Tuesday, January 30, 2007
anyone passionate bout animals and spca n all that? contact me. =)
the weekend was good, hiccups w zk, but all's well now. im glad things are fine for some other couples too. i love communication lectures for they're so relevant. take for example what i heard today, about the issue on 'compromise'.
In every relationship, people seek some form of compromise. When I say "compromise", I mean that I give something up, and I expect you to give something up too. In the long run, both might end up feeling like losers.
that set me thinking.. cos i think that was exactly why i gave up in the past. i probably didnt find the words to express my thoughts, that's all.
before i forget what spins i've learnt for pole, lemme just do a list:
1) fireman
2) geisha
3) spinner
4) butterfly (2 variations)
5) shogal
6) black widow
lovelovelovelovelove grey's anatomy. love meredith. "Boundaries don't keep people out. It keeps you in."
*[a lil princess thought at]*|01:14|
Saturday, January 27, 2007
its han's bday, n we're all playing mj. haha. i shall save mushy words lest she pukes. a fab fren i'd want for life. serious. =) happy birthday girl. dai dee! its your big 2~~
havent got any ideas for mommy's bday pressie. sulks. pretty much bought everything for her alr? over the years n all.. jewellery, cosmetics, wallets & bags, watch... she's got everything!! gosh.. wanted to treat them to somewhere for dinner, but i cant think of a proper place she'd love too.
as brianna mentioned in her blog, its the breakup season. im hearing more and more of it. its always prior to vday that such things happen in abundance, and i really wonder why! dats y on vdays, i splurge on frens more than bf. cos frens stay, boyfriends rarely hang arnd for long. haa..
sch week has been spiced up by jostian recently. of cos my darling babes as usual! grabbed some coffee w jos n evy today n realised that taurus guy has pretty similar train of thoughts as this cranky girl here. hmmm.. nice fella w a big heart. my ah pek in sch. n im his... muddy, chipmunk and ah boy. nv expected him to be a guy so chatty n down to earth. pretty pleasantly surprised. hahaha. ah pek! hope his dress sense can improve by leaps n bounds. his taste in clothes is seriously... uncle~ =x
*[a lil princess thought at]*|03:19|
Monday, January 22, 2007
Look at this photograph
Every time I do it makes me laugh
How did our eyes get so red?
And what the hell is on Joey’s head?
And this is where I grew up
I think the present owner fixed it up
I never knew we ever went without
The second floor is hard for sneakin’ out
And this is where I went to school
Most of the time had better things to do
Criminal record says I broke in twice
I must’ve done it half a dozen times
I wonder if it’s too late
Should I go back and try to graduate?
Life’s better now than it was back then
If I was them, I wouldn’t let me in
Oh oh oh
Oh god I, I
Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It’s hard to say it
Time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it
Time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Goodbye
We used to listen to the radio
And sing along with every song we’d know
We said someday we’d find out how it feels
To sing to more than just the steering wheel
Kim's the first girl I kissed
I was so nervous that I nearly missed
She’s had a couple of kids since then
I haven’t seen her since God knows when
Oh oh oh
Oh god I, I
Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on the bedroom floor
It’s hard to say it
Time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it
Time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
I miss that town
I miss the faces
You can't erase
You can't replace it
If I could relive those days
I know the one thing that would never change
Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It’s hard to say it
Time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it
Time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Look at this photograph
Every time I do it makes me laugh
Every time I do it makes me...
i thought things used to bad. now i start wondering if things are worse now.
what does it take, when it takes more than faith to hang on?
*[a lil princess thought at]*|01:45|
Thursday, January 18, 2007
jos is being nicer to my babes this sem n i wonder why. anw his help is greatly appreciated. =) we've been given the offer to opt for double major instead of major in comm, minor in mkting. was tempted to make that cert look better by taking 'double major', but decided tt i prefer mkting to psychology.
found evy to divulge all that bottled feelings, and i feel so much better now. thanks darling. i know u're bothered by ur own probs.. n u still offered a listening ear. loves. i know im lousy handling r/s stuffs, and the word to describe me sometimes is really 'dumb', but i just pray that there wont be anymore heartwrenching, tear triggering events for both of us. we'll pull thru!! n we'll be able to change class!!! *fingers crossed*
read ah ma's blog, all about her n ah pa. i have the same sentiments, and i think its a matter of time till i reach a stage whereby i'll rant like her. relationships are never a bed of roses, but when it gets overbearing and it affects other aspects of your life, its time to consider giving it up. some things cant be changed, for example, a person's character. mommy says, a leopard nv changes its spots. im not being negative, but a liar is proned to continue lying, a two-timer is proned to stray, a player essentially has that player element in him, a spendthrift will eventually splurge and squander away his money. certain attributes cant be changed, so the question is, can you accept them? ah ma spoke of the diminishing future w him... and that image seems as vivid in my mind.
anyone wants to go bangkok from 6-9 May?? sms me asap!!!
