Thursday, June 29, 2006
everyone's grieving for spain's loss yday. sobsob. my cuteboy will no longer be on the big screens all over singapore. torres! sidetrack, dinner w kaiqi was damn good today. he knows where to get good food. ghim moh, seafood at some ulu place, then some roadside tau huay. he sure knows how to make me eat w/o making me feel sinful! cos u take a lil at each place, n the food's so good u cant give it a miss. i wanna drive. so i can go anywhere in the wee hours of the night without feeling the pinch of spending on cabs. feel super suaku today. new places new food. n kaiqi keeps acting like he's damn smart to know of all these places, n the dumb me in wide eyed amazement when i try the galore of great spread staring at me. that irritating smirk when i keep going wow. edeot. but i owe all the recommendations tonight to him! =)
lovelovelove the night spent out. its weird without worldcup cos i dun have to rush somewhere to catch the match. but still the company tonight was fab. just one fella. haa. long time since i had so much fun with just ONE person. amazed.
anticipation's coupled with disappointment. when it all ends, u just wish to go back in time n experience it all over again. but then again, that'd defeat the purpose. its cos it happens just once, that u cherish it. im glad for the numerous angels in my life that weave the most beautiful memories. thanks darling. u know who u are. love ya.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|00:47|
Monday, June 26, 2006
the 10 remedies to a depressed/vexed/stressed/angry me:
1) pass me a nail filer. i'll take an hour n after that u'll see me happy w prettier nails. or i'd be cutting n filing nails for my baby. noone else gets the priviledge, mind you. heh.
2) cook. pastas, salads, sandwiches n lamb chops are my forte. if im angry w myself i'd cook for everyone, but if im angry w others i'd be selfish n only cook for myself.
3) play the saddest n most meaningful songs in my short lovelife history. super fan4 jian4. just anything to make myself cry like crap for an hour or two.
4) company of friends/bf. this works as long as im still consolable. having ppl arnd u just puts ur mind off unhappiness momentarily.
5) run. n run n run. wherever my heart takes me.
6) sit on a swing in a playground i dont even know where. the more unfamiliar of the surroundings the better.
7) hugs. by anyone everyone. this one works WONDERS.
8) swim n bathe. spend the longest time ever in the shower. perhaps praying that the worries would be washed off w the water? its just shiok. tranquility in water beats anything.
9) haircut/manicure/spa. just a change im looking for. sit there n be serviced.
10) good food. not the expensive n high class sort. i mean the nice hawker centre sort. it'd be even better if im new to the stall/dish. just smth new, smth nice, somewhere i can let my hair down n enjoy simple good food.
i think most are pretty logical therapies. except that i dun succumb to retail therapy no more. how many do u have in common with me?
*[a lil princess thought at]*|22:00|
consistently sleeping abt 4 to 5 hrs a day, n its slowly but surely taking a toll on my body. nights spent out, at frens' places, at my own place, whatever it is. ying's bdae just passed n it was a heck of a day! =) happy 19th bday my darling dearest! our friendship is like... 7yrs++ n counting. hope that One would be a bash (of 5 mins) n i really look forward to bangkok trip. *huggs* be it salsa or theatre, my life wouldnt be de same w/o ur small stature but huge presence. good things come in small packages! ;) love ya sweetheart.
MAJOR upheavals at home. cos of yours truly. okay i got myself into deep shit n broke that little communication bridge i had w my parents. now its "under construction" n it'll be up in no time. all he wants is for me to be independant n to handle my studies. i understand. parents are parents nonetheless. they have their concerns, no matter how unreasonable they may seem at times, they just love us too much to let go n give that 1% chance for any marginal error. if there are f-ed up parents, there are f-ed up kids too. im sure i've given them more than the fair share of trouble a lil girl should cause.
everlasting love... jamie cullum songs just sound pleasing to the ears. if everlasting love does exist (which i really doubt so), i know who i'd give it to.
i just wish they'd stop treating me so well to ease that tinge of guilt in me. better luck next time. if u're really that good u dont need to do all this shite. u get my pt.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|16:42|
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
so much has happened i dunno where to start. somehow u just wish its all a dream n it'd pass.
