02:39|
Sunday, February 05, 2006
worked in aria w smart alex, chio gen n ah beng afian today! okay i dunno if im spelling afian rite, but he's a fren of leonard's. =) helping out cos we're shorthanded. anw it was fun working today. business was pretty good n everything. n i really like the way we serve in aria. its just different from al dente. i cant believe i met GARY TANG outside aria todae. hahahah. i miss him like hell. i miss theatre like nuts. i miss those shitty days we only ate bananas n granola bars for dinner. i miss those days of training like mad kids. yoga n all that shiat. all the bitchings we shared over meals n at training. our brainstorming for every single thing from the set to the costumes to the lights. omg i miss theatre. I LOVE THEATRE MORE THAN ANYTHING ELSE.
tmr im gonna be cashier trainee in al dente. im surprised cos i've only been working for a mth plus. maybe its cos brianna's supposedly leaving soon. i havent got a chance to ask her if its true. but i really have to find an answer for my parents for my low pay. rahhhhs.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|01:26|
Saturday, February 04, 2006
HAPPIE CNY DARLINGS!!! =D
chu xi was mommie's bdae! she got SKII eye mask from me n the pretty bracelet from daddy. oooooh i got my GUESS FRAGRANCE that day too! n john got his Hugo Boss. =) super fruitful day considering the fact that we were in sucha rush! anw, im not gonna rmr the details of the whole of cny, so im gonna brief thru. basically its mahjong mahjong n more mahjong. hahaha. i din sleep for so many nights! now my dark eyerings are like EEEEEEW. i had my first bibimbab *some korean rice* on chu er~ okay.. chu san we went to ms ng's place. had a nice time chatting w classmates n catching up. now almost everyone's working, some at weird places. hahaha. i cant believe na's working for a pork supplier. n i cant believe zhiyin threw in $3000 bucks into NTI. omg. its sucha scam. santi n weeming are in it too. somehow my views on NTI is still pretty negative. i rmr how much i used to quarrel w sy over it. oh yes. shockingly/amazingly, ms ng's lil baby girl will be named Paige Yap Si Yuan. the exact siyuan as him. even the chinese characters are the same. haha.
sy actually told me he was gonna come visit me in the chalet. but he did not turn up. neither did he msg to tell me he wont be coming. i guess it all doesnt matter to him, that's why. i still rmr his sms. he said "i would make the effort to come". now i feel cheated. sigh. i always place high hopes n get disappointed. yday i just dreamt of him. i dreamt of him telling me how much he loved another girl. i acted as though i was happy for him, but when i woke up i was crying like a baby. pathetic me once again.
i love love love my GUESS fragrance, i love love love my polo ralph lauren jacket, i love love love love love nokia 7370. but its freaking expensive. yikes. unless i beg for dad to pay half of it. nahhh i dun wanna waste money. but lemme share a secret! i got more than $600 in angbao!! hahahaha. ;)
*[a lil princess thought at]*|01:26|
me slurping away at the mega sugarcane.
hahaha. first round of crayfish n stingray. looks great huh? damn cheap too!
ooooh the fishcakes are spectacular! super nice!!
yummilicious sugarcane! its mega! n its heavy! to me its like a huge pint of sugarcane.
we wiped it all clean! ;)
see our contented faces? i shall be a walking advert of chomp chomp now!!!
after chompchomp, we headed to ICE COOL for dessert n drinks. met chipmunk roger there too! he's john's pal. hahaha. the ice peach soda float was nice!! so was john's icecream. im definitely gonna go there n sink my teeth into their ice creams n MUDPIES. hahahaha. icecream w liquor sounds cool rite? =) esp peach liquor. interesting! kahlua, baileys, rum, even butterscotch! they have those! =D yayyys! new chillout place discovered! serangoon! i nv exactly knew it existed. hahaha. its just some ulu part of sg. but now i realised its a 2nd holland v!!! splendid.
hehehe. nice huh? look at the pretty dough below. harry, hua, ying n i painstakingly did it k! =) its super yummy!! ohh im dying for a new oven at home so i can bake. haha. anw, it was nice meeting em! miss them so much. n their company nv fails to cheer me up. how we know each other inside out, how we suan at each other. i guess its smth i wont be able to share w other pals. this gang of 5 just went thru so much tgt.
that's the MUDPIE! sinful delight. its super nice as well!! cant believe i indulged in mudpie in sucha great environment. sheer blisssss. =)