thanks to all the darlings that made my day. a long day of lessons aint that long w smses from u guys! love the tau hway.. hee... so easy to satisfy me.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|22:55|
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
new sem, same darlings, new schedules, old faces. other than marketing, most of the faces i see are familiar faces of the ub fam. well, definitely missing the business ppl (probably the cuter guys more), but this sem's definitely gonna be packed w tonnes of tests n quizzes n exams. cant wait for cny now. i shall bear with the horrible cny songs and i just want cny break! doesnt really help tt i've got papers to submit after the break, as well as mid sem exams.. i just need smth to look forward to!
some ppl really bring joy to your life don't they? its a blessing i found so many frens i click well with. some new insight into some new characters have brightened up my mundane life.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NA!!!!!
all of us are hitting the big 2 this yr, and all the best for your year ahead! u know i love u loads n tons.. anytime u need me, im just a ring away! stay happy w lunzi n remain just as ben niao cos we love you the way u are. hee.. *hugggs* loves.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|01:41|
Sunday, January 14, 2007
the past few days have been fun and fulfilling. cos.... there was mj! n there was the removal of all furniture in my room other than my bed and cupboard! blading w zhizhong! n all my days spent w family (inclusive of Lex my baby)!!!
basically tore down all my comp stuffs, untangled the heaps of dusty wires, cleaned the whole house (damn. i dont like big houses.), packed my 19yrs worth of rubbish into ikea boxes. amongst my rubbish, i found long lost diaries, pri sch graduating books (those u pass round the class to write "friends forever" n wad's not), lots of lee kuan yew books (thanks ny, for all that NE), tonnes of useless redundant crap i wasted my moolahs on (i've 3 boxes worth of arts n craft products, eg. fabric paint, xstitch, acrylic paint, stickers etc.), and last but not least, PRESENTS. for 19 yrs i've been collecting presents for birthdays, new yrs, xmas-es, vdays, this that and the other festival. come on, i rmr a vesak day parcel. not that i dont appreciate pressies. but at times like this when i havta PACK, gawd, they're a horror! not only are they "un-throwable", they normally take up quite alotta space. im running out of display space, so they're going into boxes most prob. im sorry!
watched one last dance just a moment ago. for a local film, i applaud the cinematography and script. a new way of presenting events. to put it simply, a screwed up timeline? not bad. i love francis ng's acting. u just havta listen to his eyes speak. tt's what i call acting.
i wonder if its in girl's nature to be soft-hearted. God made us this way so we were different from guys? to be more emotional, more sensitive, more caring. how else can females take the role of mothers if they're not as described? is gullible one of the traits? or am i the only one??
my mind keeps spinning... taking me to places i've been to, things i've done, people i've been with. im clear who's nice and who's not. im sure of what's right and what's wrong. but one thing remains uncertain. what do i want? shd i just continue taking a step at a time, or shd i start deciding for myself?
*[a lil princess thought at]*|02:38|
Sunday, January 07, 2007
watched a crappy horror show called spirit of the victim or smth. n then mjed at chris' place last night. had high tea at ellenborough market place in celebration of harry's bday! haha. the first to turn 20. after knowing him for so many years, i think this is the only time we did not do a belated celebration thing for him. im sorry darling! =p hope u enjoyed the lunch n hope u'd like ur pressie! (im pretty sure u'd love it. haa..)
feeling homely nowadays. i hardly wanna step out of home if i can help it. losing interest in days jam packed w activities, nights filled w loud music n booze. missing the simple days i spent in sec sch n jc, just sch and frens and that one guy. i could live like i lacked nothing. i wanna feel that way again.
i lost track of time since the end of As. sometimes time seems to pass so fast i cant store the minute details of these fleeting moments, but sometimes time seems to creep so slowly its a torture. some pictures that seem like yesterday were actually taken in the start of '05, which is alr.. 2 yrs back. but honestly, it doesnt feel the least bit like it has been 2 yrs. i just realised that jake n ivy have parted ways, and ivy is w someone new alr. though they've had a zillion breaks n patches, it nv occurred to me that one day, it'd be a break for good. ivy once told me, "some wounds are irreparable, and they'll just accumulate... till the day u lose yourself and break down." i once thought that happened to me, but no longer. there's so much more to myself than that one guy. learnt to live for myself and no other, to love myself b4 i can love another. learnt that there's no such thing as "i cant do without you". im really glad to see ivy out of the arduous journey w jake, though it is indeed a pity. she's happy, that's what's important.
my screwy phone is alright now. and i received a ton of smses when it finally 'recovered'. i was probably waiting for some sms. got it. satisfied. =)
*[a lil princess thought at]*|19:59|
Thursday, January 04, 2007
dad forced me to go to the doc yday. he basically called me when he was sitting in the clinic, and he had alr taken a number card for me. but i unexpectedly lost more wt recently (scales in clinics don't lie, do they?), i think its the illnesses that have plagued me for half a mth. now im 40kg. still standing at 148cm. (who said girls dun reveal their stats?) yayy??
btw my fone's seriously screwwwwwed. so i might have an excuse to change a new set anw. motorola!! im just going for the looks of it. i still fail to receive a single sms. n all my frens do know how sms-crazy i am. ying once said dating me was like dating "me and my fone". now im kinda crippled without my daily dosage of smses. thank god there's still the internet, the blog and the puzzle.
the drowsy medicine is really... drowsy. i've been sleeping n waking, sleeping n waking since 11pm last night. hate it. cos i always wake up coughing so badly. green phlegm w blood stains. eew..
goodwood park hotel hi tea!!! my darlings im alr excited bout sunday!