i've never felt so strong bout my gut feelings for someone before, but i really wish i wouldnt be proven wrong. i may be stubborn, perhaps too stubborn for anybody's liking. no point arguing with me cos i just wouldnt concede defeat. after all his strong accusations n my furious rebuttals, i only end up thinking if im being overconfident bout myself n my life. after insisting all night that im sure of what im doing n who im dealing with, i end up so unsure n so insecure. yes its dumb. this time round it may seem like a fling-turned-r/s. esp to the guys, to kor. let time tell the truth. whether we stay tgt, whether im being cheated, whether im just one of the many many many girls ever to drop by in his life, it doesnt matter. im serious about it so malicious comments dun work. if things between us are ever gonna take a turn, he'd also just be one of the many in my life isnt it? i'd miss the days of partying till dawn, ktv all night, stayovers n hangovers. not exactly the healthy lifestyle, but its definitely tonnes of fun. i miss staying single n just going out w any tomdick&harries without any concerns. i miss fooling arnd w frens, knowing they wouldnt get the wrong ideas. i just wanna be myself n have fun, with guys n girls alike. but it takes a lil compromise on my part just so he wouldnt worry for me, n it isnt that tough. similarly, wei wouldnt want his gf partying out there w other guys till dawn. n if zk's not good influence, i'd be way more uncontrollable now. same thing, wei isnt any 'better influence'. haha. its a childish fight. just like kids squabbling. but he matters to me n i dun want any strain on our friendship.
han's bro's wedding dinner at hyatt was fab. the company, the new ppl i met, the old pri sch ppl that i've lost contact w over the years, the hwachong econs dept lecturers.. everybody was present. =) let the pictures do the talking when i upload them. omg han's da sao is GORGEOUS.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:26|
Sunday, June 18, 2006
portugal was so lucky ydae. they played like shit. n by a stroke of luck they managed 2-0 against iran. my gawd. IRAN u know. n they struggled for a 2-0. czech was like shit too! if not for peter cech i think the czech-ghana would have been 0-8 or smth. crap. for many days its been ppl staying over at my place. n its been a long while since i stayed over at someone else's. ydae after salsa, dinner w chris n ying, union, watching match at chijmes, stayed over at zk's place. supposed to meet up w the guys at kaiqi's place, but sorry! if they didnt mention, i wouldnt have realised that i've been spending 6 days this week w my frens. yesyes. cos of worldcup i've neglected a whole bunch of ppl. but its worldcup. once in 4 years! forgive me my darlings.
japan n south korea. two asian teams playing tonight. jiayou! =)
theatre's starting to become more n more mentally demanding. process of thought, execution, deliberate in articulation. there're so many things to mind. theatre junkies as i call us, we go thru all this just for 4 mins 36 secs. as much as we slack n bitch n play a fool, we put in a hell lot of effort for the piece. i admire the jnrs. they're handling this show n studies. esp jan who's in J2. spending lunch breaks mugging n all. kudos to her.
listening to stories from wei. hahaha. i miss them!
*[a lil princess thought at]*|16:33|
Friday, June 16, 2006
that bloody post was by zk. DUHHH. anw england match kinda stopped my heart from beating alr. wtf. last 10 mins n the scoreline went to 2-0. seriously fucked up rite? kao. n it wasnt by the "legend" rooney. by bloody crouch. freakin CROUCH leh. walao. sian lah. gerrard's goal was nice though. nth to say. erm, yes i do have smth to say. FUCK.
shocking play. ohwell. we're not meant to bet lah. even kor is winning money. n freakin wei is winning too. kaiqi broke even. hahaha. sian. when is our turn to break even sia?
omg met up w xuanrui today n slacked arnd w him all day. besides losing his hair, he isnt any different. cant believe he was earning $1000 in 2 weeks, just thru telemarketing. he dotes on his gf lah! went zara n he got a super nice tee for his gf. *i chose it!!* damn chio. zara kids rawk.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|02:00|
Fuck la... My boyfriend is jinx la. He bet what lose what. @#$@%#%@#%$##$%$^#$%^#
*[a lil princess thought at]*|01:57|
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
im afraid of the dark. n i dont dare to go to bed in total darkness unless there's someone right next to me i can snuggle up to. ever felt that u were hugging someone n thinking of someone else? that feeling of your mind being detached from your physical self. sometimes to the extent tt u dunno what u're doing, n it isnt coherent to what your mind is telling u to do.
