Sunday, May 25, 2008
RAWRS. why are some ppl just so fake? act close, act friendly. then they turn arnd to another person and roll their eyes, saying "its so hard to act". well, noone told u to act! so if u want to do so, live with it! what for tell me that? expecting me to say "yea boy, i so agree". huh huh HUH?? if u cant stand someone, nobody said u cant talk less to the person or simply shrug off whatever he or she says. u chose to act all nice and friendly, then u jolly well BE nice and friendly. i so wanna roll my eyes back at u and tell u that noone forced u to do that, so get a life!! plus, enough of ur big princess stubborn ways and learn that ppl dont always have to give in to u or please u. i dont understand why the guys gotta accommodate, entertain and do all things to make u happy when seriously, im starting to label B-I-T-C-H-Y letter by letter across ur forehead. the guys can go ahead and give u face, im pretty much done. seeing ur true colors, i can only wish u all the best for ur relationship. that's about it. ppl continue to give in to u not because u're a big shot, but because they are giving other ppl face, not just u. the world is not just about anyone, so spare a thought for others, dear bitch.
alright, someone irritated me BIG time yday, and lzk had to lose my pouch and he nearly lost his own wallet too. the wallet was bought by me, and there was a card i made for him just on his bday this yr. so, naturally, i was damn pissed when he lost it. plus all the things that lady abovementioned did, my sat night was really crappy. i swear i tolerated for a long long time before i spilled it to lzk when we went back. some girls might act nice to everyone, but that's just the way they are. that is fake niceties, but at least they dont bitch. some girls like the one above act nice, then turn arnd and bitch, hoping that others feel the same way about the 'bitched' party. haa. sorry, but i dont appreciate such characters ONE BIT. lzk didnt exactly cheer me up either. i was glad he found his wallet back at starbucks. but whenever he tried to defend the girl, i got irritated. i have no idea why he is so nice to her. and im not the only one who thinks so. oh well, that's why i say he can continue being nice to her, i'll know where to draw my line.
i finished diner dash on psp. who has no-brainer games like diner dash to entertain me somemore? the other games on my psp now require too much thinking. haa. and and and, thanks to all my jc classmates n pri sch classmates who got me that entertainment machine. it is an anti-social device (imagine lzk hooked onto his game and me stoning alone on the cab/train/bus), i agree, but it kills boredom when im at home alone. i promise i wont use it as an anti-social device! cos im a victim too!!
*[a lil princess thought at]*|23:01|
Thursday, May 22, 2008
its no longer surprising to find similarities between frens' relationships and my own. draw similarities, find differences. i guess that's what makes every individual and every relationship unique. it might come across as scary at first. and i wonder if every relationship has to go thru the same few stages before it matures. well, not just the relationship matures, the people mature too. after every quarrel, breakup, ppl learn and grow stronger. that's just natural. some ppl come off getting too strong and independent, then they leave. that's natural too. nevertheless, its sad seeing ppl part.
i find it tiring to make everyone happy nowadays. so i choose to make myself happier instead. do what i like, what i want, and let things fall in place(if they do). too many misunderstandings have left me speechless. cos no matter how i explain myself, i see their faces and i know they cant be bothered. everything i say comes across as an excuse. forget it. i dont wanna make others upset, neither do i want to make myself miserable thinking about what could have been done to salvage the situation. if that's just how much faith u guys have in me, too bad then. i've a clear conscience and im tired of explaining myself.
i may only be that young. and i may have only experienced that much. but i do agree with zk when he said that our relationship is kinda different now. doesnt take much effort to maintain, doesnt require constant attention, doesnt need frequent contact. perhaps all those we wanted is alr passe. trust, feelings, and love transcend all that. well, i dont rule out the chance of us getting complacent and the relationship might die off this way. but im glad with the way things are now. simple. and i am so much more contented with the way things are (i dont know bout him). i look back and think that the ME in the past was just too... emotional. childish perhaps? i wanted so much and i gave so much. ppl get exhausted easily that way. in a way, i dont regret all the pain zk put me thru during the breakup. that was probably what it took to shake me to my senses, and show him how much he wanted this relationship, if at all.
ppl learn, ppl grow. nobody's perfect. everyone's flawed, so are you. so why not give each other a chance? nobody can prove himself if he's not given a chance, isn't it?
*[a lil princess thought at]*|03:27|
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
we're back together.
yes we are.
=)
many are happy for me, but i also know many would think im crazy to go back to him after all that has happened. i can only say that im happy with him, and that's all i need to know. with a common understanding that we love each other even after everything, that's all that matters. afterall, people get into a relationship because they love each other and they are happy together, isn't it? keep things simple. and all else will fall into place. essentially, that is what binds two very different people together in one relationship.
thanks for all my darlings who offered support thru that tough period. that breakup allowed me to cherish all my frens arnd me. nothing much changes, other than the fact that my status is back from 'single' to 'attached'. continue asking me out cos i only have sch on 2 days. haa.
i gotta apologize to another person who stuck by me all this while. nic, im sorry. many things are unexplainable. so im sorry i cant give u a proper 'reason' or explanation of any sorts. u'll always hold that spot in my heart, even as a fren. loved and lost. probably lost to time.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|19:05|
Thursday, May 08, 2008
im going to Redang tmr. =)
*[a lil princess thought at]*|01:55|
Tuesday, May 06, 2008
a HUGE HUGE HUGE THANK YOU to all my friends who came for the surprise party on 30th!!! a HUGE HUGE THANK YOU to all those who wanted to come but couldn't due to exams or other reasons!!! A HUGE THANK YOU to ALLLLLLLLLL other friends who wished me happy birthday!!! =)
LOVES.
*[a lil princess thought at]*|01:42|