*[a lil princess thought at]*|17:24|
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
auto cars are really like toy cars. accelerate. brake. everything's a breeze. n there's zilch chance of u stalling ur engine. (wth!!) anw i made my way down to pay fees, saw a doctor, spent a few hours on the puzzle, n now rotting in front of a comp screen chatting. the medicine's making me drowsy, so i guess it'll be an early night for me. i've got complimentary herbal tea (yucks) n lozenges from nic. they thot they called the wrong number when they heard my husky sexy voice. hahaha. thanks for the thought anw!
my phone couldnt receive any incoming smses today, so for those who tried to contact me thru sms, im sorry!
ohh yes, im not pissed anymore. haha. my anger doesnt really last. but still, thanks to those who asked. huggs. =)
*[a lil princess thought at]*|22:36|
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
im pissed n i need to rant. for those still in their 'happie new yr' mood pls refrain from reading.
dammit la i hate last min stuffs. i dun mind if zk has last min work, cos i just gotta suck thumb n tell myself its work. do i havta tolerate last min change of plans/pangseh-ing too? sorry but im not a big fan of 'last minute-ness'. if i knew this was his plans right from the start, or even in the afternoon, i could easily have gone out w daddy mommy to the airport, or even just to meet them for lunch. i wanted to walk arnd airport w them but i didnt go cos i thot they'd take the whole day. n then i cancelled out on kai wei n dexter, zhizhong n guys. zk called at 4 n said it'd take another 2 hrs, i said okay. n then at 6, he said he was gg town w his frens. n when i said i din wanna join cos it was troublesome to go all the way to town, he said i havent spent time w him for 2 days. hello~ like its my fault? the next qn, as usual, was my plans for the night. well, u cancelled out on me at 6, i think i jolly well have the freedom to go out w whoever for the night? wch is like the last few hours of my day? totally wasted my day away. i betta make use of the remaining hrs of this PUBLIC HOLIDAY. like it makes a difference.
i really wished i could have spent the day w daddy mommy at the airport, then bring lex out. i only cancelled everything for zk cos he rarely gets off. damn. didnt pay off did it?
pissed off.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|18:37|
Far Away - Nickelback
This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore
On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know
So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away(So far away)
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know
I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
----------------------------
i'm not leaving you anymore
hold on to me and never let me go
yesyes. insomnia's kicking in, fever's creeping back.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|04:11|
Monday, January 01, 2007
this entry will mark the first of '07.
starting w the eve of nye, i met ying, chris n gf (sher), han, harry and eugene for dinner n drinks. out of the pan was really good! sher's quite sweet n nice (no she isnt!). haha. bitchy~ totally fitting the bill as a great conversationalist w hua ying n me. i can imagine future gatherings alr. hee.. anw we wanted to chill at equinox but im sorry to say that our beloved guys were underaged. so we ended up at attica instead, afterwhich i met darius zk n cheemun n sneezed my way into nye.
it was a very very sick nye for me. i lost my voice, ran a fever, had a dripping nose, what more do i need to complete the package? but i managed to catch death note 2, had a nice meal at marina sq, completed the night w a splendid array of fireworks. this yr's fireworks tugged at my tear ducts as usual. i cant explain that feeling i got, but flashes from previous fireworks came back in mind, ppl i spent it with, my previous new yr eves. i miss the al dente ppl a hell lot. they seem to bring so much joy as compared to ex boyfriends or whatsoever. this yr's fireworks were as spectacular as ever. loved the finale. headed to chris place for mj, of which i fell sick half way thru. erm, may i add "VERY" sick. haha. i was hiding in chris' blankie n apparently i was flushed when i sat up. basically a very high fever. sorry to my darlings there that night, caused unnecessary worry.
came home in the late afternoon and daddy mommy were taking their naps. they had a great night counting down w daddy's frens too. stayed out till 3, even went out for brekkie this morn, no wonder they're tired out. oh yea, they're falling ill too. hope they'd recover soon!
turning 20 this yr, and like ying says, its taking the 'teen' word out of our age. like fif 'teen', nine 'teen'.. it just makes u sound younger. gives me ample excuse to act childish, to be a lil tyrant, to be rebellious and insensible. gone were the days i quarrelled w daddy mommy bout freedom, bout boyfriends. they've grown older, so have i. and every day we learn how to communicate better. its surprising i havent got any resolutions for '07. i cant come up with any. last year's resolutions werent fulfilled. at least the impt ones werent. i rmr how i laid in bed talking bout new yr resolutions till we digressed into smth else and fell asleep. i still find that sweet.
gonna relish new challenges this new year, may it be with ppl, in sch or work.
gonna learn to stand up for what i want, and give up what i don't.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|19:22|