theatre today was crazy. we decided to be film makers n shoot stupid videos, take stupid pictures. my gosh im amazed by our creativity. n to think that we bothered to act it n shoot it. cool shit. we're getting closer by the day cos of all the dumb stuffs we do tgt. training, sleeping, eating, n all the stupid stuffs. gungho theatre junkies. love them.
i miss sitting arnd w the guys n chatting abt anything under the stars. that relaxing n shiok feeling. but all the more i love mahjong-ing n watching world cup. i'd v much love to watch w the guys, but im lazy to get out of my home lah. n dear can come up n watch w me. he's even better company.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|19:48|
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
BRAZIL match tonight. =) im gonna watch the first match, sleeeeeeeep, den watch the third. my body doesnt even wanna step out of the hse. met kaiqi in the afternoon n we were both like walking zombies man! even our fave mocha frap din help! he even had difficulty walking over from wei's place lah. edeot. havent met them for quite some time. but still hear from the same old ppl, n yupps i do miss them. probably sat clubbing. cant believe i gave up last sat's for england match. blahhhs.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|18:26|
a whole day of dancing ydae has left my body aching. hiphop, jazz, bellydance, dance hall n lap dance. loved all of em, but more interested in hiphop n lap dance. contemplating to join exotic w ying or smth. anw thanks hui! for the whole day of dance n the horrible night of irritating calls by that someone. sorry!!
theatre. i think my performance today was so not up to std. tired body? but still i dun think its a valid excuse. argh. its months of practice for that 5 mins on stage. no room for any mistakes.
headed to punggol clinic after tt. hoping complexion will show signs of improvement. n den its worldcup at my place. dan, cindy, han, zk n chris are here. japan lost!!! =( czech match was nice. 3-0. n italy-ghana just ended 2-0 not too long ago. mahjong n worldcup just go hand in hand. hahaha.
tmr its a day of SIM, perhaps afternoon movie, salsa party, n den kbox. n im going without rest tonight. how to survive!?
kinda realised tt its nice to spend time w zk. whatever it is that we end up doing. maybe i've really been spending too much time w the guys n my frens n whoever, so much so tt i forgot the comfy feeling i have when im w him. its funny how han didnt realise zk n me were a couple till like.. so much later. its either she's blur or we really act v well (in front of my parents). daddy knows it n i can tell.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|05:04|
Saturday, June 10, 2006
4-2 for germany costa rica. 2-0 for equador poland. dad's crazy. lost $500 on costa rica.
everything's abt world cup now. go shopping n u see jerseys everywhere. yellow n green of brazil i simply love. the world cup fever's hit ME. n im so gonna turn into a panda if i watch soccer everynight. n theatre's draining all that energy from me. no doubt it nourishes me in another way! supplements mind, body n soul.
who hasnt watched over the hedge? i wanna catch it!!
*[a lil princess thought at]*|14:28|
2-1. hahaha. what a opening match. banking on germany. its half time n i've got 2 crazy girls in my room. 3 girls like us make helluva noise. erm... sorry neighbours!
*[a lil princess thought at]*|00:55|
Friday, June 09, 2006
my thighs are dying from theatre. climbing the stairs is sucha chore now. daddy pissed me off so badly last night, but lets not talk abt it. cos its WORLD CUP!!! germany vs costa rica. i suspect it'd be a draw. anw my house is open to all for world cup season! as usual, just tell me n pop by. bring ur frens along or anything. =) (erm.. food n beverages provided. haha.)
watched the omen w chris n dan ydae. omg its freakin scary. really scared the hell out of me. its not the gory sort. i hate those w blood spewing everywhere. dan was damn funny. halfway thru the movie, he took out his mp3 player n plugged it into his ears. hahaha! he was freaked out lah! n den he covered the screen w his bag *i had to use the stupid popcorn to take cover*. ying watched it n got freaked too. but i'd say tt it was a not bad movie.
cant wait for opening match!!
*[a lil princess thought at]*|19:10|
Thursday, June 08, 2006
i've got to blog bout union last night. there was red bull uncle, huge chikopek angmoh, black shirt brazilian, sweaty tallie, cute ah beng! at least ah beng's cute to me, totally my style of 'eye-catching-material'. hahaha. more interesting ppl popping up at union on tues. love salsa nights. just cant bear to leave. oh i gotta scream bout merengue too! its sucha cute dance. =)
its painstaking to do the movements s-l-o-w-l-y. all 7 of us happily slothed arnd n dozed off after lunch. meaning. details. breathing. alot to fine tune though we've got the movements.
shanghai beauty was pretty disappointing. there wasnt much to wow abt. n it was funny how so many of their moves were exactly like the ones we have in our piece. all of us were like "eh? that's so familiar!!" yea tt was why the movements held no surprise. n the east vs west concept was put so straight-in-your-face that i din enjoy it at all. its like, there's nothing in the piece to internalise. always sift out the good n try to incorporate it in future pieces.
finally, someone besides myself managed to talk some sense into daddy. u cant imagine how i was smiling gleefully all night. perhaps dad's just biased. he thinks im a childish lil freak who's stubborn n all, so he refuses to listen to what i have to say. at least he listens to others. at least he still LISTENS. "i was surprised u didnt say u wanted to stay for him. i would have given in if u were so sure of someone, if i saw your confidence n conviction." wth. that came from pap. why the hell would he say smth like that? but he's right, i dun have that strong confidence to say that i wanna stay cos of zk.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|00:59|
Monday, June 05, 2006
met up w stephie at 925 for drinks. my throat was pretty gone case by then, so she did most of the talking. im smart. brought notebk n pen along! hahaha. saved me all that trouble of playing 'charade'. came back home to watch So You Think You Can Dance. that disco routine by melody n nick was WOAH. anw darling stephie, nv knew u read my blog n all. our convo tonight will be between us, n yupps i'll keep what u said in mind. guys can be nice, please u with all his surprises n presents, but girl, what lasts is the feeling for each other. perhaps im not a romantic person to start with, so those superficial moves fail to touch me. but i've made it clear to them way way way b4hand, they know where they stand. tell dexter not to worry! n u too sweetie! im alright!!
indiv, indiv, n more indiv movements. at 4pm u see 7 lifeless girls sprawled all over the gym. hahaha. n i love this bunch of theatre junkies. we're literally junkies. poor artistes who suffer for our art. =) we'll taste success only when we hit the stage, n perform to that 1477 ppl in esplanade concert hall. gambatte!
sitting at home bores me out. heading out for a cuppa. wash away my monday blues.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|22:39|
allergic to all n addicted to one
isnt tt feeling so wonderful?
im tired of bickering. tiffs dun spice up my life, they just wear me down. keeping my cool has nv been this tough. im a chip off the old block. yes im as stubborn as him. 2 taureans in conflict is one of the most hurting. emotionally.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|02:35|
Sunday, June 04, 2006
i love kor. i've ever mentioned that he's the best kor arnd, n im not about to take my words back. years pass, n we've lost n made contact again, but still i like the feeling of being arnd him. sharing random things bout our lives n all. went jalan besar for nice supper, sat by the roadside n just chatted. its a sat night. a place like a roadside stall was the best. no crowd, no need for liquor or coffee joints. just a nice cosy corner n a nice companion. (having a car really makes things so much easier)
salsa was fun w much more bitching. students n instructor alike. hahaha. there's this cherating trip in august that looks way fun! anw ying n i were supposed to be at union tonight, but aloyshire cancelled out cos of work, so our plans got screwed. n we were dying to dance so we decided to go clubbing. in the end our feet couldnt take the long hours on heels, n we couldnt exactly find a nice group to go with, so no clubbing. murphy's law. we kept hearing r&b playing EVERYWHERE. we were really really keen to club. dammit.
okay. i left jalan besar when my throat couldnt last me any longer. now i sound super sexay. sound like a croaking frog. urgh.
ppl change. ren xin nan ce. dun try too hard to decipher what someone is doing or why he/she's doing it that way.
i've decided. i want freedom. i dun want accountability. whatever i do, i will have my loved one in mind.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|02:24|
Saturday, June 03, 2006
blogging from kor's place n eating the nicest bah zhang made by his mommy! home made ones are the best man. i still rmr going to hui's place last yr arnd this time. her house was filled w all sorts of dumplings.
i've gotta whine bout coffeeclub cos they made me wait for my food for half an hr, then tell me "its not good enough to be served." i was starving btw. n it doesnt even sound like a good reason/excuse/explanation to me. its okay, i settled for a sandwich which turned out pretty nice. perhaps i was just too hungry.
theatre. sore foot from scorching tiles of the quad. sizzling bbq-ed feet. but im glad that everything's piecing tgt. =)
shopping at raffles city sc was so unfruitful. bagged home chocs for others. twinnie n i were enjoying the live band perf by Enigma. they're GOOD. enough said.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|01:05|
Friday, June 02, 2006
there's smth unpleasant gg on between dad n mom. internal strife. twinnie asks me to use her bday as a reason not to leave, girl, den i might as well say i wanna spend my 21st bday in sg. keep me here till then at least. hahaha.
mom says tt every single night i run a high fever. ever since my fever the other time i went to get jab. *i vaugely rmr that being abt 2 weeks ago?* i only know i have a persistent cough right now, and my temp creeps higher after 10pm. wth man. fever EVERY night. i couldnt answer mommy cos i simply coughed w every other breath i took.
i miss daniel soo. he nv fails to make me laugh w his weird antics. weird stuffs like, "if cigarettes are called fags, smokers shd be faggots." ........ i shall rmr the fact that only smart ppl can get his jokes. (or so its claimed)
*[a lil princess thought at]*|08:23|
Thursday, June 01, 2006
i like nights like that. sitting arnd n chilling w de good ol' ppl, not the omg-i-am-gonna-drop-dead-and-die-laughing sorta nights, but the smile-from-the-heart sorta conversations, as we reminisce the short but lovely times we spent tgt. miki (wei's pal), yennie/yen ni (mark's pal) n belle (martin's pal) joined us for the night. it was like influx of girls. since its always me, me n me being the only girl arnd. nv found it a prob to warm up to new ppl, n it helps that they're arnd my age! anw balcony's lychee martini is pretty good. too bad i wasnt allowed to drink too much, my throat's dying.
losing my voice at this pt in time might just be a good thing. cos that'd leave me w no voice to quarrel. stuck to my comp, tv n phone all day. chatted w ppl i havent chatted w in a long while. (didnt i just say i lost my voice?)
kaiqi said smth funny to me today. it was so... out of the blue.
kq: ni zhen de bu hao pian. yao gen ni zai yi qi zhen de na me nan ma?
me: wo hen hao pian de. havent i alr been cheated by some guy alr?
kq: ni yan guang hen gao ma? flattery, presents, concern all dont seem to work. dui ni tai hao ni ye bu gao xing.
me: do guys only know how to make a girl happy? sweet 'somethings' always end up as sweet 'nothings'. dui wo yue hao, wo yue jue de ni hen jia.
kq: den honestly, have u been touched by anything i did? or even wei?
me: i feel the sincerity. =) tt's all.
kq: you mei you yi dian xi huan de gan jue?
me: mei you. ying wei wo yi jing zhao dao yi ge wo hen xi huan de ren. yi ge rang wo xiang yao gen ta zai yi qi de ren.
im surprised i said those words. meetups w kor, chris, siyuan, jake, fred. n i've got theatre on mon wed n fri. daddy's set the date. 10th aug. i've got to DO SOMETHING b4 that date. say smth, do smth, plan smth so i can stay. n be so damn sure i can stay.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:46|
seafood in malaysia is just cheap n good. =) its been a long time since i had a hearty meal there. just travelling in w frens to makan, slack, chat n den driving back. all of us had a lil to drink except for the drivers. hahaha. they 'work' the most n yet get ostracized. we had all sorts of crabs, shellfishes, prawns, fried tofu (!!!) n all that, n there were so many of us we sat arnd this mega huge round table. really looked like family dinner. n those malaysians were v nice to us as well! super fun night spent w the guys!!
now i've got no voice, a flu, thank god fever's subsided. kor bought the icekool thing for me last night. im so gonna miss them.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|14:29|
